Because it is bitter and because it is my heart.

Fanfiction writer and reader. A03 profile: mswhich F1 side blog: fastcarscuteboys

[woman-becomer]

imagine a goat with a hat

STOP-

what hat did you give the goat what is the instinctual hat you gave to this goat

[hateusandseeifwemind]

[pinene]

Can anyone explain wtf is going on here especially a Korean speaker

[tadeadshihamurder]

someone on reddit explained 😭

[no-one-offical]

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[desmolbean404]

That is one of the most astronomical fuck up translations I have ever seen.

[azaablue]

the best fanfiction you've ever read was written by a woman in her 40s before she made dinner for her kids. it was written by a teenager after school when they should've been studying for a history test. and a barista came up with the idea while they cleaned the espresso machine and busser fact-checked it on their break and the post-doc edited between writing grant proposals and the nurse apologized for typos in the notes after a long shift and behind every drabble and one-shot and multi-chapter fic there is a person with a wonderful and interesting and chaotic life and it is such a privilege that we get to be apart of it because they decided to do this thing we all share, for fun.

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

in 2024 I felt like I was ready to articulate exactly what troubled me about the way that Neil Gaiman cultivated an image and a particular relationship with his fandom and then. well. and the thing is that it would still have troubled me if he hadn’t turned out to be an evil rapist and was just kind of a self-obsessed guy with poor boundaries, but now it’s impossible to talk about that lol.

[elf-kid2]

I am interested in what you have to say. I am interested in your perspective on this matter of reputation, fandom, and social/parasocial relationships.

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

I have tried but honestly I can’t really rewind my own brain to 2024 before the scandals broke and when it was all fresh in my mind due to the excitement around the Good Omens show. Ultimately it came down to having bad boundaries with his own fandom… the “rockstar” thing was very purposefully cultivated, and he got way too comfortable publicly encouraging a really extreme degree of hero worship in a way that felt deeply irresponsible from a public figure.

Like… his tumblr was quite active, his askbox was open, and he no doubt received dozens to thousands of asks per day. The ones he chose to publish were frequently over-the-top “you’re literally the reason I’m still breathing” “your books are so important to me I’m going to name my ovaries after you” type shit that’s like… personally I think you have to be a little bit of a creep not to find kind of uncomfortable. He would never attempt to graciously de-escalate or redirect that sort of interaction and really normalized it as the way to speak to and think about him while also courting the down-to-Earth and accessible Tumblr uncle thing. Just. Like. He made himself irresistible to a kind of psychologically vulnerable young queer woman hungry for validation in a way I had thought was shameless and irresponsible and retroactively think was very calculated.

[creekfiend]

yeah what always got me uncomfortable is that... like, and obviously my experience with this is the lowest stakes possible version, lol, but when you have any kind of somewhat visible internet presence and you Make Things that people see & consume, you'll get a variety of messages that range from "I hate your fucking guts in a weirdly personal way" to like, "I am/was really going through it and seeing you/your words really got me through a super dark time" with a LOT of stuff in the middle. and the latter type of posts often come with shades of "this person is really really vulnerable and is pedestalizing you and whatever you say back is going to have a really really outsized impact on them" and those are messages that I get sometimes, and I've gotten to the point where I'm always REALLY really conscious of the differential that's present there and always always try to respond in ways that emphasize my status as just a person on the same level of personhood as the asker, while at the same time not acting completely like A Peer, because how the person feels about me prevents us from really being equals in terms of the impact I can have on them vs the impact they can have on me. like, there simply is a level of emotional distance it is appriate to maintain when people latch onto you/your work to that degree.

so I would see the asks he chose to publish, and how he chose to respond to them, and my primary thought was always "wow I would never select those messages to publish and if I did I would answer them very differently" because he kind of did the opposite of the thing I try to do; he would act like he was A Peer (in other words, not acknowledging any unevenness between him & a fan) while at the same time not at all discouraging the pedestalizing. like "yes I'm a god, but I'm a god you can talk to!" as opposed to "wow hey, you can talk to me and I'm really glad my work had a positive influence on your life, but I'm not a god, I'm a guy." which I think at best shows someone is really clueless about power dynamics & bad boundaries and self aggrandizing behavior. and I guess we found out what it shows at worst.

blech.

[strix-alba]

#mmmmhmm.#a tricky line to articulate is that - absolutely the scope and magnitude of what came out against him was shocking#and far beyond what I had expected. I don't make any claims to having 'known all along' or anything of the sort#But also on the face of it. I was not surprised that he was accused of sexual assault.#Because the way he was acting with fans demonstrated a willingness to take advantage of people's admiration to feed his own ego.#which suggests a willingness to take advantage in other ways is at least a potential issue.#and there is something in the shape of hiding 'calculated intent to exploit' under a guise of 'willing to take advantage of fans'#under a guise of 'magnanimously accepting praise and feeding people's fan/idol complex'#under a guise of 'just building an approachable internet personality'#I also feel like. In relation to the whole thing with the sanctification of terry pratchett#I really felt like a lot of gaiman's posturing about the show was pretty transparently an attempt to feed off of that#energy of idolization. In a way that felt pretty shitty to do to the memory of a friend. (via screambirdscreaming)

[gailynovelry]

The fastest way to accomplish The Project is to cease being afraid of The Project. The Project cannot maim you. The Project cannot kill you. The Project is more afraid of you than you are of it. It is okay if The Project turns out differently from how it was in your head, and it is okay if it has flaws. You are capable of engaging with The Project.

