Blog Of An Indian Teen

Read through the ups and down of this teen

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Good bye.

I know it’s has been a long time since I wrote a post. I was fighting depression and anxiety. I have definitely come a long way and thanks to you guys who kept giving the support. Right now I am free from depression, still have some anxiety. I will push hard and be done with it and be in a calm state of mind. I would also like to thank my friends and family, they were the best at support and…

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Being steady

This week wasn’t as fruitful as I planned it to be but everything doesn’t happen according to your will. I got a few symptoms and voices and flashes where I killed my own dad. It was traumatizing. Even though it happens yesterday I am still scared to sleep but I have been convincing myself that these thoughts and voices cannot destroy my will to fight depression. So I am going to stay steady.…

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Mundane as they come

Mundane as they come

Hey guys this week was a mundane week. Mundane as it comes to be accurate. I tried walking but that’s all I made effort for, otherwise, I barely did anything. The pills I am taking make me so sleepy. I sleep 14 hours a day. So not doing much in the rest 10 hours except eating and watching movies or web series. I plan on being extra productive next week. So maybe you will get some better blog…

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Construction of what?

Hey guys! Long time since I have written. I promised to be back with a changed website for your easy access to my blog posts and trust me I tried to work on it so badly, but my mind stopped me from doing so. So the first few weeks, I tried my best and attend per some webinars to learn how to do it as well. But the last few weeks were me just hiding from embarrassment that I could not update my…

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Under construction

Hi guys, no special blog this week as I am trying to update the site so that it would be more interactive for you as readers and more convenient for me as a blogger. Comment down if you want to have a conversation about anything. Don’t worry, I won’t tell a soul. Thanks for understanding. Love ya!

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Defeat at once

Disclaimer: The blogger has a horrible sense of humour. Hello guys, back to my weekly routine of posting on Fridays. Give me a cheer in the comments. So how are you feeling, still feeling depressed, still feeling caught up in the hamster wheel of depression? Well, I have this advice for you… I used to be a prisoner of my past, I used to compare my state right now to my previous past version…

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The storm of emotions

The storm of emotions

Hey guys, I haven’t written in two weeks and I am breaking my routine and writing on a Sunday so you know you are in for a story. So go grab your popcorn and let’s start. So I have been having vivid hallucinations where I have killed my family and close friends and it was so realistic I could feel the blood dripping down my elbow. It made me question if this world was the reality or if the world…

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Not here

Hey guys, I am feeling ill so no blog for this week. Hope you understand. Love ya.

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Music

Ever heard that Einstein said he would be a musician if he was not a scientist? I feel somewhere even he knew there is science in music. Of course music is sound and sound is energy and blah blah, I am not here to teach you basic physics. So I have read articles that plants based on sound produced around them grow differently, the pleasant sound makes them grow better, with better yield and what…

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The loop hole

Hey guys, as I said last week that I have been having no symptom days and I did until I caught my mother’s cold and was in bed for 2 days which kinda interrupted my happy cycle and it was difficult for me to start again, but my mom gave me the courage and support to start again but slowly step by step. I can’t just do 10000 steps out of nowhere so I am doing half an hour of walking and still…

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Happy Days

Hey guys. Sorry that I missed last week. I was busy with a few personal and forgot to update my blog. Past approx.10 days, have been great. I have had no symptoms, I am walking 10000 steps a day and enjoying my diet food. So it’s been going great and I am finally able to pull out of that wretched depressive cycle. So there is hope, even in the darkest of time, hold on and march forward. Good…

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The small things

I have been having a good day past 5 days, I wake up at 5:30, walk 10,000 steps and then take a bath with some healthy breakfast. Then a proper lunch and oats for dinner. I have started making anime edits and even got some compliments on it from a professional cinematographer, which made me really happy. Finally the small efforts are paying off but I would like to delve into something serious.…

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What did I do?

What did I do?

Well, the answer is I quit dancing. Why? Because of my insecurities. It took a week long for me to overcome it and again start exercising by walking. If one door closes there is always another one that opens. What I am trying to say is that when in situations where you give up you can’t always not give up and give it another go sometimes you just quit it and find another method, I am not saying…

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Small efforts

Hey guys. I have had a week of progress and some trauma that I got over. I joined a dance class and seeing my physical state I did pretty well. I also drew design of a few dresses. I started this after my mom introduced me to a concept called small consistent efforts. I realised that a huge leap isn’t possible and my fantasies of waking up one day with everything sorted isn’t going to come true.…

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Trauma

I haven’t posted in the past few weeks because of insomnia and vivid illusions that gave me trauma and made me afraid of sharing anything. But the trauma has taught me something. It has made me more stronger. It taught me that I am not weak because I have a mental disorder but strong for fighting it. Are you strong? Let me know what you think in the comments. Love you,

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Day 30

Can’t believe I made it this far. Still sick. Important announcement though…I have realized how exhausting it is to post everyday so I will be doing it weekly from now onwards. So keep your notifications on for brand-new content weekly.

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