Try to keep the wolves at bay

29//he/they//sideblog//basically for saying whatever I want

[morose-marble]

Oh for fuck's sake, my posts have stopped showing up in tags again 🙄

It's becoming a pattern! every time I have one post get even a little traction at all, my posts in the following days just never show up anywhere! Am I being shadow banned?? What goes on????

[morose-marble]

Lots of really difficult feelings about episode 3. I thought it was good, but also made me feel sad and uncomfortable about Claudia's part in the narrative? How it truly never has been about her, as she points out in season 2. Her violation is its own, horrific event that never gets to fully be only hers, because we never hear from her directly. She defines how her assault happened in her own words, but she does not control who does and doesn't get to hear them within the narrative.

Her pain is now used to describe Lestat's pain, and enrich the audience's understanding of his character and his relationship to her, just as the very act of reading her words out loud allows us to understand Louis better. Lestat was more like Claudia than was ever let on, and Louis is locked in his myopic grief loop that has long since left the actual Claudia's autonomy behind in favour of feeding its vicious circle.

It's part of this horror story, the tragedy of this girl, this woman, so full of life and potential, ultimately having everything taken from her, serving as theme, collateral damage for the destruction and subsequent arduous healing process of these two men. I guess when looking at Anne Rice's original novel, Claudia serves as such a tool for her own grieving process as well.

I've known the whole time that this is her role in the narrative, and I've accepted it. This story simply isn't about her, and yet it feels like an injustice to let that be the case. I'm not saying this to condemn anyone or claim that the writing is bad, but the horror of it feels terribly familiar in a disconcerting way. Like, the story isn't about her, but it seemingly never is? This Black woman is a device for a story that isn't about her. And if this show existed in a vacuum, it would be easier to accept it as just a part of this particular story with no real-world baggage to it, but it doesn't, so it feels heavy in a way it shouldn't?

I'm going to have to process this for a while. Maybe I'll feel different on another day, find another perspective, perhaps? Who knows?

[morose-marble]

AND, and!!!!! Lestat can't quite fully put into words what being with his mother makes him feel!! Literally!

He trails off in his monologue, because he cannot examine their relationship honestly!!!!!! Because it causes him immense pain!!!!!! Here she is, performing for her son, and he is performing right back, meeting her sexual act with his own, receiving it with his passive stare!!!!!! I simply cannot interpret this as him being into it????

[morose-marble]

I've been watching all the new TVL reaction videos as I am wont to do, and I have to say, I'm genuinely shocked at how few people recognise Lestat's victimhood?? Vis-à-vis Gabriella, I mean.

It's just video after video of people cringing and going "i don't know if I can be okay with this" or "Ok, it's different for vampires, but still weird" or "the episode is spent trying to tell us that 'it's different for vampires, sure', and the episode is telling us none of these things??????

I get that incest is a really taboo, confronting subject, and that might make it difficult to process, but the show is telling us so much about Lestat's feelings?? It's right there! What exactly is it about the story that is telling you you should be okay with the incest??? If it was just a handful of people reacting like this, I wouldn't be as surprised as I am, but it's pretty much every video I've seen?

Even the responses that aren't just knee-jerk disgust or reluctant acceptance barely draw from what the show is giving us, and in one particular case resort to Freudian "strong mother figure" Oedipus complex nonsense?? Or then it's just a game of thrones joke.

Again and again, Lestat's perfunctorily flippant voice over addresses the elephant in the room, and his arguments/assurances get progressively weaker. We are shown multiple times that Lestat has never been in an equal position to his mother, and that she has taken advantage of that since their mortal life. There is an inherent power imbalance to their relationship (parent and child) that was only exacerbated by their abusive surroundings, and despite Lestat's arguments, immortality has not, and will not change this!

Lestat isn't an enthusiastic active participant in their sexual relationship! For God's sake, look at his face! His expressions alone should tell you everything you need to know!

The masked reluctance and fear of abandonment is constantly present between them simply on his face. And this is just the tip of the ice berg! Everything about the episode was telling us that Lestat is doing everything in his power to cope with the wrongness of it all competing with his desperate need for support and affection! It is crushing to watch!!! How does the public not see this?????

