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Slow shallow breaths is all Rumi can manage.

Her last attempt at taking a full breath had her almost keeling over in pain, a betraying wail fighting to escape and alert her girls.

While both her demonic powers and the Hoonmoon combined had always been merciful enough to accelerate the healing process beyond belief, they had never spared her any of the pain.

Now that Zoey and Mira knew about her patterns, the reason to hide all of her injuries was gone. They knew the ugly truth and still they stayed, they showed their unconditional support.

No matter what happens, Rumi knows that they will catch her. However, she isn’t quite sure if she will be able to reach out for their hand.

#kpdh #polytrix #rumi kpdh #kpdh fanfic #here's to trying to smother rumis self-deprecating ways with overwhelming kindness #my fics

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Yes, I am drawing Rumi in Huntrix underwear again....

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..Zoey smiles brighter now and moves a little more to the side to nudge her forehead against the side of Rumi's. "And who you want to be, and who you are... are so, so beautiful, Rumi."..

I'm done hiding (this is what it sounds like) CH 1 by littlehellspawn

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secondtolastrow

The thing about food and eating is that I think very very few people just have like. Fully normal and healthy relationships to it. And all of the Huntrix girls have different kinds of weirdness to what’s up with them even given that someone (Celine) has done her best to make sure that they are able to eat despite the standards of the kpop industry

This is in part because Celine herself had a severe eating disorder as a younger person, and while she’s recovered to the point where she understands that what was happening with her and the other Sunlight Sisters was Not Okay and she really really wants to make sure that it never happens with her girls, she… has some weird ideas about what food is Okay and Healthy and Safe for her especially and about how to get people to eat in general

Which is why Rumi is the most chill around food but also does just kinda treat it as a necessity sometimes. She heard “food is fuel and you should give your body what it needs” constantly growing up, and so like she doesn’t do messed up “food as reward” or “food as overindulgence” viewpoints really but

She will just get disconnected from her body and forget to take care of it. Or sometimes, eventually, lowkey avoid taking caring of it. Because fuck it, she’s not a machine, she doesn’t need to be in perfect shape, why not go on an insane spiral and do something that sucks the whole way down instead?

For Zoey, it’s not the “what is having a body” autism as much (though that does happen to her), but the “I have sensory issues and food is An Experience” autism

Of course, it’s not like she can say that she doesn’t like mushrooms or that the texture of rice turns into something Evil the moment it’s even a little overcooked or she just finds lentils really very unpleasant. She can’t be picky and cause problems and make someone make a special meal just for her

(Her parents had a tendency to lash out. Maybe. Just a little. It’s fine! She’s not going to be a problem! It’s fine!)

Getting Zoey to express an opinion about food is a level four friendship achievement

Mira, meanwhile, grew up in the dance world, and so that came with a lot of bodyshaming—both from her teachers (too tall, anyone with an ounce of fat on them was fat (derogatory)) and from her family (too muscular, not feminine enough, etc)—and a lot of pushes towards restricting how much she ate and what foods were acceptable

When she moves in with Rumi and Celine, she’s very surprised to find that suddenly the attitude on food is not “let us control that heavily” and instead “yeah you’re doing a lot of work you need a lot of that so of course we’re making things with lots of nutrients in them for meals! You should feel free to get a snack whenever you want!” and, in classic Mira fashion, is probably the one who’s most worked through her existing issues to get more comfortable and healthy around food and in her body

frozenartscapes

It's funny because I was thinking about something in a similar vein. I was thinking about how Celine may actually be an unintentional Granola Mom, but not for any actual dietary or ecological reasons. Mostly because they've got this big ass garden and live on an island with the best growing conditions you could have, why bother with processed food?

Celine likely developed a lot of unhealthy eating habits for herself, but I imagine didn't apply those same things to Rumi, especially as Rumi was growing up. Before it became apparent that Rumi was going to be an idol, I think all Celine cared about was that she was eating healthy. And they've already got a leg up on that because they can grow most of their own fruits and veggies. There was probably a period of time in Rumi's life where "Cece I'm hungry" was answered with "The mandarins on the tree out back should be ripe by now".

