Sorry I'll leave

Broadcasting the ancient wisdom of the formless cosmic entity that channels its dark knowledge into my brain. Communist buzzkill. I just need somewhere to say things. "Peaking"?

[oceanmirage]

You have found me at a very weird time in my life. I'm back here after leaving Tumblr in my 20s, attempting to live an adult life and basically ruining everything pretty catastrophically. I grew up in extraordinarily fucked up circumstances that turned me into a severely unwell, neurotic, agoraphobic mess and most of my life has been about trying to recover. I made this because I need somewhere to express myself honestly and openly, something I haven't really been able to do for most of my life either through abuse or repression. I'm trying to start my life over, or something like that. I'm also trying to deconstruct from my years long adherence to transfeminism, gender ideology, being "nonbinary" and the damage its done to me. As well, after years and years of denial I am finally coming to accept the likelihood that I have (traumagenic, not TikTok style) dissociative identity disorder. Because of this I might sometimes post contradictory thoughts and ideas, that usually indicates I am working something out with a part of me that I don't have regular access to. I am not interested in interacting with non-traumagenic systems, we don't share experiences. If you'd like to learn more about OSDD/DID I strongly encourage you to read the most recently available research, there are a tremendous amount of misconceptions about it and the reality of the disorder has almost no resemblance to the media depiction. https://did-research.org/did/myths https://did-research.org/controversy/international https://did-research.org/origin/structural_dissociation/

I'm a white bi woman from the American south, in my early 30s and a humongous dork for history, geopolitics, political theory (still learning though), space, physics, psychology, animal biology, and practically any kind of art but especially film, music, writing, painting and photography. Ask me anything you'd like about any of this stuff, I'm pretty friendly! all personal posts - deconstruction diary - DID posts - misc thoughts - art

[sab3rtooth]

i really can’t believe society gaslit everyone into thinking that women peak at like 22 and men continue to get better with age thats hilariously psychotic

[fernstream]

[zombierightsadvocate]

They did far worse than call her a liar. They all laughed at her. Thought her being raped with a bottle was hilarious. Said it “sounded like a good time.” Many said they had wished that rapist would fuck them with a bottle and Amber should be grateful.

[iloveleslove]

Strip clubs posted billboards telling her to audition. A sex toy company made and advertised a liquor bottle shaped dildo based off of her assault testimony and tagged it as I stand with Johnny depp. Thousands of twitter users posted at her asking when she’s starting her only fans saying that’s her only skill. Everyone was laughing at her and her testimony in the most disgusting, misogynistic way imaginable. It’s actually when I deleted my twitter and reddit bc I was so disgusted. I’ll never be over it.

[oceanmirage]

It feels really nice to be able to wear boyish clothes again and not have to think about what it means about my stupid gender. I'm just wearing what feels comfortable to me. I'm just existing. I'm a woman dressing my body in whatever feels right to me and it doesn't have to have some meaning attached to it

[opendirectories]

[gendercriticalbutch]

this video popped up in my recommended and I'd highly recommend it. it's an interview with a Cambridge student named Maeve Halligan talking about all the ways trans ideology is harmful to women. it's a little over a half an hour, but if you have the time I'd highly recommend listening to it. one of my favorite points she made was around 28:18 - "It's actually really important to acknowledge that being gender critical isn't party political...I don't think it should be the case at all that acknowledging the reality of sex and thus promoting the idea of sex-based rights rather than gender-identity based privileges, that is not a party political issue...it's political, but your view on it doesn't necessarily dictate whether you're right or left leaning" oh my fucking god, YES! YES! YES!

I feel a lot of young women specifically have absolutely felt forced into supporting the trans movement simply because it's seen as a "progressive" movement (honestly I think this is mostly because of how it's attached itself to the LGB movement) and thus if you don't support it, you're on the far-right and you must also agree with all these other views that you absolutely don't believe in. I've gotten that allegation thrown at me dozens of times, I've seen it commented on dozens of other radfem accounts... it's a load of horseshit. the more you analyze trans ideology the more you realize it's far more conservative than anything lmao. for starters the way (not all, but I would say most) trans people lean heavily into gender stereotypes. if you're a feminine man, you must actually be a woman and vice versa for masculine women. secondly, and more importantly, the way the movement is adamant on silencing women, denying scientific facts, and forcing women into discomfort by destroying sex-based spaces. that aligns more with bullshit conservative values than anything. so anyways, give the interview a listen. this turned into a bit of a ramble, sorry lmao

[oceanmirage]

Ohhhhhhhhhhh they're fighting in the replies/reblogs of my gender identity post I can't I can't I can't I can't even look at it I know every single argument anyway I have already spent too much of my life arguing on Reddit!!!! I can't let myself fight with internet strangers for 6 hours in a row!!! I need to go for a walk outside!!! I'm going to tape my fingers together!!!!!!

[oceanmirage]

I hate cars so much I hate being in a car only the most evilest people possible could have gone "hm we need a way to move lots of people across far distances very fast" and decided the best option (solely because it was the most profitable) was to mass manufacture giant death boxes made out of metal and glass and filled with a flammable liquid that hurtle through the air faster than the human brain is designed to be able to react to manned by all the stupidest people you have ever met in your life. Fuck them fuck Henry Ford fuck cars and fuck Cars (2006) by Pixar Studios fucking car propaganda fuck you Lighting McQueen and the redneck truck one indoctrinating our children into the car death cult I'm SICK

[fascinationstreetmp3]

me when i recommend something to someone and they end up not liking it

[dogpuppy]

[leofwines-deactivated20250831]

thos video is killinh me

[female-uncle]

How men sound defending Grok and chatgpt

[progressivemillennial]

“If I have one message to give to the secular American people, it’s that the world is not divided into countries. The world is not divided between East and West. You are American, I am Iranian, we don’t know each other, but we talk together and we understand each other perfectly. The difference between you and your government is much bigger than the difference between you and me. And the difference between me and my government is much bigger than the difference between me and you. And our governments are very much the same.”

