Taking Care of Crazy

Hally 18 years old ❤ -sufferer of OCD, anxiety and self harm -can write backwards -lover of strange names

[ocdanxiety]

Thank you

I used to be so unwell, I used to never be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. And now, I am living my life. I am loving my life. 

To all my wonderful followers thank you for standing by me. 

Any questions please feel free.

[heartswillrecover]

[novembermord]

suicidal people are just angels that want to go home.

(via novembermord)

No, suicidal people aren’t well and they need the help they deserve to live a full, happy and healthy life.

Stop romanticising mental illness 2k15

[depresseddisneyprincess]

Eating disorders aren’t as simple as just eat

ADHD isn’t as simple as stop being hyper

Depression isn’t as simple as just be happy

OCD isn’t as simple as don’t be nitpicky

PTSD isn’t as simple as get over it

Anxiety isn’t as simple as calm down

Self-harm isn’t as simple as don’t cut

Tourette’s isn’t as simple as don’t twitch

Schizophrenia isn’t as simple as stop the voices

Panic Disorder isn’t as simple as take deep breathes

Bipolar Disorder isn’t as simple as pick a mood

Insomnia isn’t as simple as go to sleep

[imforeverjustyours-deactivated2]

[ocdanxiety]

I feel like I'm burning out. I've never been this overwhelmed in my life. Nothing has even really changed. It's just that suddenly I can't deal with it all anymore. I know I need to take a break, but my job and my classes are strongly tied together to where I can't quit one without forfeiting the other.

I know exactly how you feel. I think everyone feels like this at some point in their life, especially when things are tough with school/work. It sounds like you can't give up either of your commitments, but that doesn't mean you can't stop feeling overwhelmed. 

I suggest that you talk to someone, if you haven't already, because often when you get a second opinion of someone who you trust, they can help you plan all the things you have to do, and everything which has been overwhelming you will suddenly seem a lot smaller. 

I think it is also important to remember that this is just short-term, the way you are feeling will reside in time, you've just got to power through it unfortunately. 

"If you're going through hell, keep going." - Winston Churchill

If you want anymore specified advice, please feel free to fill me in on some things I can help you with. I'd be more than happy to do so. 

Yours, 

Hally xxx

[pleasebeniceimtired]

I won’t lie to you, I don’t think it will ever stay gone forever. There’s always good days and not so good days. But slowly, the good days might start to out number the bad ones.

[becausewecandothistogether]

[heartswillrecover]

[ocdanxiety]

Harming Panics

Last night I was in the arms of my girl as we watched a film and before she could stop me seeing the screen I saw a cut wrist with blood dripping down. I was sent into overdrive and my head started running a hundred miles an hour because of the trigger.

It felt like because I haven't hurt myself for so long, it was a sign and I should be causing that harm to myself... Irrational thinking which I only believed in because I was in such a state. 

My girl did exactly what I needed, even when I pulled away and tried to bargain with her, she pulled me so close to her and refused to let go until I had started breathing normally again and eventually fell asleep. 

I spoke to Kim about what had happened because I wanted to know how the people I love can help me when I'm in a Self-Harm Panic, not just a usual Panic. She gave some pieces of advice I thought some of you might also find useful if you know and love someone who is going through Self-Harm.

1 - Remind the harmer that many people do bad things, do they deserve pain? i.e. "I've done bad things, do I deserve to hurt myself?" This shocks the harmer into realising what she/he is doing and thinking.

2 - Tell the harmer that nothing is going to change if they hurt themselves, they will only cause pain. Hurting yourself only puts a scar in your skin, it makes no difference to your fears.

3 - Talk to the harmer about their 'happy place', sing, read or give physical comfort to them until their breathing steadies.

4 - Make their breathing steady again by making them breathe with you.

5 - Tell the harmer to question themselves, keep asking why and keep telling them that it's wrong to think like that. Remind them that they know they shouldn't be thinking this way. 

These are simple strategies to help in a Harm-Panic but if it helps anyone, it will be worthwhile. 

Thank you, Sniffy, for doing exactly what I needed and for bringing me through my Panic. I'm sorry for scaring you. And please, please remember that triggers are triggers and are not a chain reaction. Thank you, thank you, thank you Angel.

Hxxx

[ocdanxiety]

2014 in review

Here we go. I know globally, 2014 has been a year that has made society question the flexible quality of human rights, but if I'm honest, 2014 has been my best year yet.

January - I met my new therapist Kim and was put on medication for OCD, anxiety and depression

February - I first started to see a difference in the way I thought about my world. My best friend and I properly discussed my sexuality and made me feel so at home with it.

March - I lost my necklace which sent me relapsing. I told my sister I was gay.

April - Exam revision started. Exams daunting and terrifying. Auditions for school musical.

May - 17th Birthday. Performing in Soho Theatre. Given a lead in 'Oliver!' I told my parents I was gay and they supported me entirely. Exams began. Exams ended.

June - A month of absolutely nothing apart from working at OCD. Starting to see a significant change in my thought processes and the amount of time I spent on my rituals.

July - The first holiday I have had with my family where I truly enjoyed it.

August - My wonderful cousin got married on a beautiful day. AS results. My second cousin's 65th birthday party; after being diagnosed with a brain tumour, she decided she would make it to 65. The death and funeral of my Uncle.

September - My final year at school began. I took a chance and kissed a girl who I really, really, really liked... my risk paid off. 

October - More work, more rehearsals for the musical. Half term and I went to Paris. I realised I was in love. 

November - More work, more rehearsals and the actual performances! The best days of my life. My girl falling in love with me. Having someone in my life who completes me. 

December - Kim telling me that we can start the end of therapy. The best news ever. Family Christmas. Friend New Year. Kissing my girl at midnight.

It's been excellent. I've lost family and friends. I've done well in school. I've done TERRIBLY in school. And most importantly, I've fallen utterly, undoubtedly and completely in love. 

Here's to 2015.

[becausewecandothistogether]

[becausewecandothistogether]

[everybodyhasabrain]

Recovery is not a destination. Recovery is the path.

- Your Heart (via everybodyhasabrain)

[cheesetriestohelp]

[gifnews]

2014 International OCD Awareness Week is October 13-19th

[ocdanxiety]

Start of the end

I never thought I would make it this far, honestly, I really didn't. I never thought I would ever live my life without OCD, but I can finally see myself without this horrendous disorder affecting every aspect of my life.

Last week my doctor said that we were going to start the end of therapy, that is, we're going to tackle my biggest rituals and basically the root of all my problems = absolutely horrible sessions. 

But I'm truly thankful for making it this far and I hope I can continue to push myself further. If you have any questions about the end of therapy or therapy in general, please do not hesitate to ask.

Thank you for everything.

Hally xxx