[actuallysara]

About season 2 being more graphic than season 1:

Jacob: they're very similar level of spice

Hudson: hole

Jacob: what, no

[lelethetopicchanger]

🎶✨when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool)🎶✨

omg im one of your favourite followers 🥹 tyy

(in order of rn)

Wet (i LIVE this one)

how to make crows cry

war isnt murder

Mr brightside

mitti ke bete

*other ones that are just as important but i cant fit all of them in 5 and i feel like more people should know them(not in order)

Just a girl

girls just wanna have fun

labour

dont cry for your daughters eve

feed us your girls

Ghar kab aaoge

all the dhurandhar songs lmaoo

NPC by cavetownnnn rhahhh

devil town :33

For us

SAILOR SONGGG

Update: im too lazy for this shit so um ignore if youve already been involved(if ur close to me and not tagged its because i think youve alr been tagged xx)

@kurobkasa @moro-thekebab-noodles @walking-mushroom @whackybird-offical @jess-is-toolazy @deltasimaginaryland @evelyn3377 @the-king-of-kaumidy @random-indian-girl (tag pipes i forgor her url ;-;;;) @fancysheepnacho

[moro-thekebab-noodles]

Bish you know other people?

List of my top 5 favorite songs

Butcher Vanity

Basics in Behavior (red)

Physcho in my head - Skillet

Karma - Kagame Rin Vocaloid

Monster - Skillet

Also extras:

Memory Reboot

Nothing - Emilie Autumn

Even Though I Loved You - Materu

Body - Mother Mother

Wrecking Ball - Mother Mother

Tags:

@amtheracoon @the-one-and-only-piper-offical @luvnotpercival @tanjochris

[the-one-and-only-piper-offical]

oh yay Butcher Vanity!!!!

100 Years - John Micheal Howell

Dangerous - Jorge Rivera-Herrans + Troy Doherty (my man Hermes)

Water The Roses - Flavor Foley+ Gumi Megpoid

Lonely - Imagine Dragons

The Best - Conan Gray (listened to it 296 times since release, I counted)

Tags

I'm bad at picking favourites or picking anything atp (/gen) so uhhh

@relinquished-roses-offical @random-indian-girl @dramaticinlyf @fancysheepnacho @shenanigan42 @do-not-u-dare @marshmallow-dust @thatchaoticbookworm @sunnyarik3r @oxyisdamoron @coffee--spill @nelly-rebellyyyyy @y0ur-valent1ne @astronaut-offical @skeletal-spire-man-aka-overfit + open tags

[dramaticinlyf-deactivated202604]

The best- conan gray Lovesick boys- conan gray lookalike- conan gray lovesick lullaby- YUNGBLUD aperture- harry styles

I LOVE ALL MY MOOTS BUT CHOOSING FAVS IS HARDDDD AHSGHS

@shenanigan42 @sunnyarik3r @eleventhirtythoughts @oxyisdamoron @fancysheepnacho @ravensncrowsx @the-aricher @souperache @istillwishforyouateleveneleven @padfoot-sirius-black @joylivie + open tags <3

[souperache]

AAAHH TYSM FOR THE TAG IM SO HAPPY

jigsaw falling into place - radiohead

white winter hymnal- fleet foxes

eleven eleven- conan gray

mystery of love- sufjan Stevens

not strong enough- boygenius

tagging: @theverycoolfish @eleventhirtythoughts @dramaticinlyf @istillwishforyouateleveneleven @arikakari @epitome-of-stupidity @aamtreeanalogy @classclowns @paraskeinia @ravensncrowsx + I love all of you but picking faves is so hard I just tagged whoever came to mind

[theverycoolfish]

THANKS FOR THE TAG <33

Utan dina andetag- Kent

Good luck babe! - Chappel Roan

Waterloo (Swedish version) - ABBA

Sergels Torg - Veronica Maggio

Zombie - The Cranberries

@cyberr-v0id @psycho-scribblerrrrr @lunastellan @vargdottern @thepumpkinofpower @random-doctor-on-the-internet @ebbus @corvidcrafts273 @mynameismysecret @bridgeoverstrawberryfields :)

[vargdottern]

1. enjoy the silence - depeche mode

2. columbus - kent

3. starman - david bowie

4. mr. brightside - the killers

5. call me - blondie

@basil-isk-burgers @fiery-red-sunset @monkizra @bisexualjeans :))

[basil-isk-burgers]

:DDD

(Tack också @en-snygg-mastertjuv och @zer0-d0ll4rs för taggen:)

In no particular order:

1. Unknown / Nth - Hozier

2. Slentbjenn - Hoven Droven

3. Black Hole Fantasy - The Crane Wives

4. Skärp dig! - Hårdgnissel

5. I Want To Break Free - Queen

@burbur178 @stealthetrees @notamilkofmice @mypineappleisshit @odd060 @the-tin-dog @stressedbeetle @overlord-of-chaos @every-season-actually-sucks :)

[burbur178]

Yayyy

No order:

1. Oh Bravo - Children 18:3

2. En Ensam Cowboy - Charta 77

3. Risk - Metric

4. Wearing White - Tardigrade Inferno

5. shut me up - Tribe Friday

@too-many-beloveds @grevevonjulmust @tjuvadpatid @periklesostrakon

I don’t know if you guys are only here for the tf stuff or not (I post that on a side blog now btw), but I thought I might as well include you anyway:

@vhsravage @gilbertgoosey @bunniesbearsandadventures @sassycandypoetry @mono-lithical @pedawriter @wifeofwhirl @cookiesbroshuttup

[periklesostrakon]

Tack, @burbur178

I see some Swedish songs recs (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ Will look into them all.

