Yesterday's Thoughts

Seppuku

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You want the pain to end, but you don’t have to courage to end it. Stuck in the cycle if life.

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The picture is blurry

Conflicting with my own identity, that’s the hardest part. Am i the mind or the body or am i both? I didn’t choose this vessel. What i did choose is the ideas and principles that i represent. A movie is only good by the content, regardless of how clear the image is. If the image is clear and the content is boring then the movie fails. If the content is good but the image is clear then your ability to experience the movie at it’s peak is weakened. Forget about your image, you can’t change it. You are what you stand for, you are what you represent. Know yourself!

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When you have no one to impress. You’re free.

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Why is weed illegal?

The fact that weed is illegal in most parts of the world is oppression at its worse. You aren’t free when you’re not even allowed to smoke a harmless joint. How many people die every year from alcohol consumption? More people die from obesity than they do from marijuana intake. The fact that it has proven medical benefits and is still illegal for medical use in the United Kingdom shows the depths of oppression. You can’t call it ignorance, because the government aren’t ignorant. There is no doubt that many police and government officials smoke weed, it all boils down to business. I just feel sorry for the people that are fooled by the actors on their televisions. Because if their looking for moral encouragement, they’re definitely being deceived. Fox news is the best example of this “ignorance” in action. People trying very hard to find a link between corrolation and causality. Boiling down the actions of very few individuals to represent the substance as a whole. That’s what media does best, it aims to represent a large enough people through the actions of a negligible minority. The only conclusion therefore is that legalizing marijuana is not a question of safety or health rather a question of economics.

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No one cares

if you’re gay why do you have to try and make it so obvious? Is this whats happening in society now?. Everything is a trend. So hard to filter out ingenuine people, they will do anything aslong as it will benefit their status in some way. We’ve even started feeling superior than others when it comes to which tragedies we sensitize to. As though tragedies are comparable?. “the people killed in france is happening everyday in our countries”. The most utter bullshit, people don’t care about anything. They don’t care if people are dying, it’s all figures. Comparing death tolls too determine whos tragedy was worse. Humans are fucking self absorbed! How many people do you think actually give a shit and genuinely feel bad about the tragedies, death and opression that exists. Do they feel sad as though they have suffered or are they just trying to show people they care. I see that shit happening all the time, people trying hard to show the world that they care, trying to show people what they are. All this worrying about being seen a certain way has drove us into a dark place. It’s become more important to be seen a certain way than to be. It’s as though were plagued by acceptance, and along the way of finding this acceptance we lose ourselves.We’re willing to fake emotion, character morals and principle. Inside we’re all dead, we don’t feel. You will see kids taking selfies at their parents funerals one day all in the attempts to be noticed, seen and thought about. Brainless generation, fuelled by instagram likes and retweets. And the worst part is that one person out of all these self absorbed, brainless and heartless people will end up running our countries. We all know how well they can act infront of camera, we see politicians doing it all the time. That’s why we have international and domestic laws that aren’t geared towards human flourishment rather control.The people at the top don’t care. If you gain even a bit of power you let it control you. Why is it so different for the ones in charge. We need more genuine people.People willing to make a difference behind the scenes not only when the cameras are on!

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One you're plugged out, you will never see things the same way.

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No ones 100% real. Never assume so. 90% maybe, but never 100.

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Some people are way too fast paced. Sometimes you just got to chill and relax. Sometimes you just got to smoke some weed and see what it’s like to be calm. People so driven that they think not doing anything is a bad thing. You can be calm and still do what you need to. Don’t have to stress cause the outcome wont change.

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Don't have a kitkat!

Ugly people should have amazing bodies. You got to compensate, cause there is no greater loss that an ugly girl without ass. If you’re 10/10 with no ass that’s still questionable but your definately in the safe zone. Even titties will do, just offer us something. Don’t just sit there in your “little” deluded fat loving world. When i see an ugly fat person i just feel as though they’ve given up. Being unfortunate when it comes to your genes is one thing but being fat ontop of that? give us a break. Don’t have a kitkat!

