I found this in my notes app, and I decided it was worth sharing, but I don't wanna stir up any drama, so I'm doing it here, where I haven't been active for years. It's sort of a poem/stream of consciousness journal entry. I hope you enjoy:
I lost trust in my own judgement "She really fucked you up." You made me doubt myself, and, even now that I have restored faith in most of my decisions, I wonder if you were a mistake You filled a hole in my life, but you didn't fit You were too small, shoved your arms out and stabbed me, like a star inside a circle Made yourself fit in a space designed for someone smooth, gentle, and heavy Someone genuine, caring, and present Someone with awareness of me and themself You, with your sharp edges, scraping my insides, making me ache for you, the way a knife wound aches for the blade when it's removed, blood spilling endlessly like my tears when you left