― Marjane Satrapi, Iranian graphic novelist

[velutfortuna]

Goodnight, and rest in peace, Marjane Satrapi. Thank you for your work and your voice. May we hear you.

[gandalfismyfather]

Read or watch Persepolis everyone

[gnomebutch]

I know this is obvious and probably not worth repeating but it’s so fucked up how many men jerkoff to the idea of sexually assaulting women they politically disagree with. This is common regardless of where on the political spectrum they claim to be on. Males really do view rape as something used to degrade and ‘break’ women who step out of line.

[tra-archive]

My first ever perma-ban from Reddit was because I called this out.

A man (I’m assuming liberal) photoshopped Tomi Lahren’s face onto a sex doll and said that’s all she’s good for. I think she’s a racist POS, but that was the definition of misogyny. I went off and said “it’s hilarious how men on both sides objectify women and think rape and murder are appropriate consequences for disagreeing with them.”

The next day I got a message that I was permanently banned for “inciting violence.”

Liberal men do it to conservative women, conservative men do it to liberal women, and centrist/independent men do it to both. Men only have two insults for women: no one wants to have sex with you (you’re fat/ugly/a femcel) or everyone wants to have sex with you (slut/whore/etc).

[oceanmirage]

One of the many miseries I've experienced over the past few years that has led to my chronic loneliness and general social malnourishment has been being surrounded by "leftist" men (and some liberal women). Watching them repeat the same shit about "respecting women" again and again only to turn around, decide a certain woman was a permissible target for misogyny and then say the most disgusting, vile shit about her I've ever heard made me feel so hopeless. It's so painful to be around people you know are just waiting for a chance to degrade you

[milk5]

Who wants to get way too high while trying to steal something from the falun gong compound in deer park new york

[oceanmirage]

I have so many reasons for believing transfeminism targets children but especially mentally unwell children, which is probably not news to anyone but I'd like to elaborate on some specifics. I think part of what is so damaging about gender ideology on kids is the very concept of a "gender identity." It is extremely common for all kids but ESPECIALLY kids living in unstable, unpredictable, abusive and/or chronically traumatizing environments to have little to no sense of identity. One of the tricks transfeminism plays on you is by instilling in you the belief that having a "gender identity" means "feeling" like a boy or a girl. Identity is not a set of beliefs, experiences, personality traits and preferences, but something you feel. When you feel good you are right gender, when you feel bad you are wrong gender. Gender identity is a feeling everyone is supposed to have. You know you are a woman because you feel like a woman, or whatever. And most traumatized kids don't feel anything about themselves except a sense of disappointment, confusion or outright self-loathing. Their identities are at best blank slates, because what they've undergone hasn't really allowed them to form any coherent sense of self yet. This is interpreted as there being something wrong that needs to be fixed. If society tells you that you are a woman but you don't FEEL like one, then clearly something must be amiss. You try on various presentations and the only thing that approximates comfort is androgyny or masculinity, because at least it gets you away from some of the shame of femaleness. The gap where your real identity is supposed to be has instead been filled in with aesthetics and consumerism, and while you've been trying to figure out your "gender identity" because you have now been convinced that it is the source of all of your suffering, you have been neglecting forming a real one. In my opinion this is part of why so many of them are so immature, under-developed or obsessed with superficial things like collecting objects. Most of them were once children in unhappy situations who were confused about who they were, and instead of receiving the care and support they needed to discover themselves their lack of a coherent identity was taken advantage of, prevented from developing and replaced instead with materialism and weird sex stuff.

[0atm11k]

Its very similar to the pro-ana circles I was in at that middle school / puberty age. Your body changes into an adult's, and you're feeling new depths of emotions you never have before, and are surrounded by people telling you that all of the negative ones are because your body isn't how its "supposed" to be... *Yet*.

Its culty. Its damaging. You think that if its something to cling to, to protect you from these awful feelings your body caused, it must be good, so you defend it as what's best for everyone's health, despite the mental and physical damage it does to it.

[princeandrogyne]

Are you like, stupid?

[foreskinniest]

supreme leader trump takes office and his first sweeping mandate is to arrest every asexual aromantic and sentence them to hard labor in the corn gulags of Iowa

[oceanmirage]

Ohhhhh my god there's like 2 abortion clinics left in my state, they're about to get rid of no fault divorce and start taxing us for not carrying a parasite that ties us to a man for the rest of our lives, in Texas you can file for a divorce during your pregnancy but the court will wait to finalize it until you give birth because so many pregnant women are killed when they try to leave, most women lose custody disputes even when they tell the courts their ex husband beat them, black girls all over America are going missing forever or turning up murdered at a horrifying rate and the cops aren't even pretending to care anymore, like I god I WISH we were illegal for being single, damn would that be a lot easier

[oceanmirage]

Absolutely hate it when people come into my home. You already have one!!! Go sit on your own couch!!! This is MY place to fuck around doing nothing all day!!! Go back to your own stinky cave!!!