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Depression

I used to be depressed in the cold winter nights. Everything seemed so gloomy and dull. It was a period of time where i genuinely felt robotic. Programmed. This year i feel different, nothing has changed externally. The wind blows the same way and the sun sets at the same time. What has changed is internal. It doesn’t matter where you are if you aren’t satisfied internally then you will find it very hard to find peace. This change of mindset is allowing me to live and appreciate at the same time. I used to think the weather was a huge factor which dictated my mood. If it was cold and dark, i would be too. As though my surroundings had a grip on me, told me how to feel and how to act. Truth is though,the problems are deep inside. Face them. Face reality, we all envision our lives a certain way. We need to learn to know our strengths and use them. Don’t focus on your looks if it’s where you’re flawed, instead work on your personality. Find a niche!. That is the key. We let little things drag us down, when all we need to do is change our perspectives and try again!. Loosing this battle is pointless, this is the cards you’ve been dealt so play them well. It’s all about being the best version of yourself. You aren’t trying to be the best version of anyone else. Reach your own potential no matter how limited it may seem. Play the game!

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Balls.

can't even smile at people without it being awkward. Forget how socially awkward people really are. Awkwardness shows, if you let something control your mind it will become hard to act natural. If you're scared of anything, thinking about it wont help. Let it flow. If you start thinking so much that your actions are affected by the idea of judgement. Then you will have to live with that decision. That you allowed someone elses irrelevant opinion affect what you want, because when their judgement ends only the evidence remains. People don't realistically spend all their time thinking about you as much as you would like to beleive. Even if they did, why should you care? Is your self worth the result of other peoples opinions on you?. It's mad because there's so many people that choose to fuck their dreams because they can't be bothered dealing with hate. You got to take the bullshit, live of that stuff. Got all the ideas just need the balls!.

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Fuck what people think!

When you do something you have to do it with passion. You can’t commit to anything for a long period of time with the correct drive and discipline unless it’s something you’re passionate about. Otherwise you’ll get so far and collapse because the motivation you had will dissapear. So fuck doing anything that’s contrary to what you want in life. Forget what others want you to do, forget about what they want you to be. This is your life. If the world was full of doctors we wouldn’t be as far as we are in terms of technology. Don’t play someone else’s role play you’re own. If you want to be the sideman in your own life then go ahead. But what fun is that?. Because when the cameras are off and you’re alone; with your own thoughts are you satisfied?. We spend too much time worrying!. Worrying about how we’re going to be seen, just fuck it!. What people think of you in the 10 seconds they do spend worrying about YOUR life is not worth you sacrificing your dreams. This is your life so fucking live it!

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I’m tired of being fed the idea that there is definitely a God. Which God would allow so much suffering? Which God would allow such defects in nature? Which God would punish you for not believing in him, when he has not provided enough evidence? Where is this God? I’ve been trying to find him because life is miserable. Life is hard. I want to believe in him, so why is he making it so difficult? God can save me from the torment after life but he chooses not to? So which kind of God is this? It doesn’t seem to make sense to me, how some people are chosen to be born of “correct” religion and they will be saved? Where is the justice? God is all just in his mighty court, claims he is all forgiving. Yet condemns you to eternity in hell for not believing. He cripples you in fear, restricts you’re growth and keeps you enslaved.~ Maybe God is just not nice, maybe he is evil. This is all a game. We don’t care about ants? So why are we so special that a Divine being would care so much about us? To say God is evil is a contradiction, as the whole concept of God involves “all Loving”. If there is a God then how can he be all loving when it seems my mother loves me more than God? God loves you. As long as you believe, and praise him. Isn’t that a human flaw, giving only when receiving. Are these the actions of a divine being? To say there is a God is to say he is evil. In which case we’re all screwed!