And I can see that helping Celine's view on eating, somewhat. It gives a bit of control back to her. It's not just that she's eating "healthy" things like vegetables and fruit, but it's food she grew. She knows it's ok because she watched it develop from a seed. She was there for every step of the process, from the initial planting all the way up to the cooking or canning, depending on what she's doing with it. And the act of cooking - mostly for Rumi at the start - opened up the ability to see food in a different light. She started with the Most Healthy options: a lot of veggie or vegan dishes, ones touted as "the best for you and your kids" with a lot of organic ingredients and nutritional information. But slowly, very slowly, she starts to learn that it's ok experiment. Try new things. Indulge a little. Food is fuel, but it could be good fuel and she's always wanted to learn how to cook the abalone she always sees at markets.

It helps Zoey, as cooking means certain ingredients can be omitted or modified to suit her needs. And it's never a problem because it's a new way to try something. Celine keeps a recipe book of her own, one almost as messy as Zoey's notebooks thanks to all the notes about modifications and experiments. And the idea of cooking to take some control back is something she passes on to Mira. Celine recognizes similar patterns, though thankfully not nearly as ingrained in the teen...Yet. Thankfully Mira got out of there before it could get worse. Whenever Mira starts to get that "I'm hungry but it's not dinner yet and I don't need to eat right now" look Celine calls Rumi over. "Go show Mira the mandarin tree."

Side note: As a result of growing up like this, though, I like to think that Rumi didn't have much exposure to processed food until she was, like, eleven. Twelve, even. The first time she ever had a cup of noodles the sheer amount of salt nearly killed her. She basically curled up into a ball, like a snail, before Celine gave her a whole jug of water to drink. The first time she had a soda her head nearly exploded from the sugar high. She didn't sleep for three days. At one point Celine got up to get a drink at 2am only to have a small heart attack at the sight of Rumi hanging upside down from the rafters, eyes glowing in the dark like a freaking racoon.

secondtolastrow

Baby Rumi nearly dying from consuming cup of noddles With Salt… poor thing

(As the child of an Almond Mom TM, my experiences were the opposite: getting access to chips? Cookies? White bread? Sugary cereal? Sugary anything? My siblings and I went wild for it)

Picturing baby Rumi staying over at a friend’s house shortly after starting school and having snack with them,,,,, losing her mind over a bag of Doritos. The kid’s mom has to call Celine because Rumi is crying. They don’t do a lot of playdates after that

I also like to hc that Celine taught Mira and Zoey and Rumi to cook!! It feels very right to me that she would’ve wanted to make sure they could take care of themselves as much as possible, and that they knew enough about food and nutrition that they wouldn’t start listening to diet culture bullshit and forget about how much energy demon hunting takes

I feel like Zoey would really take to cooking also—she can keep the food from being an issue for her, and doesn’t have to make accommodating her an issue for anyone else, either, while she also gets to do something nice and take care of her girls, too!

frozenartscapes

I think as Rumi gets older and gains more exposure she's less affected by processed food. I feel like part of the craving for it comes from not being allowed to eat it. My parents weren't quite as bad as others, but there were definitely foods that were meant to be for "special" occasions only, or not at all (I distinctly remember never being allowed to eat Lucky Charms as a kid. Well guess what was the first cereal I bought once I was finally living on my own). But in Rumi's case it's not so much that Celine didn't allow those kinds of things, but more they didn't really need them? Why get a cup of factory-made noodles and far too much sodium when we can make our own noodles and soup broth?

And it's stuff like that she teaches them. A lot of it ends up under the guise of "as Hunters you need to be prepared for anything, and if there's a demon apocalypse you should know how to make noodles". I'm actually picturing training excursions where she dragged them out into the woods to make campfire dinners or something. (Along with some good foraging/fishing lessons as well). Because as long as there's justification for it, then they're allowed to do it.

The way I've always pictured the girls' talents in the kitchen is that they're all actually pretty competent, just in different areas. Mira's the best at overall cooking. She's the one who actually learned all sorts of techniques and recipes and if she wanted she could probably open up a restaurant at this point. Zoey is an average-to-above-average cook. She's good at winging it, and just kind of has an intuition on what will go good with stuff. She never measures, and often pairs things that don't seem like they'll match but they do. It boggles Mira's mind every time she watches Zoey perform kitchen alchemy and it's actually really good. Rumi isn't the best at cooking, (and I mean, she can cook if there's a recipe to follow), but where she excels is baking. The more precise the recipe needs to be, the better she is. All of the scariest things you can do when baking she's perfected: tempering chocolate, laminated dough, macarons, soufflés - you name it she can bake it. (She's their secret weapon whenever a variety show has a baking challenge).

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