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@ people who don't celebrate christmas and are currently having christmas shoved down their throats
i hope whatever holiday you celebrate is fun and well!! and if you don’t celebrate any holidays this time of year, i hope your day is nice anyways!
20 (intrusive) questions
put a # in my ask
1) how would you describe your relationship with your mom/dad
2) when was the last time you cried and why
3) whats your favorite/least favorite quality about yourself; why
4) do you smile at strangers
5) how often do people (not family members) tell you they love you
6) how is your life different now from two years ago
7) would you ever cheat on someone
8) are you a jealous person
9) whats the worst pickup line someone has asked you
10) do you believe in ghosts
11) what are your ambitions
12) 3 deal breakers in a relationship
13) what is one thing you’ll never do again
14) whats your most bizarre pet peeve
15) what is your favorite memory
16) whats your zodiac sign
17) what ‘small things’ things terrify you
18) do you like your laugh
19) have you ever stalked someone/been stalked
20) do you feel loved
“There’ll be peace when you are done”
it’s the 21st day of the 21st year of the 21st century.
you can only reblog this today.
*meds kick in*
Now that I have arrived back to this mortal plane, it is OVER FOR YOU B*TCHES
Just a reminder that I’m an Adult™ and if that makes you feel uncomfortable feel free to:
unfollow me
ask me to unfollow you
block me
I won’t get mad or anything. It’s important to make sure you feel comfortable and secure.
Please! I try not to follow younger people on Tumblr to begin with, but please know that if I followed your page not knowing your age because I didn’t see it and you don’t want me follow you I will absolutely respect that!
Note: These tips are aimed at systems with or questioning DID/OSDD. Please don’t attribute this to anything else!
Some websites on DID/OSDD:
✏️ DID-research ✏️ PODS-online ✏️ Sidran ✏️ ISST-D
Some more resources on this topic:
☑️ Multiplicityandme’s video on why persecutors aren’t “bad” ☑️ Working with difficult & destructive alters ☑️ Understanding & helping difficult alters ☑️ My resource masterlist (shameless plug!)
Me - before, during, and after quarantine:
Do you have any advice on how to know if you have DID?
(Whoops, sorry, just saw this was in my drafts and never actually posted!)
I can do my best to share some things that clued me into the fact I had DID! Of course, I’m not a mental health professional–I’m just sharing my personal experiences and things I’ve heard from other systems too.
Dissociative experiences:
Amnesia is a big one! Missing gaps in time, like not remembering a chunk of childhood, how you got to a certain place, or anything from a day earlier this week. Those are all amnesia episodes. It’s required to have at least one episode of this for a DID diagnosis.
Feeling out of it a lot of the time–classic dissociation! DID is a dissociative disorder, meaning that you’ll probably feel like you have out of body experiences, like you’re not really “driving” the body, or like you’re walking in a dream.
Noticing alters:
I had been talking with my alters for a long time before I knew I had a system, they just didn’t describe themselves as alters. Not everyone talks with theirs at all, though!
Here’s what they might appear as:
Spirit guides, even deities if that would make sense for your faith or beliefs. It’s easier for you to hear them when they already fit into something you believe. (Not all spirit guides are alters, I do believe we can hear spirits legitimately if we’re intuitive!)
Imaginary friends that you’ve retained beyond childhood.
Hallucinations, like flashbacks. Our abuser introject alter often appeared like a vivid flashback, but it was a new scene of abuse rather than something that happened in the past (i.e. him creating a mental traumatic experience).
Thoughts that don’t seem like your own.
An “inner child” that exists beyond just inner child meditations or conscious times when you try to dive into your own identity as a child. More like a child that’s within you that seems independent in personality to you.
Clues others might give you:
People can say a lot of things. Here’s some of the things I heard before my diagnosis that now make a lot of sense!
“You went by a different name earlier”
“You don’t remember kissing me the other day?”
“Yeah, it was like you were possessed by someone else. He was cool though!”
“It seems like you’re always looking for your identity, like you don’t really know who you are.”
“Didn’t you like that food the other day? Why don’t you like it now?”
Noticing switching:
Part of DID is alters switching in and out of the body/fronting, and it can feel very strange! It’s not always very obvious either, since alters can be co-conscious with you.
