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| he/it, bodily minor, mentally ill, batshit crazy, afab, dysphoric, radqueer | my sideblog: https://www.tumblr.com/oneiratex-reblogs im fully okay w interacting with adults. i interact with nsfw content profile pic: qaurzt on x banner: fishiibo on ig | blog started on 23/02/26 |

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if anyone cares i abandon this blog since im almost dormant in our sys. my sysmate melon is starting his account soon for coping reasons and he will want attention. i’ll link it here once he’s done with setting everything up

melon’s blog

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let me die i really want to fucking die

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I personally dont support xenosatanism and have stated this before, but I am respectfully of other peoples opinions.. cuz yk, im radqueer. I'm not one to say your not radqueer cuz 'XYZ', but i don't think your radqueer sweetheart, since threatening isn't very supportive and radically inclusive.

don't call me a retard when you can't seem to read and comprehend a difference in opinion, which you sadly will have to learn about. also my 3.0 gpa says otherwise, but I won't brag.

don't threaten me with a good time, I'm suicidal and have a gun kink, your just not hitting the right bases where you should. you should threaten to actually rape me next time, that'll totally show your in the right. that's sarcasm, fyi, I think you need the extra support.

all I did was send a respectful ask giving my opinion, and saying how I don't think you should threaten people. sorry if that's a hot take but ol damn.

I've been raped before, TWICE, once as a 2 year old and once at 7 years old, then I was later sexually harassed by a friend. so if you wanna talk rape, I'll tell you why I don't and never will support ACTUAL fucking harm. maybe learn to read before sending threats, because I support victims and CONSENUAL roleplay.

I've made my stance on XS clear, I know I focused on the children side of it, but I've also made it clear in the past I dont support none consensual acts.

I don't appreciate getting called a slur, especially because you just sound like my father who ding dong, was the one to rape me AND called me a r slur growing up. I hope you enjoy acting just like what your trying to act like your stopping 💞

++ using slurs doesn't make you cool, it just makes you ableist.

and that's for the engagement sweetheart.

@am3thy2t

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i cant sleep im obsessing over the thought of being covered in my own blood

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he asked me how my day went but all i can think of is suicide

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hi siri why was i the most angry at someone i love the most

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hi siri why did i wake up

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if i were the one to choose i would not wake up tomorrow

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please hate me i don’t even care anymore

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i want to hurt myself and i want to hurt others. already ghosted everyone. broke up with my boyfriend cause he didnt want to run away with me. fucking selfish. i also ate something i don’t like and almost threw up. still feel like i need to do something much more extreme to destroy myself. myself and everyone else around. the world should let me die already.

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I’ll act like I don’t remember todays day.

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I used to be scared of the dark, now I’m scared of myself.

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Half of the radqueers I see recently are plural? Not that it’s a bad thing but it kind of surprised me. I guess I didn’t realise there’s so many of us.

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Nothing creative here, just spitting some senseless words.

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What the fuck is wrong with me.

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Everything and everyone around me screams “you cannot be happy” and the louder they scream the more I believe them.

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IM SO PATHETIC.