Miss Boat

They/She | Currently Torturing Merlin Hermes | Drowning in the Seas of Fandom

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Shit about me:

Boat | Eris | Mango idc take your pick,

she/her + they/them

My ao3

@miss-strife-boat where I yap about my original fiction stuff and rofan manhwas

Masterpost section (this is literally just for me to find this shit easier feel free to ignore this stuff)

DP Protagonist Stick AU

SVSSS Waiting Room AU

Op Painted Over AU

Weird Gotham AU

Lotm X HSR Crossover aka chucking the Amphoreus cast into lotm

Lotm Gehrman in Time Out Kleinsona Au

Loz Modern Day: Deja Vu AU

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another underappreciated tumblr feature that you dont get on other sites is the queue. i love it when something i thought was funny six months ago and then forgot about a week later crawlts its way out of the processing vortex and i get to see it all over again.

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you should queue this post it would be funny and grant me immortality

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you motherfuckers put me in the processing vortex

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THE TIME LOOP

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making this unrebloggable. die.

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LIVE ONCE MORE BY MY WHIM

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Writing Description Notes:

Updated 19th October 2025 More writing tips, review tips & writing description notes

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[missb0at]

More of the bethel focused thingy I wrote

1. Name | 2. Symbolism | 3. Blessing | 4. Betrayal | 5. Blasphemy | 6. Madness | 7. Guidance | 8. Banishment (this post) | 9. Sacrifice (this post)

Ⅷ. BANISHMENT

There is an irony to the fact that "He" who stood atop of the Pathway that specialized in Sealing, was imprisoned in "His" very own body. Imprisoned in a place that even "He" cannot escape easily. Imprisoned with nothing but an Outer Deity's corruption to keep "Him" company.

"Save me."

I don't want to be here.

"Save me."

Get me out of here.

"Save me."

I want to go home.

"Save me."

Bethel had always known that the things that lurked in the endless cosmos were terrifying. But it was only in this moment that "He" truly understood the extent of that horror.

"Save me."

Because Bethel does not want to be in this place. "He" cannot leave this place, cannot simply leave as "He" wishes and Bethel can't remember the last time that "He" was so tied down, so restricted. Everything in "Him" is screaming to leave, screaming to escape, screaming to not be confined any longer.

The part of "Him" that wants that is real. It's not some foreign urge that was implanted into "Him". That person calling out for help is "Him". It's Bethel Abraham. "He" wants to be saved.

"Save me."

It is only natural after all. Anyone in "His" position would want to be saved. Why would "He" not want to be saved?

"Save me."

And these words will reach "His" family. It will reach them and they will try to save "Him". Bethel knows "His" family. They're stubborn. Once they realize the truth behind the ravings, once they realize that "He" is calling for help. They won't give up until "He" is free.

"Save me."

If "He" waits long enough, if "He" endures long enough, if "He" begs long enough someone will free "Him".

"Save me."

And so "He" begs for salvation ever more.

"Save me…"

The comfort that this knowledge gives "Him" disgusts "Him". There is nothing but loathing, nothing but contempt that "He" feels for the relief and hope that claws at "His" heart. This resignation to the circumstances, the willingness to simply roll over and give up, the surrender to madness just repulses Bethel.

"SaVe me"

Bethel is repulsed by that mockery of "His" self that has taken control over "His" body. Repulsed by how "His" family is being taken advantage of by that caricature of a person. But the thing that repulses "Him" the most, the fact that "He" simply abhorred, is the fact that even if "He" were to fight it with all "His" might it would not matter.

"Save me… SavE me…"

Sooner or later "He" will be released. "His" resistance will inevitably prove to be useless.

"SAVE…"

Hopelessness…

Is this what that felt like?

"Save Me… SaVe me…. SAve me…."

To be reduced to such a state…

Bethel never thought that such a thing would happen to "Him".

"Save … ME"

Surrounded by nothing but darkness and an eternal storm, Bethel wonders if this is what the world looked like all those years ago. When the mad gods of old ruled the world, when madness was in abundance, when the Ancient Sun God waged war to librate humanity, is this what the world looked like?