Memories cutting off: Like remembering part of something stressful, then it suddenly just ends mid memory. This has always been indicative of a switch for us!
Feeling like you’re watching yourself do things: Sometimes it can still feel vaguely like you’re in control, but then when you actually intend to do something it doesn’t really happen. Like you’re suddenly watching yourself act things out, rather than making the choice to act them out.
Feeling possessed: Descriptions of spirit possession can feel very similar to switching! Just, obviously, that’s not what DID is (and it can be very harmful to say that alters or systems can form from spirits).
Experiencing unusual emotions that don’t seem like your own. Even if an alter isn’t totally up front, you might suddenly feel a strange emotion. Like “I” would suddenly feel furious at my abuser and suddenly just get up and go for a really fast run, despite being a really passive person and not at all a fan of running.
Feeling like a different gender or age suddenly. Alters can have different ages (like I used to suddenly feel like a child, which I now know was co-consciousness with our child alter) and different genders.
Suddenly wanting to dress or style yourself differently, or having different food, music, etc tastes that are uncharacteristic for you. I used to joke about having a strange “punk side” before recognizing Bael was an alter in my system.
I really hope these help clue you in to common DID experiences! Of course, a trained professional will be best helping you figure this out. :)
As always, feel free to ask any questions about DID!
Meirl
how we (finally) built an inner world
hi it’s georgie halcyonminor!!! this is gonna be a long post but hopefully it might be helpful to other systems?
so i (probably) have osdd1b and a thing that i/we have struggled with for years has been developing an inner world/headspace. like we’ve felt really fake for a long time because of not having one and it’s made us feel pretty bad at times… anyways yesterday with the help of our partner we did a successful visualization/trance exercise that let us actually create and visit one! and i wanted to share the technique we did for any other systems who might have a hard time with this. i can’t promise it’ll work for you but it worked for us and it’s fairly exciting to us! this is designed for people with some ability to visualize but some of what i mention may still be useful for folks with aphantasia
i’ll get into more abt visualization in another post i think BUT first i just wanna describe what we did. we started with a meeting room that multiple parts can meet in at once, but we’re gonna try and make individual rooms for parts later..
an issue we had for a while is that trying to just imagine a room w/ a couch in it always produced kind of a shitty windowless room with an ugly couch and like. who wants to hang out there!!!
one other note: we are incredibly fortunate to have a partner system that we live with irl who is knowledgeable about dissociation, trauma, visualization/hypnosis, and particulars of our life/system and that we trust immensely. so they were able to help with us and i think that this is much much easier with someone guiding the meditation - it could probably be done remotely via discord or whatever as well, though
so here’s what we did:
picked a room aesthetic that appeals enough to us in general to be a pleasant meeting space. if you have trouble communicating and/or wildly varying tastes this may be difficult but it can be changed and modified as needed. having actual pictures of a room similar to what you want helps a lot - ours is loosely based off the interiors from the love witch (2016)
wrote a short but semi-detailed description of what the room looks like. here’s ours:
“Imagine a room with purple walls and a thick red carpet and faux-Victorian furniture (like the Love Witch). The curtains on the windows are red velvet and glass lamps hang from the ceilings and sit on tables, although the curtains are not drawn; enough natural light flows in that the room is airy and comfortable. Along the walls are bookshelves and tables with various knickknacks and small objects. There is a large, plush velvet couch in the center of the room which can comfortably fit multiple people, and which seems capable of expanding as necessary to fit more. In front of it sits a coffee table. There are also chairs around the table and throughout the room in which people can sit without having to be on the couch.”
then:
gave the description to our partner and got into a comfy position - our partner knows a lot about hypnosis scripts and was able to improvise a relaxation exercise to get us into a trance/visualization state (it was the descending stairs exercise, if you’ve ever done that one) - you can also write a script for this is improvisation won’t work for you
we just kinda went at it after that. we visualize different details of the room at different times - first the wallpaper, then the feel and color of the curtains, individual objects on shelves, etc. we had a mirror in the room which was neat because i (georgie) got to see myself in-headspace
idk if this helps anyone but the main this we wanna stress are:
writing stuff down in detail is REALLY helpful. remember that a headspace in many cases is something you build, not that appears out of the aether for you. writing and describing and making notes on it isnt cheating!
pinterest boards/aesthetic blogs are also useful for finding images to go off of
even if you have limited visualization ability you can still write descriptions of a headspace, find pictures that look like what you want, and if you are inclined towards visual arts you can try drawing stuff too
For some reason Instagram was not being nice with this post and deleted the original. Anyways, here's an explanation for "New Alter Guides," it's always important that when new alters split that they have something to help them, especially if they have high amnesia. Honestly this is a post that speaks for itself.
