MorgⒶn ElizⒶbeth

I'm a 24 year old mush brain dip shit. Pansexual. She/her pronouns. Hrt 7/1/18. Terfs and truscum can fuck right off. I love all things punk. Oi! Oi! Oi!

[morgan-the-queer]

You've got one thing on your mind.

And i'm pulling up devils from the long dark past.

And the pain starts piling up too fast.

I can pin down the minute that i lost my buzz.

Thought i was somebody nobody could love.

[discreet45]

THEY TOLD US WE WERE GIRLS HOW WE TALK, DRESS, LOOK, AND CRY THEY TOLD US WE WERE GIRLS SO WE CLAIMED OUR FEMALE LIVES

NOW THEY TELL US WE AREN’T GIRLS OUR FEMININITY DOESN’T FIT WE’RE FUCKING FUTURE GIRLS LIVING OUTSIDE SOCIETY’S SHIT! 

[morgan-the-queer]

TERFs have been reblogging an old transition timeline picture of mine and doing what TERFs do best, being hateful bigots. I just think it’s hilarious that they really think that their hurting my feelings or something. You mean nothing to me but it’s obvious that you’re obsessed with me and other trans folks.

[morgan-the-queer]

I'm really fucking proud of you

Thank you! 💜

[morgan-the-queer]

This was really hard for me to do but it had to be done. I had to say goodbye to a friend today. I know I’m doing what’s best for me but I feel terrible for it. I’m going to miss them a lot but unfortunately I don’t think that they will be willing to change. Addiction is a terrible disease and I’m glad that I was able to walk away from that life, many of my friends probably never will.

[morgan-the-queer]

I FUCKING DID IT!!! I seriously still can’t believe that I haven’t used drugs in a whole damn year. I mean I would be lying if I said I wasn’t tempted at times because those cravings are intense as hell and they really don’t fully go away, it’s just easier to deal with them now. I’ve found so much strength in this journey. In my path to recovery I’ve had plenty of time to reflect on my life and one thing that I realized was a constant throughout my life was substance use. Whether it was weed, alcohol, pills or cocaine there was always something I was using as a crutch or as an escape. My drug use was always an attempt to subdue my dysphoria. My earliest memories are all feelings of dysphoria and even though I didn’t realize it as a young kid, I’ve always been trying to fight off dysphoria any way that I could. Nothing ever worked except for drugs, or at least I thought they worked. In reality I was just numbing myself for however long my high lasted and as soon as I came down I just felt like shit all over again. I’ve come to understand that what I really need to do is continue making steps forward in my transition, no matter how big or how small, I just need to keep moving. Also ignore all the paint on my table lol.

[morgan-the-queer]

You know that feeling where you really miss someone but you don’t know how to reach out and feel like it would be too awkward at this point anyway plus you’re the one who fucked up a really strong relationship because of drugs in the first place? Yeah fuck everything.

[freakymummy]

Yes because I miss you so much and at this point I am not gonna lie I’m scared to reach out cause I feel awkward about it 2! Not to mention I fear you may hate me..... I love you Morgan always have always will and you are such a strong & beautiful women 💕

[morgan-the-queer]

I definitely don’t hate you and I love you too. I miss hanging out like we use to and all the meaningful conversations we had. You’re probably the most genuine person that I know and I miss having someone I could tell anything too. Can we please get together soon?

[morgan-the-queer]

Without a doubt one of the best feelings in the world is coming home from a long day of work and striping off your bra and undoing your tuck.

[doomedvoyages]

idk about hte rest of yall but im gonna be wearing a mask for the rest of forever. im into it. i love not having a face. it’s an essential part of my wardrobe now. would appreciate it if the rest of you would do the same so im not the only one doing some covidcore fashion statement

[morgan-the-queer]

Here’s another painting that I just finished 💜

[morgan-the-queer]

I remember seeing your blog around a year and a half ago, I’m really happy to see your post about being clean, that’s a shit journey to go through and you’re doing amazing :)

Thank you so much, friend. 💜💜💜

[morgan-the-queer]

I’m officially 1 year clean from drugs and I’m insanely proud of myself today!! I had some fun working on some paintings tonight, here’s one that I just finished. I’m pretty happy how it ended up coming together.

[plaidos]

Elliot Page really woke up and said “time to become the world’s most famous he/they” and then he did it. legend.

[morgan-the-queer]

When I look in the mirror I have a really hard time seeing the woman looking back at me. The only thing I can see is every little thing that I hate about my body. The only thing I can think about is how disgusted I am with myself. I feel like I’ll never be good enough, I feel like I’ll never look the way I want to look. When I’m in public I’m instantly stripped of she and her and I’m labeled constantly by strangers as he and him. All the while the stranger never knows how deeply those words sting. How is a random passerby going to see me as a woman when I can’t even see myself as such? Dysphoria is a fucking bitch.

[needlekind]

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i am gonna make it though this year if it kills me

[morgan-the-queer]

One last thing I beg you please just before you go

I've watched you fly on paper wings half way round the world

Until they burned up in the atmosphere and sent you spiraling down

Landed somewhere far from here with no one else around

To catch you falling down

And I'm looking at you now

And I can't tell if you're laughing

Between each smile there's a tear in your eye

There's a train leaving town in an hour

Its not waiting for you and neither am I

Swing for the fences son

He must have told you once

That was a conversation you took nothing from

So raise your glass now and celebrate exactly what you've done

Just put off another day of knowing where your from

You can catch up with yourself if you run

And I can't tell if you're laughing

Between each smile there's a tear in your eye

There's a train leaving town in an hour

Its not waiting for you and neither am I

Is this the life that you lead?

Or the life that's left for you?

Will you take the road that's been laid out before you

Will we cross paths somewhere else tonight? Somewhere else

And I can't tell if you're laughing

Between each smile there's a tear in your eye

There's a train leaving town in an hour

Its not waiting for you and neither am I

And I can't tell if you're laughing

Between each smile there's a tear in your eye

There's a train leaving town in an hour

Its not waiting for you and neither am I

[morgan-the-queer]

It really sucks that I had to stop hanging out and associating with my friends that are still using because I miss them a lot, but I know if I’m around them I’m going to end up relapsing again. Even though my cravings are mostly gone, if someone was doing blow in front of me it would be extremely hard to resist the urge. I guess I’ve just been really lonely lately and I feel like I have no one that I can talk to. The suicidal thoughts are really taking over.