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I'm Avoiding Writing and Here's Why...

This was originally published on Substack. Click here to view the original post and follow for more. In effort to relinquish myself from all self-imposed duties, I’m not too sure as to what I’m trying to accomplish at this point. Originally, it was to stop the noise and find the truth that remains behind it all. Even now, I guess that’s still the point. The thing is, I didn’t realize how much…

I'm Avoiding Writing and Here's Why...

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I'm Not a Man-Shamer...

If anything, I’m anything but that. But when a man tells me I shouldn’t pursue writing because he wanted to be a journalist once and ended up in lumber sales, I purse my lips. Maybe, at first, that meant something to me. Maybe, just maybe, I questioned myself a bit. It is too bad though… that I remembered I’m a woman. A hot one at that; not only could I care less for his journalistic nature,…

I'm Not a Man-Shamer...

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I’ve Been Living as an Empty Shell of Who I Used to Be

Lately, I feel like my insides poured out somewhere and I forgot where I left them. Have you seen them? They’ve been missing ever since I healed some of my pain. You’d think the opposite were to be true, but actually, my insides grew strong within me when I needed them most. Now I’m realizing I might have left them behind with everything else I’m walking away from. With that, my mind may be…

I’ve Been Living as an Empty Shell of Who I Used to Be

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Why am I trying Substack?

This post was originally published on Substack. Follow me on there for content first. I’ll start by saying I have no idea why I’m trying Substack. Ok, let me rephrase that. I do know why—I just don’t know why I’m following through with it. I like to give things the benefit of the doubt; however, I’m currently in the phase of my life where I shouldn’t be taking too deep of…

Why am I trying Substack?

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I'm doing the thing I said I wouldn't

I’ve joined Substack… for real this time. And yes, I know I said I’d stick around here but trust me, I’m going to try and make it work. I feel like a boyfriend moving abroad, trying to convince his girlfriend “they’ll make it work”. Eventually they do… right? I’ll be sharing content both on here and Substack, in the most graceful way possible. I’m not trying to force anything right now but…

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Am I even a writer anymore?

Once upon a time, the strong urge to write poured out of me. I’d fill up notebooks, scrap papers, diaries, the internet–anything. I’d read books on how to improve my writing; how to write more eloquently, grammar corrections, dictionaries and thesaurus’. At some point, something told me to turn my writing into a business (call it my entreprenurial habit). That, eventually morphed into an…

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I’ve been thinking about this whole new era of me and my writing and it feels like such a dream. The thing is, I’m working on tricky waters. Who manages to have something like this and actually get something out of—and there it is; my subtle (or not-so subtle) obsession with gaining something out of doing the things I love. While trying to escape the one thing that put me here, I find myself…

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Let's bring back personal blogs

In attempt to move back into my writer phase, a girl had to go shopping. What is it with that? Every time I move into some new phase or momentum, some sort of purchasing has to come with it. This time it’s a keyboard mat for my laptop. This is the longest I’ve grown out my nails and apparently I can’t type properly anymore because of it. This is my first time using it. I’m testing a few right…

Let's bring back personal blogs

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Making this blog (and my life) whatever it's meant to be

After a long talk with ChatGPT, I realized I’m not living my full, true, and honest self on the internet. What I’ve shared on here has only been the things about myself and my life that I’ve been interested in sharing; but not so much myself as a whole being. This has also been reflecting in my writing (or lack there of). As I continue to morph through the many versions of me, my life as a…

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Where do I go? Where do I stay?

Time passes me by while I watch the clock tick on the wall. In the mountains; I imagined myself a few years back. In the mountains still–I see myself in the future. I used to be so drawn to the ocean when I was younger. I’d stare out to the sea endlessly as if my freedom were out there somewhere. Even as a child I knew I was bound; bound by this body, my environment, my age. I knew there…

Where do I go? Where do I stay?

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I'm Always Starting From Square One

I was reading through old blog posts yesterday from when I was in high school. There was one post I wrote on how I didn’t care if anyone read my blog; what was important was that I liked to write and that’s what I was gonna do. Jump forward to around 2 years later, I went all in on this blog you’re reading now; turning it into my online home. So much has happened since then. One thing I…

I'm Always Starting From Square One

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A Birthday List From a Girl Who Has Every Thing

What do I ask for when my room piles up with things left unwrapped from last year? Things unneeded–but once upon a time wanted–crowd my closet, my drawers, my shelves. Things and more things. My love asked for a list as if there were empty spaces in our room to fill; as if more things could fill the spaces I hold within. What do I put on my list if there’s nothing he can give that I can…

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Something So Divine

All moments have led us up to here; the omens pointed to it and it came as no surprise. Something so Divine, I want to do it all perfect. How could I? How can I let go of something so precious? My heart aches and still I turn my eyes. I hold my head high and beg for mercy because how could I give up something so precious, so Divine. The Lord, He comforts me. Forgiveness for what…

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Remembering Anna Celia Jimenez

If I could leave flowers at your feet right now, I would. I wish I could’ve talked to you more about deathand how it felt to stare her in the eyes while those around you avoided eye contact. I wish I was drinking Bustelo right now. I wish I was in PR. I wish I took more photos. I remember being in such a good mood that day at Collumcile and attempting a cartwheel.I remember experiencing…

Remembering Anna Celia Jimenez

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A Lifetime of Studying and Searching for My Destiny

Recently, I’ve started studying again. By choice? I guess you could call it that. I’ve always been a Philomath since I discovered the world. Luckily, I learned later in life (but not too late) that knowledge is everything. When I graduated high school almost a decade ago (yikes), I spent my empty days with a schedule of short studies in multiple categories: philosophy, esotericism, brain…

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How a Simple Promise Transformed My Relationship with God

There’s a memory that has laid very prominent in my mind for years now. When I first had my spiritual awakening, my studies and practice were very much within the “new age” realm. I had realized the interconnectedness of everything and that my external reality was a direct reflection of my internal one.I saw everything as codes and energy, flowing and fluctuating.Synchronicities surrounded me…

How a Simple Promise Transformed My Relationship with God

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Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.Proverbs 3:5-6