Niki Marie Cleary @nikisreflection - Tumblr Blog

Taking it back...

This is one of my first blog posts. And reading it over again has really helped me on a day where I feel I'm not where I want to be.

Here I thank myself! and hopefully you thank me too.

“What do you love to do?” Following…”Why do you love to do it?”

We can easily throw a characteristic or two to people about what we “think “we are, and why. I have a feeling that doesn’t explain anyone that well at all. Its simple. Its love that we are here for. Its love that heals, carries, and kills us from the start to the end. Its an excrusiating fun surprising pulse of tranquilty. If you really, and I mean REALLY love what you do everyday, you are fortunate enough to have discovered what you were put here for. So many of the most influential leaders in the world have not only discovered what they are meant to be and do, but stripped themselves of fear…doubt…and obligation to anyone or anything… to do the very thing that enables their life to be filled with bliss. These people are not just “existing” here on Earth. They are thriving in themselves, motivating the rest, and making history for those to come. Now, for those who are not spending anytime doing anything that they love…I cannot sit and dictate how you should “change”…because thats up to you. Our predicaments can be so different, and I understand its not always that easy to do what you love. An obligation to someones perception of you, a financial issue, a doubtful mind, an insecure body, a fear of being too old..too young. A lack of experience, lack of social skills. And of course, kids…can EASILY take you away from the bliss you were designed to follow. I get it, but if you give up your right to live a spectacular life, don't blame anyone or anything but yourself. Some of the most LEAST fortunate, UNSUPPORTED, POOR, LOST, and TERRIFIED people on this Earth…have done everything in their will to follow their love and dreams. EXCUSES MEAN NOTHING. Living your life and being happy means EVERYTHING.

purplebuddhaproject

Emotions arise in the place where your mind and body meet

Eckhart Tolle (via purplebuddhaproject)

This I know for sure

If you aren't getting what you want, whose to blame?

Do you think its your fault?

Your families fault?

Your girlfriends fault?

Your boss’s fault?

Your ex’s fault?

Your bank accounts fault?

Your cultures fault?

Your bodies fault?

Your past?

Your present?

Or is it the future we put the fault into?

Hang in here.

If you desire something, whether it be a raise, a new love, an old friend, more time, less stress, a new home, a healthy body, more money, less work, more happiness, less addiction, more inspiration, less pain... You have the right to blame anything you want.

But this doesn't have to be that way.

If you move your focus on what you want, (or what you already have and are grateful for), rather than why you don't have it...maybe...just maybe you will get it.

The Universe works through its own set of laws, and when you learn them your life will transform, and when I say transform I really mean begin.

If your intention is on the reasons why you DONT have what you want, all the Universe feels from you is how ungrateful you are for what you DO have already, what you CAN do already, and what OPPORTUNITY you are missing because you are so focused on whats lacking. Are you kind of understanding me now?

We are so absolutely lucky so even have thoughts to consider what we want and don't want out of life. (thats if we like our thoughts, but thats for a whole other blog)...and whether we have all the resources in the world or we have none, we still have the Power of our mind, and its thoughts.

I sound like I just smoked a fat one, I know...but I really need you to digest this fully. Heres some examples I think most of us can relate with...

You are driving, you are already late...and the LAST thing you need is traffic.

Your thoughts start spewing into the world...

“I HATE TRAFFIC...WHY IS THERE TRAFFIC...IM LATE...IM HUNGRY...WHY IS THAT GUY WATCHING ME TALK TO MYSELF LEAVE ME ALONE”

Now, lets see what we can replace these thoughts with...

“I am so grateful for the job I have, or the school I am attending. I am so grateful for my car that enables me to get there, I am so grateful I can listen to music and sing while I wait, and I am so grateful to be alive today to experience anything”.

It may seem impossible to think to positively when you are already stressed, but I promise you...it WILL change the way your entire day unfolds. Yeah, you might not change traffic. Hell, it could even get worse...But thats not the point at all. By putting yourself in a state of consciousness and gratitude, you will see the light come out of all the darkest places. The entire day will be beautiful, not because of anything...but because of everything.

Heres a more complicated example,

You have been working at the same place for years, you don't see a raise coming... you don't feel you are treated fairly and you really don't like your boss or the cologne he wears. You go to work with thoughts similar to this...

“I hate this guys damn cologne. I can't stand this new employee. Why am I still working here? I just want to go home. I deserve more money. I don't get paid enough to do this. I am unhappy here and cannot wait to go home”

This is harder because this is very subjective, but maybe your thoughts can change into...

