When I first started this blogging page, my intentions were positive but my mind and time was overwheled with so much. My blogging path quickly tumbled to dirt. I was working full time (60+hrs a week) and life seemed like a rollercoaster of stability. Only things that were (at that point) definitely stable, were my job and my relationship. But im not going to go into what was. Especially if it isn't what's affecting my life right now. Right NOW, I have a 3 month old. Right NOW, my 4 year old just started school. Right NOW, im training to be manager at my new job. Right NOW, Im trying to get my boys and I back on our feet; trying to prepare for Daddy to come back home. Right NOW, I have so much on my plate. So much love and happiness. So much pain and hurt. I miss my man. I feel lonely so very often. I love my boys to the moon and back. Im just sad that I can't physically share the growths, developments and achievements of our boys with their father. Im sad that Elijah (my 4 yr old) misses him. I miss him. He hasn't met Dj yet 😞 Im not ready to share Daddies distance, but what I AM willing to share is the rest of my life. My lonely nights. Long work days. Happy days! My smiles! My tears! My written posts. My pictures. My videos. My favorite quotes. My life. I am hoping that blogging will fill my void of loneliness. I would love to feel the desire of someone just listening. I have come a long way, to have so much longer to go💯
