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Hello!

For my posts addressing clobber passages and homophobic verses, asks about how I defend being queer, and answering homophobic arguments and popular articles, see the “#side a” tag. I will redirect anyone who asks me about these topics to this tag, so please read through it before you send me an ask about the verses if you’re trying to argue with me.

Call me Hope

23, Latina (Brazillian), lesbian, disabled, genderfluid, anarchist

She/They

Folk Catholic religious blog (though I occasionally post non religious stuff on topics like politics, queerness, activism or just my personal interests and ramblings)

Side A, queer marriage and sex is holy, I reject colonialism, imperialism, capitalism, the state, white supremacy and religious authoritarianism, I believe in the divine mercy and universalism for all, hell is at best a temporary place of justice after which it will be emptied and all souls will unite under one divine communion in heaven, Jesus Christ was and is for radical charity and care work and liberation of all especially the poor, the oppressed and the outcasts.

Needless to say TERFs, misogynists, homophobes, racists, bigots, any anyone else not willing to interact with this blog in good faith fuck off. I will also not tolerate anyone expecting me to justify my existence or my faith.

I am happy to engage with good faith questions on what I believe, how I resolve certain tensions within my faith and between my identity and the church’s formal institutions, or anything else that comes from a friendly position. Just don’t be a dick in my DMs or on my page.

Free Palestine, Sudan, the Congo, Turtle Island, Brasil, Kashmir and all other places under the yoke of colonialism and imperialism

My religious practice includes Catholicism, the Catholic mystic tradition as practiced by saints such as St Hildegard and Julian of Norwich, liberation theology, queer and disabled activism through spirituality, affective piety, Latino and Italian folk traditions, ancestral veneration, death work, herbalism, tarot, meditation and spirit work.

Aspiring to reconnect with my Tupinambá heritage.

If you’re a minor I probably won’t follow you back

If you have any questions or just wanna talk about stuff please feel free to DM me. Again, I welcome all who come in good faith and love being able to talk with people, especially if it’s about religion.

May God give you eyes that may see, ears that may hear, a clear mind, a wise tongue, and a gentle, peaceful heart. May He bless the work of your hands and that which you give to others. May you be blessed with great love and the ability to love others greatly.

#about me #figured it was time I make one of these

judas-shrine

happy pentecost im glad yall are celebrating but i cannot bring myself to find joy for i am mourning judas. i cant believe acts starts w/ peter being like Judas Is Dead Thank God! Let's Replace Him! like im so sad man :( i am at the tomb. not Jesus' but judas'. my mannnnnnnnn kicking off the whole fucking book w/ Yay Judas Is Dead do yall not see the horror in that. what the fuck. i love judas so much

ohholydyke

And what if I told u that Peter’s response was probably built upon grief and the hardening of responsibility placed upon his shoulders

What if the quick dismissal and disgust at Judas came from hurt and betrayal and pain but also came from him wanting to appear strong to a community that now turned to him for leadership—especially since by that point Christ has ascended

Pentecost hadn’t happened yet. No Christ, no Holy Spirit. The void between manifestations of the Trinity. A great mantle already placed upon Peter and the others that was only magnified in the days between the resurrection and the ascension.

Judas betrayed us, and he is dead, and he is cursed. Maybe those words weren’t spoken with disgust as much as with solemn gravity. As someone who, like many of us, could not or would not see the scope of God’s mercy because of pain and betrayal. Someone who now had to lead a group of political and religious dissidents who were very much under fire from the local governing authorities, especially given the whole disappeared body of Christ and proclaiming him resurrected situation. The joy of Pentacost hasn’t come yet. The ache of Christ’s death and then losing him again via the ascension hasn’t eased. The rock stands, not alone, but certainly battered. Looking ahead at an impossible task.

Maybe it wasn’t complete disgust at Judas, but pain and ache warped by responsibility and the need to survive and keep moving. With the responsibility of the kingdom placed upon him and the others by Christ.

Of course they needed another person. They were so little as is. They were probably so used to dividing up tasks and responsibilities in 12. So many looked to them, and to Peter in particular, for everything now that Christ was gone.

