doing my best

dying just to live

[ohwell-tryagain]

❀ about me ❀

This blog exists primarily for me to have a space to be weird online and find others who are dealing with FND/PNES or other mental/neurological issues. Figured I should give a little intro about myself so here goes

basics

age 27

pronouns: she/they (nonbinary)

pansexual

midwest USA :/

disabilities/diagnoses

I have psychogenic non-epileptic seizures (PNES) and am currently awaiting a neurology appointment to be diagnosed with functional neurological disorder (FND)

complex post traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD)

borderline personality disorder (BPD) ((unsure personally but have been clinically diagnosed))

substance abuse disorder (in recovery 1-1-2020)

fun stuff!

in a long term relationship w/ a lovely human @elwelcomematt

we have 2 lovely cats named Jesse James (tabby) and Princess Caroline (calico)

eclectic pagan

into card games (mtg), board games, video games

love camping and being outside

really love animals, all sorts of creatures n critters make me smile

favorite color is purple

big ole hozier fangirl

music taste is pretty all over the place, mostly indie rock lately though

i make a lot of art but most of it is pretty mediocre

[ohwell-tryagain]

Recently, i went hiking on an island. Not telling you where, because doxxing is bad, and i do live nearby.

Anyway, here's a cool image. How was your week?

That’s very fkn cool!!! It’s not giving tropical island, more like a wetland or something which is a lot like where I live.

My week has been up and down, had some seizures and bad days. But yesterday I got to see a neurologist for the first time and we are both confident in the diagnosis of FND but I am going to to a home EEG to ensure that I don’t also have epilepsy. And then after the neurologist my partner took me to the local pool and that was so much fun!!! I love swimming and I got to use the diving board. In order good news, we are growing some vegetables and they seem to be doing pretty well, the first tomatoes are on the vine so that’s nice

[cowboyified]

[my-dailydreams]

[monster1994]

happy june everybody i hope you get fucked and/or sucked this month

[kazokuhouou]

what if we don't wanna be?

[monster1994]

then i hope for peace

[fantasticfinnie]

happy pride month chat

[cuunos]

being a kid and hearing adults say stuff like "woah 2011 was 4 years ago haha" didn't really convey the fucking horror of a youtube video crossing my recommended labelled "9 years ago" and it's from 2017. that's not true. 9 years ago is 2010 or something. don't lie.

[meanbuddhist]

just identified a behavioral pattern within myself

[tetitasdelimon]

top 5 horror movies

-having a job

-not having a job

-applying for jobs

-the job market

-the concept of working my whole life

[ohwell-tryagain]

Hey, i have questions (2 of them, but one could be construed as rude so i'm not asking that)

Anyway, RE: mtg, what kind of deck do you play?

i mean now im curious 🤔 im pretty open here, unless you're asking for my social security number or something lmao

sooooo i havent played in a few weeks bc i normally play commander and it just takes so much concentration. but my fav deck is a Bumbleflower precon that ive messed with, it has a a few alt win cons and several "steal target opponent's creature" style cards. the first deck i ever built myself from scratch is a mono white Appa commander (i recently got into atla as an adult and appa is my fav). he's just a fun ally typal one all about lifegain and flying with a lot of etb, here's a link if you want to see the full spread. (sorry i keep updating this answer as i look at the deck)

also i have the blight curse bracket 4 precon which is so much fun to play if im in a losing streak, but otherwise its just evil through and through

[fryeshiverbigman-deactivated202]

hmm... *gets in evil bed and holds my evil stuffed animal* evil night.. *turns off my fucked up evil lamp*

[hxgrl]

I went to stupid bitch island and everybody knew you

[angstandfags]

well why were YOU there huh

[hxgrl]

[ross-hollander]

I assure you: somebody, somewhere, is on the exact same wavelength as you are.

[everyday-cutephoto]

[ailithnight]

This is a worm? Or perhaps some sort of slug?

[marlynnofmany]

And it's gonna getcha

[ohwell-tryagain]

rollator decor ideas?

so i got a really nice free rollator, its got everything i need. but its this primary blue color which i dont hate, but i dont really love either. i think i am going to get some washi tape and make it mostly purple with some accent tape strips

i want to get a utility light, like basically a bike lamp. but i also saw someone mention battery operated string lights- i think that would look cool but im afraid id constantly be fucking w/ them since the rollator goes in and out of our backseat all the time. my partner already has to be extra careful about the cupholder and i dont wunna make it any more difficult for them

the pic above is the exact one ive got (pretty sure anyways). maybe this can be a "before" reference photo and I will post an "after" once I can make it to michaels

[ohwell-tryagain]

my lovely partner bought me some purple masking tape and moon themed washi tape today!!! it has a paper mache look which I actually really like. i will probably seal it with some satin modge podge that I’ve got lying around at some point in the next few days

today was really hard and I had a pretty rough couple of seizures but working on this made me feel good

(Also ignore our very old house)

[urban-meadow-cryptid]

[ohwell-tryagain]

rollator decor ideas?

so i got a really nice free rollator, its got everything i need. but its this primary blue color which i dont hate, but i dont really love either. i think i am going to get some washi tape and make it mostly purple with some accent tape strips

i want to get a utility light, like basically a bike lamp. but i also saw someone mention battery operated string lights- i think that would look cool but im afraid id constantly be fucking w/ them since the rollator goes in and out of our backseat all the time. my partner already has to be extra careful about the cupholder and i dont wunna make it any more difficult for them

the pic above is the exact one ive got (pretty sure anyways). maybe this can be a "before" reference photo and I will post an "after" once I can make it to michaels