Noppan

Currently 17. Roman Catholic in recovery

[noppan]

Everyone, what should I do? I’ve already been so tired and mentally drained these past few days. Then today, someone I met on Twitter who’s an ABDL years ago asked me to dinner. He had recently helped me buy a plane ticket, which I had to cancel and get a refund for, so I owed him a bit of a favor.

After we ate, he kept leading me around, walking me until I was really tired. Then he got close to me and started touching me there. I told him not to do that, but I didn't stop him very loudly, and I also had that kind of physical reaction... After a while, we went into the restroom. When I turned around, he had already taken his pants off. I told him, 'You can't do this,' but I kept shaking my head while speaking quietly. He just grabbed my hand and put it there to start doing it... Oh goodness, at the time I just wanted to get it over with so I could go home, so I guess you could say I was 'consenting'... but I stopped him several times in the middle. Oh God, I’m so tired.

I’m going to weekday mass tomorrow and confess anyways. It didn’t shake me as much emotionally as “sexual assault” I know it’s wrong but I’ve done much worse with guys. I just feel like I’m very very confused and tired. And I betrayed Christ’s most merciful heart….

[noppan]

This happened to me this Sunday, I went to confession this morning and I explicitly said to the priest that he touched me and asked me to do sexual acts with him. Yet the priest replied with “holding hands is normal”??? Do I need to confess again? I didn’t explain further after he gave me advice cus mass is starting.

[mysticmagdalene]

Please pray for patients of mine. They are married, and the husband has severe dementia, the wife now has cancer. In your charity, please pray for this couple.

[noppan]

My Angelus Press Commemorative Edition 1962 Roman Missal just came in the mail today! Here it is next to my DRB and other books. 😇😇

I’m not apart of the SSPX nor am I in support of their decision.

[noppan]

Guys, what I do I just went to confession and the priest didn’t give me penance. I ran back into the confessional and asked him He just said do a good thing and thats my penance.

[noppan]

Proverbs 27:6 — “Faithful are the wounds of a friend, but profuse are the kisses of an enemy.”

In these turbulent days of June-July 2026, this verse cuts to the heart of the crisis in the Church. As the SSPX prepares to consecrate new bishops without papal mandate — an act certain to bring canonical penalties and deepen divisions — we see the cost of fidelity.

True friends of the Church deliver painful but honest correction: defending the unchanging Faith, the Traditional Latin Mass, and apostolic Tradition against dilution. These “wounds” may sting, but they preserve souls. Meanwhile, gestures of dialogue, “inclusion,” and synodal unity from Rome can feel like the enemy’s kisses — flattering assurances that mask compromise with post-conciliar novelties and demand silence on error. 

Pray for the Church. Cling to Tradition. Discern by fruits, not appearances. Our Lord purifies His Bride through trials — may we have the courage of saints who chose faithful wounds over false peace.

“Wounds from a friend can be trusted…” May God grant us clarity and fortitude.

[noppan]

hi fellow catholic here, I struggle with a lot of the same sin that you do, it's really rough out there and you feel really guilty about it. But Christ's love and forgiveness is so vast, we can't comprehend it. I promise you, that Christ loves you even if you don't feel like he does.

Thanks, I know it’s a common struggle but I feel like it’s just my symptom of a larger problem….

:/ idk man. It’s truly an addiction especially with what I have went through, I feel like it’s specifically tough to fight those struggles like gazing at teen boys subconsciously or failing to call to Christ when struggle.

[noppan]

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[noppan]

VENT

I feel like I’m spiraling as all three of us in my home seems to be going insane. Me, my Mom, my grandma. There feels like a constant pressure for me to get surgery to satisfy my mom of my disability. And all the waiting for my diploma test results. Etc etc. even reading about the current state of the church.

Why oh why does it have to be like this? I know I just shouldn’t care and I’m grateful to even be living in a place with access to the TLM, advanced surgery, even a okay decent home. I should be joyful and happy. But I’m not.

[noppan]

Please pray for me, I feel like I’m straying away from God and getting more and more spiritually forgetful.

[noppan]

Everyone, what should I do? I’ve already been so tired and mentally drained these past few days. Then today, someone I met on Twitter who’s an ABDL years ago asked me to dinner. He had recently helped me buy a plane ticket, which I had to cancel and get a refund for, so I owed him a bit of a favor.

After we ate, he kept leading me around, walking me until I was really tired. Then he got close to me and started touching me there. I told him not to do that, but I didn't stop him very loudly, and I also had that kind of physical reaction... After a while, we went into the restroom. When I turned around, he had already taken his pants off. I told him, 'You can't do this,' but I kept shaking my head while speaking quietly. He just grabbed my hand and put it there to start doing it... Oh goodness, at the time I just wanted to get it over with so I could go home, so I guess you could say I was 'consenting'... but I stopped him several times in the middle. Oh God, I’m so tired.

I’m going to weekday mass tomorrow and confess anyways. It didn’t shake me as much emotionally as “sexual assault” I know it’s wrong but I’ve done much worse with guys. I just feel like I’m very very confused and tired. And I betrayed Christ’s most merciful heart….

[noppan]

Past few days

[noppan]

Going to confession first time in two weeks wish me luck

Edit: it’s the 3rd time I couldn’t go to confession at my local TLM this time they didn’t have a priest… it’s been 2 weeks since I had the Eucharist and I’m very desperate….

[noppan]

I feel so defeated week after week I keep committing the same mortal sin. I’m frightened by the idea of me dying in the state of mortal sin.

I couldn’t go to confession today, nor receive the Eucharist. I don’t know how other people do it. Confess a month????? I feel like I go every week and it still isn’t enough.

[shatterednightforge]

Hey guys. Sorry if this is silly, but if anyone is interested in praying for my duckling that would be nice. She's 4.5 weeks old and she's limping. I think it's my fault, I think I must have hurt her or something because she started limping after I grabbed her to put her in a pen so she wouldn't wander to the road while I went to work, and she wouldn't just go on her own like usual. Maybe I grabbed her too roughly, I feel horrible. She is eating and drinking and swimming normally, and this is day two of limps. It's only limps and her laying down more than usual, but I don't know. I feel awful.

[noppan]

Wtf is happening to me

[noppan]

[religiousextremist]