Maybe Peter’s words and actions were also grief. Human, messy, imperfect grief. Maybe he, too, was at Judas’ tomb. A person he likely couldn’t even grieve publicly because of the betrayal and the controversy and the various feelings of hurt and anger and disgust and grief and loss caused by the betrayal and crucifixion.

He was Peter’s friend too. Even if Peter was angry and bitter, it wasn’t cold dismissal. It was the best response a man with so much responsibility and stress could give in his situation regarding the need to be practical and find someone to share the workload. We don’t know what else Peter may have said before after or during that speech. We don’t know how he may have felt or grieved privately. How the disciples grieved together.

We just know there was work to be done, and Peter had to be the one to step up and do it, all while carrying the weight of everything

Maybe it’s not “yay” as much as a deep breath, a proclamation, and a quiet filing away of his own grief for another time and place

Or maybe he was angry and disgusted, and was reacting accordingly. Grief manifests that way too.

Can’t imagine it was easy for any of them to process the events between the crucifixion and Pentacost.

salverainha

I’m already late to this, and I’m weaseling my way into this uninvited, but I couldn’t help the urge to add my two cents! I apologize for the cheeky tone of this text, but the sheer humanity of the disciples does amuse me, in a heartwarming way.

Let’s not forget that it was Peter, too, who also betrayed Jesus in the narrative; it was Peter who denied being associated with that man they were taking to be crucified, and repeatedly at that, even after he vehemently assured Jesus he Would Never, Master. Nuh uh.

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Peter stayed alive, Peter talked to Jesus, Peter was forgiven by Him. Judas, the story goes, committed suicide. Now one could go and say that Peter was forgiven because he did the right thing, which was being strong and facing the consequences of what he did, instead of despairing. In fact, many have drawn this exact comparison before.

However, OP, I’d like to call you attention to the following:

1) Peter was the very disciple that initially refused to allow Jesus to wash his feet, claiming that he was not worthy of his Master acting like his servant—absurd thing! To which Jesus, of course, implied Peter was refusing his ticket to Heaven, causing our guy to backtrack and overcompensate. May I have a full bath, then, Master?

2) Peter, or at least Catholic tradition goes (and I’m Catholic, so I ask non-Catholics to bear with me here), was also the disciple that ended up crucified upside down, because—yet again!—he didn’t believe himself worthy of dying in the same manner as Jesus had died, and was lucky enough to have his peculiar request granted by his executioners.

And then I ask you: did Peter believe himself worthy of being forgiven by Jesus after his own betrayal? I doubt that. I very much doubt that, with this man’s track record. The beautiful thing is that Jesus didn’t seem to care if he was worthy or not, and very clearly forgave him after asking him if Peter loved Him (Peter did, and was increasingly hurt by the fact Jesus would go so far as to even ask that repeatedly, not realizing that Jesus’ repeated questions were clearly referencing Peter’s repeated denials). Peter was the Perfect Choice to be the leader of the apostles and the first Pope (at least according to the Catholic Church), not because he wasn’t flawed but because, by God, he was so very flawed! Even after he became the rock on which the Church stands, even after Jesus bid them farewell, he was preaching wrong things, imposing limits to people’s conversion into Christianity and attracting the ire of Paul (not that it is very difficult to make Paul mad) as far as Acts of the Apostles in the Bible. That’s our Peter.

The passion and crucifixion of Jesus starts with Peter drawing his sword and cutting off the ear of a man who asked for Jesus, to the vehement disapproval of Jesus Himself (how frustratingly merciful!), and ends with all the apostles having fled, to the point that at the foot of the cross, in the time of His death, there were only women (#feminism). Women, such as the Virgin Mary and Mary Magdalene, and... John, which of course John reminds us of in his Gospel. Again, we have Peter, uh—to borrow a saying we have in my country—promising much and delivering nothing. (I don’t write this in a judging tone. God knows we’re all sinners here on this hellsite.) I think it’s telling, too, that before that, in the last supper, when Jesus announced that one of them would betray Him, the disciples didn’t accuse one another, but themselves. Because deep down, they believed themselves capable of such a thing.