"SAVe me… SAve mE"

Did humanity cry for help the way that "He" did now?

"SavVe Me. SaVE me. SAVE ME."

Had humanity sought salvation just as "He" did now?

"SavEme.. Save mE sAvemE sA Veme S avEMe sAveMEsavEmEsaVemESaveME"

It did not matter.

"saVEMesAvEmeSAVEMESAVEMESAVEMESAVEMESAVEMESAVEMESAVEMESAVEMESAVEMESAVEME-"

Bethel makes a choice.

"Don't save me"

The Abraham Family will suffer for "His" choice. Be it "His" children or grandchildren or great grand children or the far away descendants that Bethel will not have watched over. The noble blood that flows through their veins will become a curse chaining them to madness.

"Don't save me"

They will die in agony as they lose control. They will be forced to put each other down as if they were wild beasts rather than family. They will know no peace just as "He" will not.

"Don't save me"

What Bethel truly wanted was not salvation. Not if "His" salvation meant damning the planet, damning humanity, damning every single one of "His" loved ones to a fate even worse than the one that "He" is already damning them to.

"Don't save me"

This is the right thing to do. It is the only thing that Bethel can do.

"SAVE ME"

Salvation will come.

"Don't save me"

It won't.

"SAVE ME"

If "He" calls out for it long enough salvation will come.

"Don't save me"

Not as long as he gets a say about that.

Ⅸ. SACRIFICE

“Do you wish to bring the disaster back to the real world?”

That…

That was Amon.

Yes. That was the Sun God's second son, Amon the Angel of Time.

Or at the very least it sounded like "Him". Bethel would like to say that it was nice to hear a familiar voice after so long. Or even just any voice that was not "His" own. But to hallucinate the voice of a man like Amon, Bethel must have truly lost it now.

"Give up."

Or perhaps it was not a hallucination. Only Amon would have the audacity to tell "Him" to give up now. Give up? What a ridiculous notion. Now that "He" has already decimated "His" own family just to prolong "His" own imprisonment? Truly the only person so shameless would be-

"I have a way to deal with it. I'll let you sleep and get the peace you want."

Most people - scratch that - anyone who knew Amon would not believe "His" words. But there was nothing for "Him" to gain in decieving Bethel. And so Bethel let's "Himself" believe those words. "He" let's "Himself" believe that peace truly was a possibility for "Him".

Countless faces flash before Bethel's eyes. Memories "He" thought long lost to the inevitable passage of time resurfaced. There were hundreds, thousands, millions perhaps even that "He" held dear. As sudden as they resurfaced so too did they slip away from "His" grasp. Until "His" mind settled on a certain memory.

Ultimately, it was a memory with "His"… with his mother. As if it had just been yesterday, the scene played out inside of his mind.

Once, a very very long time ago, a little boy had been afraid. The little boy clung to the hand of his mother. In the face of the boy's fears the mother simply smiled. He was her very pride and joy.

"Do not fear nor despair. For God will grant you salvation."

It feels almost like a sick and twisted joke to Bethel. But after all these years of imprisonment. After all these years of enduring corruption, of fighting for every scrap of sanity, Bethel Abraham was tired. He was so very tired.

And here the son of God was offering him salvation.

Yes. It was salvation at the cost of "His" life. It means giving up now. To leave this stage that "He" had fought so hard to stay on. But what else did "He" have left to give now?

Bethel had nothing.

And so, Mr. Door closed "His" eyes and lowered "His" head. And the very first word "He" spoke after returning to this world was…

"Alright"

2616 years ago…

You were born as a human boy that was named Bethel, the House of God.

A vessel for the Celestial Worthy. A literal house for a god

You become an angel and then a King of Angels that stood at the peak of your Pathway.

The Door Pathway. Doors. Seals. Space. The Magician. Willpower, creation, desire, manifestation. Tickets, illusions, cunning, manipulation.

You were the illustrious ancestor of the Abraham Family…

Great Door of All Doors

Guide of the Endless Cosmos

Key to all Mysterious Worlds

Bethel Abraham.