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how we (finally) built an inner world
hi it’s georgie halcyonminor!!! this is gonna be a long post but hopefully it might be helpful to other systems?
so i (probably) have osdd1b and a thing that i/we have struggled with for years has been developing an inner world/headspace. like we’ve felt really fake for a long time because of not having one and it’s made us feel pretty bad at times… anyways yesterday with the help of our partner we did a successful visualization/trance exercise that let us actually create and visit one! and i wanted to share the technique we did for any other systems who might have a hard time with this. i can’t promise it’ll work for you but it worked for us and it’s fairly exciting to us! this is designed for people with some ability to visualize but some of what i mention may still be useful for folks with aphantasia
i’ll get into more abt visualization in another post i think BUT first i just wanna describe what we did. we started with a meeting room that multiple parts can meet in at once, but we’re gonna try and make individual rooms for parts later..
an issue we had for a while is that trying to just imagine a room w/ a couch in it always produced kind of a shitty windowless room with an ugly couch and like. who wants to hang out there!!!
one other note: we are incredibly fortunate to have a partner system that we live with irl who is knowledgeable about dissociation, trauma, visualization/hypnosis, and particulars of our life/system and that we trust immensely. so they were able to help with us and i think that this is much much easier with someone guiding the meditation - it could probably be done remotely via discord or whatever as well, though
so here’s what we did:
picked a room aesthetic that appeals enough to us in general to be a pleasant meeting space. if you have trouble communicating and/or wildly varying tastes this may be difficult but it can be changed and modified as needed. having actual pictures of a room similar to what you want helps a lot - ours is loosely based off the interiors from the love witch (2016)
wrote a short but semi-detailed description of what the room looks like. here’s ours:
“Imagine a room with purple walls and a thick red carpet and faux-Victorian furniture (like the Love Witch). The curtains on the windows are red velvet and glass lamps hang from the ceilings and sit on tables, although the curtains are not drawn; enough natural light flows in that the room is airy and comfortable. Along the walls are bookshelves and tables with various knickknacks and small objects. There is a large, plush velvet couch in the center of the room which can comfortably fit multiple people, and which seems capable of expanding as necessary to fit more. In front of it sits a coffee table. There are also chairs around the table and throughout the room in which people can sit without having to be on the couch.”
then:
gave the description to our partner and got into a comfy position - our partner knows a lot about hypnosis scripts and was able to improvise a relaxation exercise to get us into a trance/visualization state (it was the descending stairs exercise, if you’ve ever done that one) - you can also write a script for this is improvisation won’t work for you
we just kinda went at it after that. we visualize different details of the room at different times - first the wallpaper, then the feel and color of the curtains, individual objects on shelves, etc. we had a mirror in the room which was neat because i (georgie) got to see myself in-headspace
idk if this helps anyone but the main this we wanna stress are:
writing stuff down in detail is REALLY helpful. remember that a headspace in many cases is something you build, not that appears out of the aether for you. writing and describing and making notes on it isnt cheating!
pinterest boards/aesthetic blogs are also useful for finding images to go off of
even if you have limited visualization ability you can still write descriptions of a headspace, find pictures that look like what you want, and if you are inclined towards visual arts you can try drawing stuff too
Trying to figure out how to positively trigger an alter so they can have a turn in front
If I’m in a stressful situation,
I just say “this one is for the boys”
and dissociate until I meet God.
Update:
They think I have late stage Addison’s disease.
I have more testing I have to do.
I’m without words. This is terrifying.
I can’t even let myself grieve or relax because I don’t even have enough money to be diagnosed properly OR treated.
So please, please. If you have anything to spare.. I need it now more than ever ..
I appreciate any and ALL HELP!!!
