hiii, if you’re okay with it, would u be willing to share your outline for your bluebird fic and how u planned for the story to go? i’m super curious as to where the story goes but j totally understand that you’re not continuing it anymore!! hope u had a lovely day
I would like to continue it in October (Reze movie dropping then!!!) if I'm not dying from my new job but here is the abbreviated outline in case I can't!
WARNINGS for grooming, sa, canon-typical violence, dubcon
Remainder of the Hokkaido arc (picking up from the end of chapter 2 directly)
Aki breaks up with his gf as he mentally commits to becoming a devil hunter
He tells you that he plans to eventually move to Tokyo to join the Public Safety Bureau, which makes you go insane (you run away in the middle of the night to that park again, and he has to go find you); eventually you forgive him after he says that his plan is to somehow get you to move to Tokyo and find work and you can both continue living together codependently (lol)
Just by coincidence, a Tokyo man who lost his wife and daughter to the Gun Devil comes to the Hokkaido orphanage looking to adopt; he's looking for someone who would have been around his daughter's age and he becomes interested in you
Aki encourages you to accept his adoption offer because he seems like a nice guy, and you'll both be in Tokyo this way
Then there is a timeskip to two years later, when Aki is wrapping up post-secondary training in Hokkaido and about to move to Tokyo to join Public Safety - you call him and tell him not to come or you'll kill him (LMAO)
First Tokyo Arc
Aki arrives in Tokyo and you pick him up from the station, quite unhappy with him
He moves in with you in your Tokyo apartment; he asks to meet your adoptive father to catch up, but you're evasive about committing
Aki learns that you've been working for Public Safety under Special Division 4, with a contract to the Heart Devil. The conditions of the Heart Devil's contract necessitates you achieving physical intimacy with your targets (usually sex); in exchange, you have a limited ability to read their minds and can compel them to become infatuated with you to the point of unquestioningly following your orders.
Aki is incredibly disturbed by this, and keeps grilling you on why you joined Public Safety, whether you're really okay with your devil contract, why you agreed to such a contract in the first place, and why your adoptive father is okay with any of this - you evade all these questions
You spend basically the rest of the story trying to get Aki to quit Public Safety because you've realized that he will 10000% die if he stays, which activates severe abandonment trauma in you
Also you exhibit some truly batshit behaviour throughout the course of all this, including but not limited to: you taking up smoking just to piss off Aki, because he took up smoking; you getting annoyed when he doesn't stop and chucking all his cigarettes into the bath; you threatening to drown him in a bathtub at least once; having extremely indiscriminate sex which is making you obviously miserable.
(I know this makes you out to be terribly antagonistic LOL but trust and believe that Aki's also at fault - you're clearly acting out because you don't want him to die, but every time you try to have an honest conversation about it, he shuts down and says you'll "find someone else and move on afterwards"; this obviously makes you feel terrible.)
All this creates a growing rift with Aki that neither of you really know how to handle.
Meanwhile, Makima is basically love bombing you. She shows you heavy favouritism, buying you perfumes and clothing and showering you with attention. You feel increasingly isolated from Aki and also feel like she's the only person you can trust. However, there is this weird tension where you notice Aki developing feelings for her in an unnatural way, somewhat reminiscent of how your targets behave around you. You try to use her powers on her to see if she is hiding something, you find out that she's the Control Devil, she compels you to forget everything.
When Himeno notices that you and Aki are basically in love, she propositions you as an attempt to distract you from him. You accept because you are feeling so lonely (again, isolated from Aki) and you actually get very attached to her because it's your first time having sex with a human. However, you eventually realize that this is a manipulation to distract you from Aki. This semi-permanently damages your ability to have intimate relationships and also your sense of self-worth. Profoundly hurt, you move out and nearly cut off all contact with Aki and Himeno 👍
Second Tokyo Arc
Timeskip to the start of the canon series - just after Denji and Power move in with Aki. It's been a few years so you're outwardly less batshit and can talk with Aki again, although you are both constantly pissed at each other (frustrated with each other's self-destructive habits, and also having difficulty navigating the fact that you are basically still in love but both refuse to admit it and are having sex with other people)
Your apartment floods, and Makima suggests that you move in with Aki. You grudgingly agree and you re-establish a solid friendship with him, which you maintain even after you move out again. The two of you still have some batshit moments however (e.g , after he makes his contract with the Curse Devil, Aki catches you standing on the edge of the balcony looking like you're going to jump - not because you want to actually die but because you spitefully make him want to feel the stress that he makes you feel; after Himeno dies, he tells you to break up with your boyfriend and move back in with him, and you agree without a question; etc.)