“I am so grateful for learning what I have learned from this business, I am grateful I have a bad boss so I can appreciate a good one even more. I don't make enough money, and maybe that means I should take what I have learned and start something new, so I don't have to smell this guys cologne”.

Its not the past or the future that the fault should be in, in fact, there is no real fault in anything. You are you and life is just life. Whether you come from money or you are dirt poor, you hate your family or you absolutely adore them, you want a slimmer more healthy body or you really can care less, you are the one who has the power to see not its fault, but its beauty. Life begins when you refrain from stopping it. When you begin saying, I have this and maybe I can do that with this, rather than I don't have that and thats that.

Internal Movement Everywhere

When you are speaking, you assume they are listening.

But when they speak, are you?

The average person wastes valuable energy defending their point of view, to people who are waiting to speak so they can too. We all own our subjective view may it be about food, religion, politics, or society as a whole. We all have our own special bond to this view. We hate giving it up. We want to be respected for it...

Call me crazy...but I think the only respect you should seek is your own.

But thats not what I'm trying to get at here.

I want us all to connection with more love and less resistance. For example, when someone is speaking...LISTEN. Actively listen to what they have to say, the way you think in comparison is neither better or worse. We are all equal. If you and another may disagree, respect that person for being different. Because honestly, if we were all the same...thought the same way and did the same things... this world would be quite boring.

By connecting to someone on a deeper level, you must first GET on their level. Stand where they are standing and look from the eyes they hold. Be conscious of their past and culture, appreciate why they are the way they are simply because they are human, and you want that appreciation too.

For a really long time, I found myself listening to people only so I can speak right after them. I wasn't connecting to anyone or anything at all like I am now. I use to wait until they said their very last word so that I can then defend my life and point of view. Thats no good. I was basically telling that person, you don't matter, I am more important... Your experience is false compared to mine.

Now, I listen. I try my hardest to actively engage in their world, and understand it from where they are from. I think that by doing this, not only am I learning so much about people...but I am appreciating so much about this world and how when it all comes down to it, we just want to be loved and respected...for whatever we are.

Give love, respect, time, and understanding. Every time you feel that overwhelming feeling of “OMG they are wrong...why do they think that? How could they feel that way...They are stupid”...remind yourself that you are ONLY hurting yourself. You are judging and taking away what could possibly be a really eye opening experience. Listen to them. Yeah, you might leave the situation feeling the same exact way you did before, and thats okay...But you just might not...and you can leave the situation changed and inspired.

Punt Intended

With every experience I listen and dance too, I always need rhythm.

What do I mean by rhythm?

Well, before you read the next paragraph... what do you think it means to you....? Take a minute here.

Now, to me rhythm means equilibrium. Every world needs it. Now in the grand scheme of things, the whole world is in equilibrium. Spend some time in nature and you will know exactly what I mean by that. The entire Universe is constantly complementing itself. When it takes something away from us, it gives something back. When the sun leaves, the stars shine. When the sky cries, the flowers grow. I trust in each experience because I examine the Universe as a whole. And I respect it enough to let go of all the things I find myself needing control over. ( for the most part )

For example, in my college classes, I may be learning the content, the responsibility of studying it comes with, and the cognitive stress that follows... but if you STOP paying attention to all of that... what do you find?

For me, I find that each professor is just a person, like me. Each classroom has a “vibe”, like me...and each lesson has a deeper point for existing, like me.

I search for the whole, in each piece. I know that each class may lead to graduation. But if thats the “equilibrium” or “rhythm” I ride, then unfortunately... my life is not going to reflect who I am and what I believe in achieving.

You don't go to school to graduate? What? Niki... Stop you sound ridiculous.

No. You don't do anything to just reach the end. The JOURNEY...is what its all about. Find your rhythm, in everything you do. For this particular blog, Im yearning to find more rhythm in my classroom experiences. To achieve more than just a grade on a test, and a signature on a attendance sheet.

Find each perspective of everything and everyone you are around, and then reflect it off yourself. Find that you are everything and everything is you. Treat the world like you treat yourself. Give it attention and then intention.

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Not so “Common” sense.

Should we base our decisions off facts from the web, emotion in the moment, or our gut in the rut?

Where should you begin? And why should you care?

When your in the womb, cells upon cells are being duplicated and transformed into complicated yet distinguished systems that one day make you the living breathing conscious body that you are. These cells are derived from DNA, which is different for all of us, and offer characteristics physically and mentally (which can be altered, but thats for future explanation).

These cells that now embed our organ systems, muscles, bones, nerves and brain...having the responsibility of it all, forever. Yet we hold almost no trust in them...why?