In no order:

Fight club - Giant Rooks (for the drama)

Undantag - Dina ögon (älskar hennes röst)

Hollywood - Joy Oladokun (more people should listen to this song)

Les dormantes - Zaho de Sagazan (French electro is slay, as the kids say)

電車かもしれない - たま ( it'a great, i promise)

I don't talk to people here but I don't waste any opportunity to bother @miribalis, I remember @morose-marble from when Shine was airing, I recently found @knasigheter and their pic made me laugh.

[morose-marble]

Okay! Lovely to be remembered @periklesostrakon, likewise!

Lately I have been listening to a variety of tunes, particularly these:

Femme Hysteria - Haute & Freddy (the Big Disgrace album is great, I recommend the whole thing)

Servizio Fotografico - Bruno Nicolai (I've been on a 60s/70s Italian and French film score kick)

Misty - Sarah Vaughan

Slight Werk- Club Mix - Honey Dijon, Bree Runway

Moses - hemlocke springs

I'm mostly active on tumblr when I'm going through a hyperfixation, so my interaction with others is quite sporadic 😅 However, I will tag @heaven-is-in-your-arms-series @callipigio @fromperdition4 @artpo @susanwiththescythe and @spicyvampire for all the good times!

[morose-marble]

So, I managed to get over the hump of episodes 1 & 2, and have caught up with the hockey yaoi. Episode 5 was very good!

[mapofthedreams]

We are joined by a cord that you cannot see, but it is real, it is real.

[morose-marble]

god damned everyone and their mother is watching the hockey yaoi show and I'm getting fomo about it, but I can't get into it because i just hate sports that much. I cannot see a singular team jersey on my screen, not one godforsaken sports nozzle water bottle nor knee pad (jockstraps are fine tho), the sheer disdain dripping from my every pore would melt my couch and burn a hole through my floor. But everyone is talking about it!!! Please, I want to be with the times, in the know, in the loop! Can my weak, insufferable theatre kid constitution handle it?? We are yet to find out...

[morose-marble]

Who could have possibly guessed???? Lmao

[spicyvampire]

SHINE (2025) EPISODE 4

[morose-marble]

CRRAAZZYY Stuff going on at the fan con, good god 💀

Terrible situation to be in bc I can't look at them doing all that™ on stage but also cannot look away, I am cursed to simply yell in my house

[sunny-side3]

[ipad-baby-armand]

Cute date idea

[jadziadykes]

[ghostontape]

maker of the year

[morose-marble]

Very, very excited to see Lestat unfiltered and as insufferable and annoying as he truly is. Both Louis and Armand made his diva tendencies seem charming bc of their bias for him and Claudia's account made him out to be intimidating enough to mitigate what a cringe loser he actually is. Finally, I will have my embarrassing blorbo in his truest form, god bless

[ladypaperwriterson]

What if you were a bright young reporter back in the 70s, except wait, NO YOU WEREN'T, you were a HOT JUNKIE IMBECILE, and then some crazy dude who thinks is a VAMPIRE cornered you at the gay bar, but he doesn't want to fuck, he wants you to interview him, and apparently he's ACTUALLY a vampire, and you do the interview, but then he ATTACKS you, and it all goes to SHIT, and his insane hot boyfriend is jealous, so he TORTURES you for an entire week, and you're such a FREAK that you get a BONER out of it, and then everything is blur, and then BAM, you're in your 70s and you're SICK and DYING, and the first vampire wants to REDO the interview, and you get a crush on his hot young assistant, and then you discover you were BRAINWASHED, and the assistant turns out to be the one who tortured you back in the 70s, and you get a boner AGAIN, and then you remember that he's THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE with whom you spent a good TEN YEARS with, and he TURNS YOU INTO A VAMPIRE, and then DISAPPEARS, and then you start STALKING each other all around the globe, and you want him BACK, and you want to do a documentary with a vampire ROCKSTAR who thinks you're ANNOYING, THEN WHAT

Lestat Louis Claudia Armand