If you’d like to immediately help me my PayPal is
https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage
I don’t want to die because I can’t afford to get treatment. I’ve come this far.. I’m desperate. I need my community now more than ever. Please don’t let me be forgotten
BOOST THIS
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Kailey Babcock Medical emergency, in desperate need of treatment! Hello, my name is Yves, I’m a young, trans individual who recently moved t
Here’s my GoFundMe to help with everything, I can’t reach the funds fully til I reach my goal or I end it. I’m only at 10% of what I need. SO PLEASE SHARE IT EVERYWHERE!! COPY THE LINK AND SHARE IT TO YOUR FB, TWITTER, IG, everywhere!! It’ll help me tremendously, and it’s the perfect way to help me if you cannot donate anything. It’d be helping survive, thank you
IM RUNNING OUT OF TIME!! , please help in any way that you can. If you’re unable/ not in a place to be able to donate then PLEASE boost, or repost my story!! That helps me just as much !!! and I don’t have much time left to wait and hope for help.
if you’d like to immediately help me with medical funds/survival funds you can donate here:
https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage
https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage
I'm dying too but hey help this person. Good luck whoever you are. Sorry I have a small blog so I'm not helping much.
I love you, I’m sending you all the positive energy, thank you for your time. I appreciate you ♥️
This is what it’s doing to my body as we speak..
This is what i get all over my body when I get flare ups from stress. It’s extremely painful and leaves open sores, which is dangerous because I have a compromised immune system
My body is shutting down, and I’m fighting my hardest to get a diagnosis to TREAT whatever this is AS SOON AS POSSIBLE because the symptoms are getting more severe by every flare up I have..
I’ve had to have 3 emergency catheters so far because my bladder keeps completely shutting down..
I’ve been rapidly losing weight and having muscle loss. I’m not able to break down protein properly for some reason.
I went from 117 to 97
These are only SOME OF THE SYMPTOMS DEALING WITH, But here it is! As humiliating as it is..here’s what it’s doing to me in full view..
I need help while it’s still possible.
My procedure is in a couple of days!!! This is important!! Please help me! I NEED TREATMENT
JESUS CHRIST THIS IS IMPORTANT!!!!!!
DUDE I HOPE YOU ALL THE LUCK OF THE WORLD IDK WHO YOU ARE BUT ILU AND YOU DESERVE TO RESTORE YOURSELF
Get this person all the help you can everyone
I’m exhausted. I just want this to end. I want to live a normal life...
I can’t mentally, emotionally, and financially afford this shit. I need help. I’m working so hard on my own to get everything I can done and it’s like it never ends.. I just want a break to breathe
GET HIM THE HELP HE NEEDS
I put this on my Facebook of the post to share it around. I really hope you get the treatment you need. Prayers for you @maa-iingan. Don’t give up!
I STILL NEED HELP!
EVERYONE WHO SEES THIS PLEASE DONATE OR AT LEAST REBLOG IT IS INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT
PLEASE DONATE AND SPREAD THE WORD FOR HIM ITS DANGEROUSLY IMPORTANT THAT WE DO WHAT WE CAN TO HELP PLEASE REBLOG OR DONATE FOR HIM
https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage
Go to paypal.me/YvesOrage and type in the amount. Since it’s PayPal, it's easy and secure. Don’t have a PayPal account? No worries.
I HAVE TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL TODAY FOR A MAJOR FLARE UP &. FOR EMERGENCY HELP
THE BEST WAY TO HELP ME IS TO DIRECTLY DONATE!!
I have two procedures I have to do this month, an appointment today and needed transportation, rent, bills, ect.
I HAVE PAYPAL, CASHAPP, & AMAZON $ CARDS HELP AS WELL
I appreciate anything
https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage
https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage
signal boost! please, pitch in and get this guy the help he needs!
PLEASE HELP ME‼️I now have severe inflammation and MORE tests, going to ANOTHER specialist this month and having another appointment in a week, besides my two procedures & now maybe three..
I’m just trying to stay alive day to day. My body is literally shutting down idk wtf to even do anymore. It’s extremely painful, and terrifying. I’m 23!!!and NO ONE could afford a MONTH of this, even with “help”. I appreciate ANYTHING‼️
Signal boost!! Please help, every little bit counts, and if you're unable to help, please share this!!
