NIKKISLAA

[nikkislaa]

I love you. That’s the truth I keep coming back to. Even when you’re cold and your words bruise, I still look at you like am your muse.

Every time you hurt, something inside me breaks, the girl who always wanted you, starts to run away.

[nikkislaa]

Trapped Inside

There is nothing wrong outside, The sky is wide, the air is light, But inside, the walls close tight, A cage I cannot see, but fight.

Silent screams no one can hear, Whispers of my darkest fear, Thoughts that spin and never cease, Chasing shadows, no release.

I cry inside, where no one sees, For outside tears bring unease. If they came close to wipe my pain, Would I risk hurt and love again?

[nikkislaa]

TIRED BUT TRYING

I am tired, not because I am weak, But because I’ve fought every day this week. The world moves fast, but I feel slow, Like a river lost in where to go.

I smile with friends, I laugh, I try, But the silence hits when I say goodbye. There’s a weight I carry no one sees, A storm that never quite lets me breathe.

Still - I wake. I rise. Not because I want to, but because I can. Because somewhere inside, A soft, small voice still stands.

Some days I feel like fading out, Like screaming loud, but not aloud. Like curling in, becoming small, Afraid to rise, afraid to fall.

But somewhere deep, a flicker stays, A stubborn spark that won’t go away. Not a hope, but more like flame, That whispers, “You are not to blame.”

I’m not my sadness, not my scars, Not every night I wished on stars To feel a little less alone, To call my tired soul back home.

[nikkislaa]

LOVING YOU HURTS

I loved you like storms love the sea loud and reckless but also carefree

You were never gentle, but God, you were real. You hurt me I still stayed, not because I was weak, but because I believed.

Every smile from you was a sunshine Even if it burned my skin I’d take it every time

Running in the wild, I lost myself in your chase, The flowers you promised but never truly gave.

I told myself I was strong, but there’s not so much strength in a heart that keeps mending and breaking again.

[nikkislaa]

HIM OR HIM

Adrenaline in his kiss, dopamine in his smile. He sets my soul on fire, but he brings me back to life.

He came like a calm wind, After drowning me in his storm, He told me he had learned, to love me the way I always want.

But my heart is scared ,

The calmness feels so unreal, What if its a dream,

And I wake up in the storm of fear

[nikkislaa]

MY HEART IS CONFUSED

He's a midnight chase, Sirens in my veins, A kiss like a lightning strike, Burning through the rain.

But also… He is the morning sun on my skin, The stillness in my chest, Laughter wrapped in quiet hours, A place my soul can rest.

You’re the rhythm I return to, The calm beneath the storm, A thousand gentle pulses That keep my spirit warm.

My heart races when he’s near, I finds peace in his gaze. He brings the wild in me, And also keeps me sane.