Nemui !

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[nemui-eepy]

Hello! I’m Nemui ! <3

I/We are a 17yo questioning system, and we intend to post about stuff relating to systemhood and mental disabilities.

I/We use he/they/it pronouns, but we are okay with she when we feel feminine sometimes. I use I/We interchangeably, please forgive me for that. I mostly identify as genderfluid, but I’m still unsure if that's due to plurality or what. 

I/We are currently very much looking for friends! We are a streamer on the side, but we don’t want to relate it to what we do here, thus we are leaving our old friend group when it comes to systemhood and relations. Please forgive us if we don’t feel comfortable sharing much information because of it.

Other than that, we do really want to find a friend group we can feel safe in! I’m quite sensitive to toxicity, so please forgive me if I seem uncomfortable with some people, or if we’re “annoying” when we consider you a close friend. I get very excited when someone is nice to us.

I/We are formally anti-endo, but we would rather avoid syscourse. We really don’t like picking sides and fighting over stuff. Everyone is free to interact, we just don’t post pro-endo content.

You’re free to tag our posts however you’d like, I don’t block for that sort of thing.

Anyway, thank you for reading!

[nemui-eepy]

Guys gen question

For our server, we have both :

Disorder roles for people to self-identify with how they choose

A static blacklist for major bad topics to keep the server feeling lighthearted

Should we keep both of these ? :’D

Keep both or change?

Keep both

Keep disorders, change blacklist

Change disorders, keep blacklist

Change both

Voting ended onSep 13, 2025

[nemui-eepy]

Laying in bed and suddenly having really severe tics is always fun.

Sitting here and my head is thrashing side to side and I’m blinking in weird ways and tapping my fingers and making strange noises

Love life…

[nemui-eepy]

I think I need to actually do some research on my own dissociation… I don’t know how though

Our therapist has stopped seeing us and we can’t get one for a while

I’ve been logging my dissociation a lot and noting the sources, but I’m not sure what to do with it.

Any advice? :(

[nemui-eepy]

Hello, to whoever sees this,

Please know you are loved.

Take a break from syscourse if you need. Don’t stress yourself over internet arguments, and take some time to relax and calm down.

This goes for any side of syscourse. Doesn’t matter who you are.

[nemui-eepy]

Ur profile is so cute i love it sm :D

Thank u!!!! :D

[sparkly-amity]

[nemui-eepy]

Stares with my big autistic eyes in a /pos way

[nemui-eepy]

Ur profile is so cute i love it sm :D

Thank u!!!! :D

[nemui-eepy]

Question for y’all!

We’ve got an idea for the server of having roles for all sorts of neurodivergencies!

Specifically, the categories AND the individuals will be self-assignable, if you don’t want to specify “BPD” compared to “Cluster B” compared to just “personality disorder” if you don’t want to.

I figured this way people wouldn’t feel as pressured, and all of it is completely optional.

I really like this idea for making it feel comfy for us, since we like being able to be like “that’s me!” from the list, and it’s optional so those uncomfortable with it don’t have to engage in it.

We may remove some that could be “used against someone”, but I wanted to hear your opinions first.

How should we structure this? I really do want to have these roles, just I’m not sure of the logistics. Should we make it only for diagnosed things, or just based on personal judgement?

[nemui-eepy]

so sorry about all the hate you’ve been getting, but I’m excited to join the server once it’s made, I’ve tried joining a lot of servers as a questioning system and they’ve either been extremely anti endo to the point where it’s agressive, or inactive altogether, I am anti endo myself but I’m sometimes willing to interact with respectful endos who don’t use CDD terms and therefore aren’t being ableist, but certain anti endos even think that’s wrong, which is odd because it’s a spiritual belief… idk man… just excited to have a comforting system space

True!!!! And thank you :D

We’re gonna have a no-syscourse policy (more specifically, only in one channel, and don’t argue about it in there, just for general chatting)

Me and a new friend are working on it together!!

