NiiBlog

i may or may not completely forget about this :)

[niiblogs]

Hello! (Intro)

Nice to see someone stumble to my humble abode, hello, im just a teenage person posting about stuff so i have something to do in my free time and maybe a small audience of people who relate

I go by Nii

Wat do i like and what will this blog be about?

I love deltarune and undertale, huge fan of canon and theories around it and how unhinged the fandom is

I also love biology and i have a gaggle of plants i care for

I do taekwondo in my free time and might post my grading rewards (i am only green tag so be nice to me 😢)

And i’m also the type to try a lot of things and volunteer so there may be bits and bobs too inbetween other things

I hope anyone who sees my posts enjoys!

[niiblogs]

this is one of my best pieces so far, i put so much time into making this look horrifying and personal at the same time, like a part of myself that is unacceptable but still me demanding to be let out

[niiblogs]

BOOM, first photo editing thing, the background is a buncha peices of pottery i found in my garden, as a kid i loved to collect these but my mom constantly threw them away, actually these are ontop of a plant i buried, it was wilting and i wanted to help it recover but when my mom found it she tore it apart and said that i should focus on exams, so i guess the theme of this is death, more specifically the death of myself, because sometimes i look in me and see wasted potential, like i could have been something, so im just curled up feeling like nothing. the flowers on my face are based off of a compliment i had gotten, that i was like a flower, but i feel that like a flower i wilter and die fast. SO that is all of the meanings of my peice!!!!

[niiblogs]

2 red roses, one rich with maroons and reds, another frayed from past weather, yet still so beautiful, and subjectively more elegant like that meme where its like 'i like it crooked, its got wabi sabi'

clashing colours, sizes, and amounts, yet both go under the same label of a 'rose'

to me one reflects a more spontaneous and outgoing personality, reaching out all directions and plentiful in blossom, a sociable person willing to go far and show the world her flora, yet her petals spay in the slightest tousle and decay in the ground, gently falling like fragile parts of her that now trampled on and her leaves spotted with black rose spots, and only just recovering from the pains of a long term virus and loss of the healthy green pigment in her leaves

the other is more refined and a smaller bush, her roses are rare but breath-taking, large and rich in dark hues of red, and strong, not pushed apart by the wind and rain and her leaves thick and rich in chloroplast, unyielding and her roots dug deep in her position yet it turns her buds to her fragile sister

nice scenes can always be found, even between fences!

[niiblogs]

its funny how beautiful things look up close, this reminds me of something nice

[niiblogs]

found this from my old blog

The hopeful soldier's introspection

Sagging arms are sore from doing nothing

Transfixed in another war of conflicting thoughts about, everything

And your eyes are tired and wet from my plentiful woes

Yet t'was only yesterday when you were fuelling entertainment for your peer's laughs

So tired you are from fulfilling every duty apart from you own like a coward

Tis time not to sleep little soldier?

Rolling around like a restless child, waiting for a mummy that may never come?

Only you can give yourself the benefit of being on your own to improve on one's self before time goes

Nevermore does sleep finally have you in her inescapable grasp after all that crying in bed, engulfed in darkness

Going into a temporary state of peace before the alarms in his mind warn him for newer bomb craters from the attacks the past is still afflicting on himself

[niiblogs]

Guess who did almost nothint exept 2 case studies (4 pages) and a small part of a past paper? From 12 am to 4 am

[niiblogs]

this community is a hellhole since the new chapters.

[niiblogs]

how do u manage to revise at home

genuine question, how does one revise in their bedroom, i always get distracted (right now im meant to be doing chemistry) but i revise so well at school, how do i achieve that at home?

ps im going to tag every type of thing so i can get a answer (sorry)

[niiblogs]

i love this fangame, u can get it from gamejolt

basically buffs rouxls kaard

[niiblogs]

14/05/26 - what happened in the day of the life of a teenager who needs coffee to function and has a breakdown before every exam

well, i woke up at 4 am, fell asleep again, woke up at 5 am, fell asleep again, this tantalizing process repeated until i woke up at 6:20 and revised until 7:40, though, it wasn't actually that bad! I HAD A WHOLE BREAKDOWN OVER A GODSEND of a maths paper, after it my friend felt upset over her performance and i told her that it'll be okey!

After maths i decided to chat with my mumma and she sent a little cute monkey sitting down emoji saying she was the monkey sitting and waiting for me to call her and say how i did

when it passed into the afternoon i decided to start some chemistry revision before deciding to go out for a run!

rest of the day was filled with hail and pain

sounds about right

[niiblogs]

Went to a hindu temple!

Being a hindu means every once in a while i get to go to this beautiful place

i always experience wonder from here, its like a safe haven from my woes, my mumma took me here to get blessings for my exams

This bench spoke to me a little, even though i have never yet met my forever people i hope one day i could say this to someone!

My momma bought me a silver aum pendant i had been eyeing, i still feel a little guilty for spending her money, after arti i was allowed to walk around for a bit which meant i could take these photos!

[niiblogs]

09/05/26- feeling sad

So for some reason i had a break down over being a good person or not until 1 AM so now i was tired all day and got nothing done apart from in the evening.. im trying to find ways to make my day better and i think this might work:

- angry= practice punches on the wall with sparring gloves

- sad= think about how far ive come and go outside to work

- self hatred= remind myself i am human ans lay down for a bit

This is all so far but i think its pretty useful for me!

[niiblogs]

These are some photos of my last school days here, it was very nice and i feel like a grew as a person. I’ll miss lounging on the field by myself and chatting with friends, even if they don’t want to talk with me anymore. I guess its just about finding yourself and ways to make yourself happy even in the absence of some good pals

[niiblogs]

heya

here's a topup, gcse's started an im on study leave :(, forgot to order my hoodie so its arriving late, ill show a pic if i remember 2 :)

[niiblogs]

be the nerd

[niiblogs]

ehheheehheheheheheheh - do it for yourself wwhehipqvwjudguf