In the last Mass I attended, the priest surprised me by saying that, in his opinion, the hardest part of the Confession for a person wasn’t the embarrassment of having to list your sins out loud, but the fact that one has to accept that God forgives you just like that, no comments about how you certainly should have known better, no questions asked; that’s almost too simple, too easy, and therein comes the temptation to start ruminating. To reject God’s forgiveness through not forgiving yourself.

I wonder if Peter wasn’t exactly the kind of person who would struggle to forgive himself.

I just think, OP, that beyond his natural and expected rage at Judas’ betrayal, Judas also happened to be a very convenient scapegoat for his hatred of... things unrelated to Judas. How much it would have hurt to see himself in Judas. And to think that Judas’ fate was exactly what he would have deserved, if Jesus wasn’t so (again, frustratingly!) merciful. Much easier to distance himself and rely on self-righteousness than to dwell on terrifying what-could-have-beens.

anxeious

orcboxer

happy pride I'm glad I'm gay I'm glad you're gay I'm glad we're both gay and alive

greelin

“why do you rb and add to your own posts” i’m talking to myself

theancientfootsteps-deactivated

this june we are 1) receiving the Holy Spirit, 2) gazing in love and adoration upon the Sacred Heart of Christ, and 3) transing our genders

interestingmistakes

Reblogging this manually. Op doesn't want credit for fear of being terminated.

star-mom-selkie

happy pride month

manuciruja

awww the like button turns into a rainbow when you press it! that's so cute...hey staff what's with all the trans women you keep nuking?

manuciruja

i think we should be ridiculing them more for this. you don't get to try and go all "queer website" when your staff likes to go on nuking sprees targeting the trans fem users

smadsel

would be remiss not to mention that the rainbow notably straight up just removed the trans flag colors from it. like they’re gone. it’s the progress flag minus the trans flag colors.

smadsel

that’s not the whole flag, now is it

manuciruja

hey staff what the fuck

villainessbian

hey staff don't you think you're being too on-the-nose

shrodingers-catgirl

HEY STAFF DONT YOU THINK YOU'RE BEING TOO ON-THE-NOSE

ghost-in-the-library

rest in peace forum thread deleted before its time

aeyriabird

sorry to post religious ads but i got this ad

and i can't get over how the artist/graphic designer clearly went in knowing they were replicating classic holy white bird imagery and did a decent job with the editing too, except they either don't know what a dove is, don't know that the bird being specifically a dove matters, or just got real lazy and chose the first all white bird that came up in search results because that is fully a seagull in that image

delgrosso

GOD IS COMING FOR YOUR FRENCH FRIES

ohholydyke

LMAO THIS ACCOUNT IS CALLED THE TRUTH MINISTRIES THEY JUST COMMENTED ON MY PINNED POST SAYING I NEED TO PRAY AND REPENT OF BEING GAY BC THAT WILL CURE MY DISABILITY AND THAT I NEED TO HATE EVERYONE THATS UNGODLY HELLO

How tf did they get summoned to my account by this reblog

dreamycastaway

The original pride flag and the sewing machine it was sewn on

ohholydyke

Do you ever stop and realize that Jesus and Judas both died while hanging from a tree?

Jesus, betrayed, crucified to the cross. Whether you follow the tradition of it being carved from wood or a literal (altered or not) tree as in some older traditions, he was left alone and suspended there, arms outstretched, bearing the sins of the world. Bearing Judas’ sin.

Judas, betrayer, killed by his own hand via hanging. Alone and suspended, but his posture is slumped, his neck broken (or, worse, having endured the slow suffocating death which occurs when the noose fails to break your spine). Driven to the grave by his own grief and horror at what he had done. A broken man in need of redemption whose redeemer was dead thanks to his own actions. Repentant but hopeless.

For a moment, before Christ’s body was removed, maybe they both hung there together. Lifeless, cold, grieving.

Do you think Judas broke down when he saw Christ in heaven? Do you think he sank to the ground and begged for forgiveness? Do you think he just stood there, feeling as if there was nothing he could say to make things better, refusing to even make eye contact? Do you think his heart shattered when Jesus embraced him? When he forgave him?

I like to imagine Judas forgiven. Sitting with his friend, whom he betrayed, restored to his side. Sheepishly awaiting the rest of the disciples. And Jesus there, content to have restored the betrayer now that it is finished.