(We may end up needing mods so if anyone wants to help moderate you’re free to apply as soon as you join for now)

[nemui-eepy]

I'm sorry you got a lot of hate anons, but there are a lot of trolls acting in bad faith when it comes to syscourse (infamously there's a few anons known to probably be the same person who just start shit, and I've seen a lot of anti-endos bait as being an endo to start shit). If they're still in your inbox, you can block them, and that blocks by the IP, or turning off anon would also stop it

True true.

I may turn off anons for now, people are being shitty.

Anyone who fakes being the other side to start shit can fuck off, it’s not helpful in the slightest, you’re just a jerk.

I blocked most of them, though there were a few block evading to harass me. They seem to have *mostly* stopped for now, but if I get more again I’ll turn off anons. I want people to be able to message me without feeling afraid.

[nemui-eepy]

hello, i was wondering where the link to the server is? i'm assuming it's a discord one?

It’s not open just yet, but when I finish it I’ll link it on a post!

[syscultureis]

system culture is not knowing what your gender is because what if it's just passive influence from your headmates

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[nemui-eepy]

This is so me ;-;

I don’t know if my gender struggle is from systemhood or just being weird???

I’ve identified as genderfluid for a while but I’m realizing… hmmmmm

[nemui-eepy]

Hello, I’m sorry I have to do this

Unfortunately due to the amount of hate anons I’ve received regarding making the server syscourse-free, I’ve decided

The server will officially be traumagenic-only, but with discussion of syscourse restricted to one channel.

I’ve seen too many pro-endos harassing us that I’m deciding I'm not comfortable in that side of the community.

I am still avoidant of syscourse, I’d rather not deal with the constant back-and-forth. However, I’ll no longer be tagging my posts with plural tags, and using more anti-endo ones.

I want to make a comfortable community, but it seems making one that is completely neutral is very difficult, and I'm not up to the task. I do apologize to anyone who is affected.

I will be identifying as anti-endo from now on, though I will not engage in syscourse.

I do apologize to the few nice anons and followers, unfortunately the majority of my asks have been straight harassment, and I am getting uncomfortable with allowing it further.

If this is a problem, feel free to block. You don’t need a reason to block me. I won’t be posting serious anti-endo content, but I also won’t be advocating for endos either.

(I do not block based on syscourse stance, as long as you don’t harass me.)

[nemui-eepy]

Me:

Me:

Brain: Dissociates

Me: dude why

Brain: sorry I saw something out of the corner of your vision that I didn’t like

[nemui-eepy]

Chilling and then suddenly my body is moving on its own for a few minutes and I’m just sitting here like ?? What just happened

I didn’t zone out but this keeps happening

I don’t wanna rush to dissociative disorders every time something weird happens but??? Is this??? Why????

[nemui-eepy]

If endogenic topics must be kept to one channel then traumagenic topics should be too. I’m traumagenic but I’m sorry your solutions are not good. Segregating “endo stuff” to one area you ARE going to cultivate an anti-endo community and a community where endos can’t speak up. Either make it traumagenic exclusive, ban ALL origin talk outside of dedicated channels, or allow anyone to be there and speak about their origins discourse free. You cannot have your cake and eat it too

That. Thats what I’m doing. All origin talk is more moderated, beyond “hey I’m this” and in dedicated channels that have arguments banned.

What I mean by it is in-depth discussion, not simply existing or a light mention.

These kind of anons really stress me out, so forgive me if I don’t reply to more of them.

(Tw death threat mention under)

In addition, to the anon who sent death threats, I sincerely hope you get what you deserve. (I have deleted their message so I can’t reply directly)

Sending death threats over petty syscourse is ridiculous.

[nemui-eepy]

I was looking at your poll: what is the "endo stuff" that people in the server would be told not to discuss? What is endo stuff? What does that mean?

Mainly open discussion of endogenic systems, anything that could cause syscourse debate

We wouldn’t ban people existing as endo, or saying their origin, but just anything that could start a debate would be requested to either be kept to a certain channel (for endos) or generally not said

Unfortunately making a “true neutral” server is difficult because the very existence of endos is the debate, which is annoying.