[arctic-hands]

When I was a teenager and still on Neopets I was part of a pretty big Star Trek guild and eventually became part of its council, with the solemn duty of creating weekly polls. Well one day I created the poll "Which would win in a fight? Borg Cube or Death Star?". Naturally, since this was a Star Trek guild, the answer was overwhelmingly "Borg Cube", but someone did have the rationality to point out we were biased.

So I look up a pretty prominent Star Wars guild and message one of their council and ask them to poll the same question and get back to me in a week. They do, and naturally the fuckin geeks said "Death Star".

So then I look up a Stargate guild and messaged the lead council member, saying the same thing, and they get back to me almost immediately saying that the Death Star would immediately one-shot a Borg Cube but they would never be able to do it again to another Cube. And I took that wisdom back to my guild and we were mollified, and for one moment the Nerd World was peaceful.

[evilsoup]

[gilliagandy]

Truly thrilled to finally find this post on my dash.

[yourrottingwife]

SIMPLE GUIDE:

Body Horror: Things that cannot happen in real life. EX: The Thing, stomach mouths, eyes on hands, etc

Gore: Fresh injuries, often severe. EX: Severed leg, gutspill, deep gashes, etc

NEITHER: Healed injuries and burns, congenital differences, missing appendages, etc. If I could theoretically go to the store and see that character browsing the isles- It isn't body horror or gore. That's just a person. *AND the amount of people that tag, not just fictional characters, but real human beings as body horror is staggering. Its not solely a fandom issue, ableism and bigotry against anyone that looks sufficiently "different" is prevalent in real life and has devastating consequences.

(Modified) from my comment left on this post.

[yesornopolls]

Do you have a favourite piece of classical music?

Do you have a favourite piece of classical music?

Yes

No

Voting ended onJul 16

[noah-wyles]

this is such a fantastic and reassuring response

[mas-o-kissed]

“This kink is problematic when you think about it” ohhhhhh shit ok lemme head on over to the kink store and trade these kinks in for one that make my jackoff fantasies morally superior

[ickaimp]

So this is not a plea for money. This is something that surprised me, and chatting with people on discord, they were unaware of as well.

Discovered last year I couldn’t look at my 2015 MacBook Air without it triggering nausea and migraines, and figured the screen died. Have been getting by on my phone, but concluded I really need a laptop again.

Saved up, realised I could afford a brand new MacBook Neo, and got one.

-And I couldn’t spend more than five minutes looking at the screen without massive eye strain, nausea, vertigo, and if I pushed it, I-need-to-lie-down-in-a-dark-room-for-hours migraines.

Looking up MacBook and Eyestrain explained what is going on. The liquid retina displays that Apple currently has uses Pulse Width Modulation or PWM. In order to give the screens a deeper depth of colour and contrast, PWM flickers between several hundred to thousand times a second.

And there is currently no way to turn it off. There are settings and apps to reduce it, but there is no way to stop the screen from flickering. Checked Apple forums, called Apple Support, and the time I could look at the screen kept shrinking. Got the laptop Tuesday, returned it Friday, today is Sunday and I’m still dealing with a vertigo migraine.

For MacBooks, it seems to vary on the computer model and the software it uses. In retrospect, the issue with my MacBook Air started after a major software update.

And it’s not just an Apple thing. Current Windows and Android screens do the same thing. There’s even a Reddit for people who are sensitive to PWM flickers to help find computers and screens that won’t trigger eyestrain and headaches.

So, yeah. This week has been a learning experience. But for those who are prone to headaches and migraines, this may be something to be aware of, cause I was not.

[tony-the-tigers-juicy-armpit]

The UK gets a new prime minister just whenever. Completely random intervals

[punkrock-bottom]

It may seem random but it’s actually not! We get a new prime minister after the previous one enters a protective chrysalis after a period of relentless eating and growing, and they then dissolve into a biological soup. They then reform into the new adult prime minister. It really beautiful to see 🥰

[beggars-opera]

I spent so much of my life romanticizing the Great and Powerful Enormity of the Sea, reading about the salt and the sweat of the sailors straining to haul the sails or anchor while dreading the monsters in the cold, icy deep fathoms below…and now you tell me that a fathom is only 6 feet deep -

[panicedgannet]

Six feet is still more than enough for a grave.

[beggars-opera]

Hi, that is the most metal addition you could have possibly made to this post

[tmbgareok]

[i-am-a-fish]

every time you make art of any kind, a stat that is not visible to the player goes up. also, this is the most important stat in the game

[ledogeishere]

does singing in the shower count as art

[i-am-a-fish]

does a strong as fuck ice mummy have ice powers

[the-quietestmela]

does writing fanfiction count as art

[i-am-a-fish]

don't make me say the mummy thing again

[targetedknowledge]

[saul-tortellini]

It was like the sun came out from behind the clouds...

[dovebane]

If you have a fucked up sicknasty fanfic you've been thinking about sharing but are unsure, this post is your sign to run to AO3 and Just Do It: 1. Someone somewhere wants to read it. Even if it's only one person, that person matters

2. Your creativity matters and so does your ability to share it

3. Serial harassers in fandom spaces are beginning to express discomfort that sites like AO3 completely strip their ability to do anything about fic they don't like, sometimes going as far as leaving entire fandoms due to the influx of "problematic fiction without a chance for consequences to the author". Posting your fanworks to AO3 actively contributes to making harassers feel unsafe and powerless in fandom

4. Militant anti-fanfic content creators also cannot do anything about fic posted to AO3

5. You can post anonymously to AO3, with the ability to de-anonymize at any time

6. You can moderate comments before making them visible on your fic, restrict comments to logged-in users only, or turn off comments altogether, meaning you can post anonymously and completely turn off comments if you choose