one in a nestillion

side blog for plural/system related art. they/them collectively

[the-sun-system]

Hey, here’s a concept. What if we stopped saying “but autistic people CAN do all those things” (erasing high support needs) and instead started saying “not being able to do those things doesn’t impact someone’s value as a person nor does it make it okay to commit eugenics”.

[hazedxg0]

It really does say a lot about how romanticized and theatricized alters are online when people go into denial or feel isolated for displaying the most textbook DID/OSDD symptoms.

Not knowing who's fronting, not knowing how many alters you have, not knowing when you switch, not knowing alters' names or why they formed, alters not having names, having no internal world or a very vague one, having no internal communication, struggling with external communication, experiencing alters as different overlapping states of self instead of separate people, hell even just experiencing amnesia.

These are all extremely common symptoms of DID/OSDD, especially when you're untreated or early in treatment. And yet they're all common reasons for why people feel like they don't belong in this community, because the reality of this disorder somehow doesn't conform to the online expectation.

How bad is the state of CDD awareness, even among those who proclaim to have it, that the most common manifestations of DID/OSDD are so underdiscussed that the majority of people with these conditions cannot find understanding even in a community meant for their disorder? When anything that doesn't play into the "alters are separate people and friends in your head" narrative is ignored and erased?

[nestillion]

when you have a fictive and the ship you hate the most with their source character is the biggest ship in the source media’s fandom :

[wooftphr]

got a new lighter. it’s shaped like a fish and it blinds you.

[wooftphr]

it had a huge sticker on it that said “this is not a toy”. the gas station i got it from had a sign infront of the display for these only that said “buy first, then test”. the first time you strike it (from the fins, by the way) you find out exactly why. they have added incredibly bright flashing blue LED lights on the eyes, which point directly into your eyes and the eyes of whoever is looking anywhere close to the fish that makes you blind.

a friend of mine was like “you can probably take this apart and cut the wires so it doesn’t do that anymore” and i told her “no i can’t. i can’t do that” and she was like “???why not?????????”

it’s just too fucking funny. this is the stupidest thing i own. thinking about that gas station clerk with like 50 more of these fucking things thinking “how the fuck am i gonna get rid of these?” makes me loose it. setting up the sign and i was literally the first person to buy one.

[wooftphr]

who thought this was a good idea.

[wooftphr]

device of instant give your roommate a headache

[wooftphr]

small mercies. i think if it had been only a smidge more horrible than it is i would have gone and just given it back.

[razorbladeinyoursnickersbar-dea]

they need to invent a hrt that makes you completely androgynous

[wszechmistrz]

It's exhausting every time nonbinary androgyny is brought up, it's in the context of "you don't HAVE to be androgynous". 99% of the time we're just forgotten about, omitted from any sort of discourse or positivity, unless it's time to remind people they don't have to be like us.

Being androgynous doesn't get us treated better or more seriously than other nonbinary people. There's no nonbinary/androgyonus gender role. We're still seen as an aesthetic, mental illness, ideology. In fact, we're often more visibly queer and trans than fem-aligned and masc-aligned people.

We're a minority in a minority in a minority. Most nonbinary representation is, in fact, not androgynous.

And nonbinary people being androgynous is not even really a stereotype bigoted people have. Most of the time we are stereotyped as either "transmasc lite" (an AFAB person who has short hair and binds but is still visibly feminine) or people who only change their pronouns and do nothing else. Enbyphobes never jump to androgyny.

[sunderingstars]

ocd is literally just having a guy in your head that torments you with false prophecies & visions

[birth-ofvenus]

when I was younger I'd get upset and I would run to my room and cry, I was always hoping someone would come in to ask if I was okay, and I'm still desperately clinging to the idea that someday, somebody will come when I'm crying.

[nestillion]

To people with contamination/medical ocd, how do you guys cope with actually being sick? I recently discovered that i have ocd, and i’m the type of guy who’s prone to injuries and medical complications. Every time it happens i just immediately start spiralling and thinking im going to die overnight, even with such mild stuff like getting a blister from walking too much. It sucks because i act this way with small medical issues (said blister) or more serious problems (scoliosis, which i eventually got surgery for and made a complete recovery, but im still worried that someday it’ll get infected and ill die overnight, again). Any ways to cope with this? It’s driving me insane lol

[aioniopyr]

you for whom i only have the highest expectations

[aropride]

[selfundiagnosed]

[marcusbrutus]

tumblr: constantly be aware of your own privilege. constantly be aware of your capacity of be evil. hey i know you really like that new piece of media but make sure you're aware of all of the problematic elements all the time. hey i noticed you reblogged a post from a designated Bad Person so please make sure you do a thorough background check on everyone you reblog from to make sure they're not bad, otherwise people might get the wrong idea about you. always be aware of everything bad that's happening in the world all the time because silence is violence. i see you not reblogging this post btw. activist burnout is a privilege so be aware of that. xyz people are required to reblog this post. if you're not constantly fighting against designated Bad People you are inherently complicit and therefore a Bad Person.

people with ocd:

[celinunu]

Like mother, like son

[slowedmountains]

redrew the art meme that was going round a few weeks ago because “make it good later” has never been that aspiration to me, it’s even been enough to just not make the thing I really want to make in the past.

make it now. Make it however. Maybe it’ll work out maybe it won’t Make it or it won’t exist.

[the-jesus-pill]

You cannot pretend you give a shit about people who suffer from OCD or other compulsory disorders, and then turn around and declare people have to feel guilt about their thoughts to be a good person.

No one has to punish themselves physically, verbally or mentally for having intrusive thoughts, no matter what those thoughts are about.

And expecting people to do grand gestures to prove they really are sorry for having intrusive thoughts is vile and abusive. No one has to perform remorse for your entertainment.

[lee-ventur]

I didn't misplace the captions