âNot all.â Laura admitted roughly, with a single shouldered shrug, not nearly enough nonchalance, and absolutely no idea of how to segue from that. Sex used to be easy, and so was dealing with people, because she simply didnât care. With Sweeney, she knew she could be herself, crass and prickly edges and argumentativeness included, but it felt so much more vulnerable to not want him to leave. More vulnerable than sheâd ever let herself be. Sheâd almost opened her mouth to walk it back, play it off or insult him to crush the trembling intense energy, when he dropped down before her, and every molecule in her body froze. Laura stared at him, agape and wide-eyed and heart thudding loud in her ears but no force in the damn universe could keep her from hearing Sweeney pledge himself to her. Her eyes itched with tears. âIf I have anything to say about it, youâll keep going to the damn end of time, because youâre not fucking getting away from me after this. Iâm holding you to this shit, I- I will do anything to protect you. You⌠you get me, in exchange. Wholly.â
Then the prayer of Mad Sweeney hit Laura like an act of creation. And it felt, it felt, it felt- divine. More than feeling, it was everything, and she trembled, barely aware of herself clinging to his hand to keep upright in the crash of it. Then it settled, heady and intoxicating, and the devotion was in her but separate from her and he- her eyes locked to his, and she let the first thing that came to her lips fall out. âFuck, Sweeney, you know Iâm in love with you, right?â
âwant me to go until the end of time?â he asked, the usual snarkiness in his tone feeling a lot lighter than he wanted it to be. he moved closer, his gaze still glued to her - watching as she seemed to change before him. it was working. and he couldnât believe it. or maybe he could. heâd been devoted to her for as long as he could ever care to admit - even her ancestor, but that was another story and one he wasnât willing to fully share with the class just yet. âthen that settles it, youâre my goddess.â the term sounded foreign on his tongue, especially considering he, himself could have been considered a creature of being worshipped. but it felt right.
but her admission only made him stare - all words and thoughts seemingly flying out the window in that intense and specific moment. heâd guessed, heâd wanted it to be true - even when he told himself that he didnât. but to hear her tell him she was in love with him? that was... it was overwhelming. she was a bitch and he was an asshole and yet the two of them somehow made it sappy and romantic with each other. closing the distance between them, he reached up and pulled her by the back of the head and brought her lips crashing into his. only belatedly and carefully mindful of the kitten, giving some distance between them to ensure it was safe. âgood, because itâd be hard for only one person to be in love with the other. glad itâs mutual.â