MysMiA

This is just a space for me write down things, clear my mind and be able to breathe without anyone judging me.

[mysmia06]

You can't erase the past but you can try to fill every moment with happiness so that you don't even get a a second to think about your pain. That's how you heal.

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

One day you will notice my absence & wish that you held on to me a little tighter.

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

Lesson learnt.

A persons real identity is revealed when you stop giving them everything they want. To judge your intentions, I stopped being there for you and you left me without hesitation. You moved on to find someone new.

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

You claimed that you love me yet you were okay to see tears in my eyes caused by your words and your actions.

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

I regret telling you how much you mean to me,

I regret showing you the extent I can go for you,

I regret putting your needs before mine,

I regret letting you use me over time,

But I do not regret ever loving you.

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

I don't want to look back and feel hate,

I don't want to think that our time was a waste,

I don't want to feel stupid for having faith,

I don't want you to be a mistake.

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

To Enigma,

Letting you go is killing me but there was no point hanging on to something that is causing me this much pain. I am completely broken inside but deep down I know that I am gonna be alright. At least I know that once my tears dry out, you no longer have the power to hurt me again.

I am not a petty person, so I do not wish you any ill. But I do hope that one day you'll realise my value and know that you really f***ed up. I was the person who truly loved you even when you didnt deserve to be loved.

All these years you have pushed me till I was completely broken down. Now, I have nothing left to give.

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

Stop using love as an excuse when all you want to is misuse.

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

I keep myself hidden,

Not because I am ashamed of the things I've done,

But because I am disappointed at how things have turned.

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

I still love you. I left you because I could feel myself slowly hating you for the way you treated me. I left because I was afraid that the love I have for you would slowly disappear. You made feel unloved but I couldn't do the same to you. I couldn't bare the thought of not loving you. I rather love you from a distance then to be in your arms and feel nothing.

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

I can't fix what's broken,

And I don't have the strength to start fresh.

I alone in this dark space.

As I am questioning the purpose of my existence,

I feel tempted to give up on this life.

How easy it would be to leave this pain behind.

It's becoming difficult to hold back the tears every day,

How much more longer can I hide the suffering inside???

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

Your words comfort me,

But your actions breaks my heart.

How can you say that you love me,

Yet you are comfortable hurting me.

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

Its killing me that you left me feeling like...

My love wasn't good enough for you,

I wasn't enough for you.

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

I fake a smile everyday,

Hide my tears from my face,

I know my eyes gives it all away,

But I keep telling lies to keep them off my case.

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

I don't understand how can you just move on from someone, as if they meant nothing to you.

How do you let go of someone who you; imagined a life with, dreamt of walking down the aisle with and planned on having a child with.

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

I hate that you give me false hope,

I hate that you take advantage of kindness,

I hate that I need you despite of what you did,

I hate that you make me feel unlovable,

I hate that no matter what you do, I can't hate you.

-MysMiA

[mysmia06]

You make me feel like I am asking a lot from you, yet all I want is basic human decency;

I have earned your love yet you make me feel worthless.

I deserve to be appreciated yet you laugh at my efforts,

Your comments about my figure makes me feel insecure,

You disregard all that I have compromised and demand things to always be your way.

You say that you love me yet you do things that show me otherwise.

Tell me how can I trust you when I do not even believe in your love.

-MysMiA