[morning-meltdown]

Things:

I was feeling really panicky this morning and realized it’s probably due to my excessive weed usage for the last two weeks so I’m not going to smoke any for the rest of the week, possibly continue it through the weekend, and see if that helps.

I’ve been journaling a LOT lately which has felt so nice. I’m usually bad at journaling because I want it to be well written but I’ve basically said fuck it, just get it written down. Very cathartic, 10/10 recommend.

Everyday is getting easier, even with the lows of this morning. Still very much looking forward to therapy on Friday.

I’m genuinely excited to see how I feel after I get out of my PMS brain and back into my logical brain. I think I’m gonna be okay.

[singing-bowl]

thinking about how ursula k leguin said "what goes too long unchanged destroys itself. The forest is forever because it dies and dies and so lives" and how everyday i wake up slightly different and i can feel myself shed the skin of who i used to be slowly, slowly, until i look back and can scarcely recognise who i was... but also she is still a part of me, part of the leaf litter and the humus, supporting me as i send new roots down and new leaves stretching up to the sunlight

[surprisemoose]

What kind of Millennial™️ are you?

Avocado toast millennial

I am bird watcher now.

I ran a marathon for fun?

Yes, I am currently working on five fiber art projects…

Other millennial stereotype that I will write in the tags.

I am unfortunately not part of the greatest generation aka here for the result

Remaining time: 5 days 7 hours

Please share!

[morning-meltdown]

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[aidashakur]

[morning-meltdown]

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[aidashakur]

[morning-meltdown]

Took the twins to the groomer which freed up my morning. I’m at my favorite coffee shop in town, journaling and reading, trying to find some semblance of who I am.

[sahlesummerhill]

[fairycosmos]

no one is coming to save you its true its true someone might be coming to hang outttttttttt though. someday

[morning-meltdown]

If Prince can get through whatever got him into a place to perform Purple Rain, I can get through this.

[morning-meltdown]

Feeling vulnerable and gross.

I may be wallowing but I’ve still showed up to work and provided fun and challenging classes (except the days I took off when I was in the deepest part of the wallow). The twins have gotten an activity every single day. I’ve bathed. I’ve eaten. I’ve journaled and emailed my therapist and talked to so many friends. I’ve gone out to dinner with L and drove down to Denver to get my nails done. I’ve found joy here and there. Letting my self sit in it feels good. Feeling feels good. I just wish I knew how much longer it’ll take for me to walk in it, instead.

[morning-meltdown]

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[daggerdoggy]

settings > wound > my wound > reopen

[lemon-labia]

broke my routine so now i have to kill myself

[peskyfirefly]

ur girlfriend/boyfriend should NOT be ur first priority... ur first priority should ALWAYS be me, ur tumblr mutual

[the-efemmeral]

whenever i see this in my notifications it feels like a kiss on the forehead