SIGNAL BOOOOSSTTTT
I’ve been bedridden all day, I’m in extreme pain. They think I have psoriatic arthritis as well.. my whole body is swollen but especially my joints. To the point of my skin splitting. I feel like I have severe whip lash and am probably going to have to go to the E.R because I can barely walk. I have an appointment this week but I don’t even know if I can wait. I NEED HELP. I CAN’T afford my medical treatments alone, I need YOUR help. Boost, reblog, or donate, it all matters to me. Please help me get through this and survive..
I really hope you get the help you need and pull through this.
Thank you,
I HAVE to. Or I’ll die.
I have so many appointments, and rent is due and I’m late, due to an emergency visit....So PLEASE keep posting, reblogging, donate whatever you comfortablly can, all helps!! Please PLEASE help me survive.. and if not, share my story/ GoFundMe to all platforms. donating directly to me through PayPal is the best way to help me right now !!
Y'all please help this person, this is really fucking important.
‼️Had an appointment today, did some tests, and needed x rays of my hands. I’ll be on more meds, and have to see ANOTHER specialist. I can’t use my hands much because of my joints and inflammation. I also have to be careful because I’m at high risk of infection, due to the open wounds on my hands from them splitting open from swelling so much.. it’s extremely painful. & I can’t hustle without hands... SO PLEASE, help me if you can. Anything and everything counts! Directly donating helps the most w bills‼️‼️‼️
Guys, please! Help this person! I am so sorry, I can't donate, and all I can do is reblog, but I truly, truly hope that it will help you!
I now have an unexpected MRI on top of getting a catheter today, and two upcoming intense procedures where I will need after care... I literally don’t even know at this point. I’m so scared and lost. I feel so alone. No one NO ONE could afford this shit, live this shit, and have to do all of it at once. My mental health is taking a huge hit because of the stress of literally TRYING TO STAY ALIVE because of bills!!!!!!
I had to have an emergency catheter put in last night and I am in so much fucking pain. I can’t keep up with any of this.. any of it. I don’t have the money, time or ENERGY! One thing after another :( please keep this going for me so I can at least be a little less stressed.. I need help rn.
I have 300$ in my account rn I and I have to use it for meds tomorrow, as well as transportation :( I can show proof. I have an MRI coming up and two other appointments this week. PLEASE , PLEASE if you’re able and ok donate what you can, share, boost, reblog, repost, share my story!! I need to SURVIVE! I just want to be able to heal like I said
IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT
FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING SPREAD!!!
OMG JUST HELP THEM STRAIGHT UPPPP. UUUGH
I'm literally at ROCK FUCKING BOTTOM of poverty and have nothing, but friends PLEASE SHARE THIS and help him!!!!
jesus christ please help him.
@jesuschrist pls help me please sir, I am poor and not well at all....... for real.
Pls help me, I’m at a mental breakdown point.
My friend has Addisons. Signal boost please.
!!!SPREAD THIS!!!
Reblog
Boost
Share
Or dontate
Please do something
Please help or at least share :s
please help them, me reblogging wont do much but please.. i hope this helps a lil dude
Thank you for your reblog, I want you to know I see these comments and am forever grateful to y’all. This does matter and it does help me. More than a little, so thank you.
UPDATE: my roommate bailed on me and now I’m left with double the bills I can’t afford. She went behind my back, and i have limited time to fill her room. On top of this I’m prepping for a surgery, while also dealing with organ issues, and nonstop appointments. I didn’t have time for this or anything in general. I’m scared, and I can’t afford to have this type of shit happen, physically, financially, or even mentally.. if you’d like to help me out PayPal is the best way to DIRECTLY Help me!
https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage
Go to paypal.me/YvesOrage and type in the amount. Since it’s PayPal, it's easy and secure. Don’t have a PayPal account? No worries.
PLEASE HELP ME‼️‼️ EVERYTHING COUNTS AND I APPRECIATE ANYTHING ‼️‼️
No, everyone is not “a little bit autistic”, and by saying that you are diminishing the struggles that autistic people face. You may think you’re being nice by saying that but it’s actually quite offensive. Autism is a disability that comes with a whole lot of struggles that you couldn’t begin to understand unless you are actually autistic.