"2616 years after his birth, over 1532 years after "His" banishment Mr. Door died protecting the home that he had been taught to love and cherish at the cost of everything.

"In the wake of "His" sacrifice, Amon ascended to the status of a Dual Pathway True Deity.

"Mr. Error was born."

This is a reasonable development.

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Blub hai Tumblr have this very unfinished bethel thing I began writing when I found out about him being raised as essentially Grisha's pet cw (unfinished in the sense that I have the first and last two parts but the middle is all fighting me

1. Name (this post) | 2. Symbolism (also this post) | 3. Blessing | 4. Betrayal | 5. Blasphemy | 6. Madness | 7. Guidance | 8. Banishment | 9. Sacrifice

Ⅰ. NAME

■■■■■■■■ was with child.

It fills her with joy to be blessed with a child so soon after her marriage. The prospects of motherhood, as intimidating as they were, also brought her nothing but joy. And yet she could not help but worry, for she had not known what to name her beloved child.

Days and nights ■■■■■■■■ pondered this decision. For her very first child a special name would be needed after all.

She consulted her husband, but he was at a loss. So they asked their relatives. But their suggestions did not feel right with the soon to be parents. They then turned to their friends and neighbours. And again, they could not find a name that they wanted to grant their child. Not knowing where else to turn to, the couple went to their local church. Helpless they asked the sister if she could help them.

The sister was honoured to be trusted by the couple. Knowing how important this was to them she carefully thought about where they could find a name for the baby. After a long time the sister answered the helpless couple with a smile on her face.

"Why don't you seek out the holy texts and name your child after one of the honoured saints and angels?"

Delighted by the suggested ■■■■■■■■ and her husband turned to the holy texts. Many many weeks long they searched for the name that they might give their child. And within the blink of an eye, the day for the child to be born arrived.

Though the couple had not found a name for their child, they were anxious no longer. In the previous night, as ■■■■■■■■ slumbered with worry in her heart, she had prayed for the health and safety of her child. She had prayed so that God might guide her on the right path, prayed so that her child may never stray from the right path.

And in her dreams the mother found the answer to her worries.

Amidst ■■■■■■■■'s dreams an angel revealed "Himself". The angel was tall, long silver hair was draped over "His" body. "He" wore a simple white and grey robe. Six white wings emerged from the back of the angel.

■■■■■■■■ could not believe her eyes. An angel had appeared before her eyes and it was not just any angel, it was a King of Angels! The angel that appeared in her dreams was the Hero Spirit of the River, the Grace of God, the Angel of Fate!

Before the woman could scramble to show the angel the respect that "He" was due, the Angel of Fate locked eyes with her and spoke

"Your child, who shall be known as Bethel, will walk the righteous path that God has intended for him. Do not fear the test of God. Do not fear the misfortunes that will befall you and your child. For God will grant you salvation."

And on the day that ■■■■■■■■'s child was born, he was cradled by the loving arms of his mother. And on that day, ■■■■■■■■'s face was full with pride and joy as she carefully kissed her child on the forehead. And on that day, her husband looked at her with a knowing smile as ■■■■■■■■ declared with not even a hint of doubt the name of her child.

"Bethel. His name will be Bethel Abraham."

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Ⅱ. SYMBOLISM

Bethel 

Gender Feminine

Usage English

Scripts בֵּית־אֵל (Ancient Hebrew)

Pronounced /ˈbɛθ.əl/

Meaning & History

From an Old Testament place name meaning "house of God" in Hebrew. […]

Abraham

Gender Masculine

Usage English, Hebrew, Spanish, French, Dutch, Armenian, Biblical, Biblical German, Biblical Swedish, Biblical Norwegian, Biblical Danish, Biblical Latin [1]

Scripts אַבְרָהָם (Hebrew) Աբրահամ (Armenian)

Pronounced /ˈeɪ.bɹə.hæm/ (English) /a.βɾa.ˈam/ (Spanish) /a.bʁa.am/ (French) /ˈaː.braː.ɦɑm/ (Dutch) /ˈaː.bʁa.ham/ (German) /ˈɑː.bra.ham/ (Swedish)

Meaning & History

From the Hebrew name אַבְרָהָם (ʾAvraham), which may be viewed either as meaning "father of many" or else as a contraction of Abram 1 and הָמוֹן (hamon) meaning "many, multitude". […]

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NEVER FUCKING KLL YOUSELF, LIFE IS GOOD LIFE IS GREAT

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older coco and agott wearing orufreys clothes bc why not?

