Ley :)

23 // arfid ocd asd // queer // she/her 💫

[obsessive-arfid-angel]

🌸 hey tumblr! new here (again lol) 🌸

hiiiii i’m haley 💕 i’m 23 (gonna be 24 on june 15 ayyyy!), gay as hell, chronically online, mentally ill, and trying my best™.

🧠 i’ve got ocd (mostly health/anaphylaxis themed, big thank you to my homie; “what if i drop dead from a food i have eaten like 2000 times ” thoughts 🙃), as well as arfid, anxiety, and some fun trauma soup. i’m currently on a healing journey and trying to unlearn a lot of fear-based patterns around food, health, and being in my body again.

🌻 i talk about:

• mental health stuff (ocd, arfid, panic attacks, dissociation, etc)

• my relationship with faith and spirituality (ALL religions welcome here!)

• healing from grief & growing after loss

• queerness + relationships 💖

• random day-to-day thoughts and life rambles

• cute animals, snacks i’m proud of eating, and memes that understand me better than most people

• my emotional support weenie dogs and the fluffy cow i wish i owned (fr, im obsessed)

🌷 i’m here to make friends, seriously!! if you’re also navigating mental health, weird food thingies, faith stuff, or just want someone to scream about cozy things and existential dread with, or just rant about our latest hyperfixation together, pls interact! i’m awkward but i promise i’m pretty cool sometimes lol

[vicholas]

why are so many online art tutorials just

[obsessive-arfid-angel]

yippiekiyay mfs here is some neurodivergent things that are actually survival mechanisms and i’m tired of pretending they’re not:

– checking my face/arms/tongue 87 times a day just to confirm i’m not randomly going into anaphylaxis

– eating the same 4 safe foods over and over again because ✨variety is terrifying✨ and granola bars are the only thing standing between me and a breakdown

– needing to pretend it’s 2014 and i’m 13 again because that was the last time my brain felt like a safe place to live

– watching the same 3 comfort shows from when i was a kid because nothing else feels real enough to ground me

– having to convince myself that minor symptoms aren’t fatal diseases 6 times a day like it’s my job

– clinging to fan accounts, fictional characters, bands, and online friends like they’re literal lifelines (because sometimes they are)

– playing Fortnite or drawing for hours because if i stop, the spiral starts

– doing everything i can to stay calm when my brain is screaming “YOU’RE DYING” over a fkn skin flake

– reminding myself over and over again that being alive is still the goal, even when my brain makes it feel terrifying

( shoutout to everyone else that is just trying to exist in a body that feels like a trap and a brain that’s always at war with itself. you’re NOT broken. you’re surviving in the ways you know how. and that’s valid !!! )

[lawbutch]

symptoms of mania/hypomania that I think should be in the DSM:

reckless driving

increased drug/alcohol use

lack of appetite

eating with your hands/not using a plate

reaching out to friends you haven't talked to in months

85 conversations on the go

making new social media accounts

mysterious injuries (I always get tiny cuts all over my hands and I don't know where they came from)

change in music/media taste

inability to finish tasks

[obsessive-arfid-angel]

woah hey hi you were born on the day I went home from the hospital from being born! hope you enjoy getting order chaos order for your 24th as well! super cool blog too I feel like we have a lot in common

i’m so late replying to this i’m SO sorry!! but thank you so much 💗💗 i enjoy your blog too!!

[obsessive-arfid-angel]

i would personally like to give michael gordon clifford a (consensual ofc) kiss on the forehead and thank him for coming out with give me a break and ask him why the FORK IN THE GARBAGE DISPOSAL he is so cute, thanks :) this has been your regularly scheduled “i’m yitty deep in my 5sos phase again” post

[ex-riddlecats]

party rockers in their bed tonight. every body just have a good night

[ex-riddlecats]

and we wont let the bed bugs bite. we just wanna see you... sleeping

[todestriebtheorie-deactivated20]

"cant believe youd make this about your current interest" i will make the birds in the sky and the grass in the fields about my thing. for free. i will look at gods ineffable creation with a mind filled with images and thoughts of my guys.

[boundtogetloud]

GIVE ME A BREAK!

[irl-sayorii]

happy pride month from awsten knight and michael clifford i guess 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

[reeeneeereee]

I might be the only online friend that will go to sleep when their online peers tell me too.

Sure thing mate, good nighty ^w^ snork meemeemeemee

[i-will-recover-someday]

Life is all about distracting yourself for your survival

[parxarchive]

saraecheagaray: this is for my wattpad girlies 🥀 go check out the “Give Me a Break” MV out now! [may 22, 2025]

[obsessive-arfid-angel]

being neurodivergent is like… “i either do everything at once in a productive frenzy while blasting 5SOS and narrating my life, or i disintegrate into my bed and scroll tiktok for 7 hours straight. there is no in-between.” with a side of “WHY IN THE FCUK AM I LIKE THIS”

[obsessive-arfid-angel]

me when my safe person gives me reassurance and caring words 💫💫

(also this doggie 🥺🥺 i luv)

[prince-luffy]

I truly hate the word "unalive." There are so many other euphemisms that fictional Italian mobsters worked so hard to provide you with and you just ignore them.

[warrior-of-the-runes]

beautiful compilation from @orc-sign-language

[vinceaddams]

"Joined the great majority" is a good one that I practically never hear.

[rocambolesystem]

Expression from Portugal: "dar o peido mestre" - "to give the master fart"

I don't know if it's related, but some medieval people believed that the soul left the body through the anus.

In medieval times, some believed that the soul left the body by the anus.

"Even if one accepts that death is inevitable, farting can still present a serious hazard. In medieval times, some believed that the soul left the body by the anus. In the 14th century farce, Le Muynier, this acutely important moment goes desperately wrong for a poor miller.

[The miller] warns the priest to absolve him from his sins, saying: “My stomach is in control of me. Alas! I don’t know what to do; turn around.”

The priest answers: “Ha! Saving your grace!” 

Then the miller remarks: “Turn around! I’m going to shit myself!”

The wife and the priest pull the sick man to the edge of the bed and place him in such a position that if the doctrine of soul-departure by the anus be true, they may witness the miller’s final performance. The phenomenon of rectal flatulence is now observed, when suddenly, to the consternation of the wife and priest, a demon appears and placing a sack over the dying miller’s anus, catches the rectal gas and flies off in sulphurous vapour. 

(John G. Bourke – Scatalogic Rites of All Nations 1891)"

[obsessive-arfid-angel]

LOL

[lukesglitterguitar]

imagine going back to your 2014 self as a 5sos fan and updating them that luke is a glitter eyeshadow loving fashionista, calum wears skirts, and michael's kissing boys in music videos...OH and they're all doing solo stuff but the band is still together