✰✰Mick/Tomm | 21 | he/him - it/its - ey/em | dyslexic(do what you wish with this information ) | pansexual |trans | greyromantic |from Greece (🇬🇷/🇲🇩) | a mess✰✰
Imagine him crying as he's desperately trying to clean up the vandalism done on Harvey's poster. Like, just the image of Brucie Wayne crying in public for the first time while cleaning up a ruined poster like a desperate little thing despite knowing it won't be able to change reality.
I feel so bad for wanting to complain about being left out of my friend group bc the 3 of them are literally in a polycule , I have my own issues yeah maybe I'm a bit too sensitive about being left out , but it still hurts, and I can't just say "hey can you guys not be together as much"
Something happens, we joke around (mostly me and j) L gets angry, leaves and R and J go immediately after them , they then just cuddle in L's room while I wait for them to return to the living room , to finish the game we were playing or whatever , they usually don't return, R tried once to convince me that she will go talk to them to continue the game
Idk after the third time this happened this week I just gave up , went to my room didn't want to go out with them
It is affecting me so fucking much it's so fucking stupid I want to cry, I suddenly feel 12 again, all the girls at the party have disappeared into a bedroom while I remain in the living room to eat cake , go home and try to forget about it
I remember how I was looked at when I entered that room , ik my friends wouldn't do that , they wouldn't treat me so cruelly , but I can feel my presence interrupting them
J tries to be nice about it, I think they notice that I don't have it in me to be the house clown after shit like that happens
I just want to curl into a ball , cry my eyes out and not feel so alone
This is so stupid ik I shouldn't need to be verbally invited to join in on things , but I'm just scared to do it otherwise, bc I remember being in school and how the whole climate and aura of the conversation would change once I appeared
I still have dreams about my childhood "friends" bumping into me while walking out in my neighborhood, trying to politely cut the conversation short, choking on the mean comments they try to repress
I'm getting mean to them , I'm easy to offend, I can't help but feel hurt seeing them just casually hang out like I also don't exist in the same space, I think R and L are starting to sense the tense atmosphere, how easy I am to snap over the slightest impoliteness
I can feel myself shutting down from something so fucking stupid, I am so incredibly pathetic
What a fucking crybaby, shutting down bc MY FUCKING ROOMMATES AND FRIEND ARE IN A RELATIONSHIP TOGETHER I want to put my head through a wall
I hate feeling like a stupid child I hate it so fucking much
I hate feeling like I have to beg for ppl to tolerate my presence in a friend group
It's really simple. If you're born with a vagina and you naturally have elevated testosterone levels, you're a man. If you have a vagina and you take testosterone, you're a woman. But also if you have a vagina, you'll never be a man. But also if you have higher testosterone then you were never a woman. Woman never yes man a vagina testosterone no was an elevated. Vagina man.
innocent/innocent rouge characters as the 13 fears from the Magnus archives
(a series I will do , despite being probably the only fan into both , I think a lot of characters have narratives that could make them avatars of said fear)
I will be overanalyzing the shit out of them too , although I doubt I will find a different character to represent each one
Admittedly I did spend the remaining of my budget for this month in alcohol but
HOLLY SHIT Smirnoff is so fucking ass, rubbing alcohol tastes better probably
Pretty sure my professors are impressed by how ass my graduating project is , but it's done , the celebratory shots night have been as bad as the project itself
I will probably fail and my parents will straight up disown me , but at least I have some of the good stuff in my system and can finally read the memoirs of the Sansons guilt free , bc technically speaking I'm done with collage
Will drink a few more shots and go watch the first episode of tvl
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