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WITNESS THE WILL OF THE WEAK

[missb0at]

Quick Story Time: "Boat and the Christian Denominations trying to yoink them"

Okay so for a while not already I've been getting a shit ton of ads from the Mormon church online. Now I'm not an expert on the various versions of Christianity but the Mormon one is in my head "that weird off shoot that is very cultish and USA centric". It's annoying because I literally only get ads for AI shit or the Mormon church but like whatever it's fine I can live with it. (I speculate that my search history of researching various facts about the Christianity and specifically the Catholic Church for lotm is not helping but whatever)

On a semi related note a bit over a week or so ago at like 10 in the morning someone rung my bell. Now little boat boat that didn't wake up all that long ago got up from bed and thought "ah the mail" I grabbed the thingy that lets me talk with whoever is downstairs at the front door and am immediately confused and speechless when I hear Vietnamese through it.

For the record I am Vietnamese but any language related skills are questionable at best

Anyway so little boat boat hears "we're going around all the Viet ppl in the area smt smt if you'd like we can come up and talk about it more". Now Boat over here who only just a few days ago came from my sister who keeps insisting I seek out more PoC circles thought "that's awfully convenient" and let them come up.

Things happen, we talk a bit over the fact that we're all Viet kids who grew up in this European country and like they begin yapping about how difficult and turbulent the world is rn.

Then they start talking about the Bible.

At this point my little boat brain short circuits and turns on auto pilot. Ehrm. Yeah. So the combo of Viet+Christian was already strange to me. There is only one Christian Viet that I know and I genuinely forgot about that until we talked about these people because they were going from door to door and all and she lives a few houses over.

Anyway so that already confused me. The whole "going from door to door" thing confused me even more. Because like. That happens in this country? I only heard about it happening over in the us of a. I didn't know that was a thing.

Anyway while this very awkward (for me) conversation is happening I'm thinking about my friends who are in my room and can hear everything because my room's door is wide open and the distance between my door and the apartment door is like 3 or 4 steps.

To cut this short, because I was very weirded out and on autopilot I gave the people my phone number, they invited to ... Bible study? And I closed the door, stared at the door, turned to my room and said loudly from the hallway.

"Vietnamese Christian missionaries, now I've seen everything"

And then I looked at the flyer they gave me and corrected my statement to

"Vietnamese Jehovah's witnesses, now I've seen everything"

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chapter 76.1

KIM SOLEUM IS BOTH AN AGENT AND AN EMPLOYEE AND THE TWO GROUPS HATE EACH OTHER THIS IS THE FUNNIEST THING I THINK I'VE SEEN ALL DAY

AND THEY'RE IN THE SAME ROOM. FIGHTING!

AND BAEK SAHEON IS THERE!

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just saw someone say "a fandom is small, so like only 1-3 fics posted per day" . you wouldnt survive a day in the place where im from

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Accidentally became important at work:

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Starting a collection

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hm.. im in too deep, so this wont be changing anything for me, but i need clarification.

Braun, right? thats how its spelt in all the translations.

how do you pronounce ‘Braun’ ?

brown

brawn

secret 3rd option (notes)

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realizing that I was 14 when I got a diagnosis for depressive episodes is kinda crazy because what do you mean that at 14 years old I got fucked over so hard that I got depressive episodes I was fucking tiny back then

But then again thinking about the circumstances of both the world and my personal life it isn't that surprising like yeah. that did happen. crazy.

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Well happy pride month to this anon and the terrible pun

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I offer thee this, while we patiently wait for the manhwa like GOODCHILD

also the behind the scenes sketch if u care...

(Caught my own ass drawing like a caveman 😭✌️)