Whether your belief in the universe and the planets it holds is based off religion or science, neither holds complete answers.(This statement alone can go on for hours, maybe even days, but it surely isn't the point of this post at all). The point is, none of us know anything for sure. What we do know, is most of us are conscious, and hold sensors to stimulus from our bodies. Our senses make the outside somewhat “real”, whether its with our eyes, ears, touch, or smell. Now, our senses do not end there. Believe it or not...the heart itself, has its own response to the outside world as well.

Research done by the Institute of HeartMath expressed that the heart is communicating with the brain every second of the day, through hormones, energy, and pressure waves. The hearts hold a magnetic field that embodies the world around you, and relays its information back to the brain and inside the pineal gland, which is also known as the “Third Eye”, (where we can access the ability to the future, or “intuition”).

Things got weird, REAL fast.

Now, can you think back to a time where you just KNEW something was wrong, or knew it was right? Or had the strangest feeling you were going to see someone that same day, and actually did? Or when you were scared or nervous to do something, and it ended up benefiting you that you didn't? vice versa? Well, these are NOT coincidences.

Lately, I have been doing a lot of research on the intuitive part of the body and spirit. My main source of research has been through a woman named Simone Wright, who is a intuitive consultant. I am currently reading a book written by her titled “First Intelligence”.

Now, back to the beginning.

What should we really be using to make decisions?

Does the internet/educational system really relevant at this point?

(Although, it did lead me to this post, and should not be ruled out of anything, but were talking about inner clarity here, holding faith in decisions inside rather than approval from the outside.)

Do emotions stand for as much stability?

(Emotions almost always relay back to influence of the outside world and society, where it has nothing to do with who you are and what your body has in store for you, if you feel upset/happy because of an opinion of something you like or dislike, that is not “real”, because it can be changed. Do not let the outside decipher your peace. If you only rely on the inside, you will never be let down.)

Or are you ready to tap into the bodies intuition?

The body has EVERYTHING you need. IT ALWAYS DID. You were born with an outstanding ability to create the world your in. Everything in your life is either because of your lack of response/response to your intuition. Tap back in. Like a child lives, they may not have control over what they let out, but they remain honest, their world is their world. They are AUTHENTIC to everyone and most importantly to themselves, up until the world outside of them omits that love.

In a world where this has been taken from us way too young, it may seem impossible to tap back in, but its not.

Ways to feel:

Meditate (BREATHE IN DEEPLY, EXHALE OUT DEEPLY)

Be more receptive to everything...

...Without holding yourself accountable for anything

Hold no standards for you or anyone else

Plan lightly

Have trust in yourself that your more than just “apart” of this planet. You are not even this planet. You are apart of this entire universe. The frequencies you admit and intake or no different than the very internet source I am using to communicate all of this to you, right now.

More to come on this subject!

"We were just curious if you were like, going to be done anytime soon and wanted to like, maybe, play?" .... "Okay. If that's the case ... we will wait."

I stutter when your there And sing while your away If this is a game Am I playing it the correct way?

cafelaluna

Being Weak is Being Strong

I battle more than I’d ever like to admit with terribly sad days, sometimes even weeks. Weeks of cloudy mornings on sunny days, and heavy bones and tiny feet. I hold the world on my shoulders, and lose the grip on myself.

If I could stay concerned with myself more, and less on this and that problem, with the universe, my friend, that homeless dog in Egypt and my mom in ten years, I might get a lot more out of life. And life might get a lot more out of me.

This blog is more of a confession. Im confessing the weakest part of me. That I know you reading this embody as well, that life can be... stressful and...confusing...and sad...and even more confusing.

I am finally accepting bad days as much and as fully I do good days. Life isn't all at once, it comes once at a time...better yet..ONE day at a time. So take on whats here, maybe flip the page a tiny bit but remain here. Because honestly, when do you ever look back and say...”Damn...Im so glad I spent that entire day worrying about that loan!” or, “Wow, If I didn't drive 90 MPH to get to work ten years ago I might have never made any money ever again”. Your problems are never bigger than your life. Think about that. The only REAL problem that ever needs dealing with, is with your health/detrimental physical issue that requires hospitalization at THAT moment. We were not designed to worry about chipped nails and flat tires, we were just suppose to live and let live. Go with the flow like the ocean and the wind. Compliment what sways us, and remain accepting of whatever it is. We don't know why we were put on this planet, so why should waste time wondering why everything else is happening?

Remain a peaceful entity in the pathway of others, stay happy with whats healthy, and remind yourself that whether its good or bad...it ends.

Hard days deserve as much respect as easy ones. Hard days shape easy days, they allow them to exist. Everything in life constantly aims to be in equilibrium. Too much of one thing...just doesn't work. Nature made it that way.