After Aki reveals to you that he has 2 years left to live, you have a genuine breakdown and beg him to quit Public Safety, even going as far as to offer to have sex with him however much he wants. You actually find this idea repulsive but because of how Public Safety has groomed you + because of how Aki's treated you for the past several years (i.e., completely neglecting your emotional needs as a friend, ignoring the fact that his unwillingness to live is incredibly painful for you as someone who loves him), you truly have begun to truly believe that he doesn't love you in any capacity and cannot think of any other way to appeal to him other than to offer sex
Aki rejects your offer, and he's so disturbed by it that you get into a massive fight where he grills you about all the things you've never told him - why you joined Public Safety, if you're really okay with the Heart Devil contract, why you agreed to it in the first place, and where your adoptive father is. At this point, he has solid suspicions and wants to talk through things and help you, but you don't answer him, instead running out and going to Makima's
Batshit Interlude chapter from Makima's POV
This reveals what happened after you moved to Tokyo and why you joined Public Safety
Your adoptive father tried to sacrifice you to the Heart Devil in order to make a contract (ie., you're a virgin sacrifice). You don't want to die, so you beg the Heart Devil to make a contract with you instead.
The Heart Devil agrees and says it'll make a contract with you on the condition that it takes your virginity. You have sex with it, gain its powers, and kiss your adoptive father and compel him to commit suicide.
Makima finds you like this, after you've committed this deeply illegal crime of entering a devil contract and killing someone. You're fully aware that Public Safety will try to arrest you, after which you'd face imprisonment and the death penalty
You try to use your devil contract on Makima to escape. Of course, you cannot control the Control Devil so it doesn't work, but Makima finds the feeling of "falling in love" (induced by the Heart Devil's powers) to be very addictive, because she otherwise doesn't experience such human feelings of intimacy. She decides to offer you a deal to work in Public Safety instead of arresting you, so that she can keep you close to her and experience affection from you. This is why she spoils you a lot and also why she suggests that you stay close with Aki; as miserable as the two of you are around each other, you would be more miserable without him.
There is also a reveal that Makima has been having sex with you this whole time and basically wiping it from your memories (genuinely so sorry, this reader is a foil to Denji so she's really getting groomed in every way possible)
Final arc (thank god)
The fic picks up during the International Assassins arc with a focus on the Darkness Devil. You end up dying in Hell 👍 and Aki sees it and gets severely traumatized from it 👍 but interestingly you end up somehow surviving which makes him feel like he's going insane
After surviving this incident, Makima's control over you no longer works (for some mysterious reason) and you regain all your suppressed memories of her - so now you finally figure out that she has been manipulating you and Aki all along, and also that she's the Control Devil
Since you no longer trust Makima, you are highly suspicious of all her movements and are trying to plan around them, with the intention of extricating Aki (+ Denji and Power) from Public Safety.
Meanwhile, Aki is going through an existential crisis from seeing you (and Denji and Power) nearly die. Suddenly aware that he has loved ones for whom he wishes to care, he actually attempts to have an honest conversation with you where he articulates clearly that he loves you and says that he'll no longer neglect your feelings for him. You straight up don't believe him, not just because he's been treating you poorly but also because at this point you just don't believe that anyone could ever love you.
Aki asks you to use the Heart Devil's powers on him in order to prove his feelings for you - upon doing so, you discover that he is telling the truth. (You see the entire story from his POV, that's why there's all those references to you "looking into Aki's heart" throughout the prose in the first two chapters)
You finally get together with Aki and fuck nasty (oh my god). Truthfully though it's really emotional porn where you're "redoing" your first time with someone who loves you
I think you get married like 48 hours later... my man has 2 years left to live so he's in a rush.
Aki has his final conversation with Makima; he becomes the Gun Fiend; you're at home with Denji and Power when he attacks and he shoots you in the chest and SHOULD kill you...
...but you don't die! A weird post-death hallucination occurs where you see the Heart Devil. Turns out it's been spectating on your life this whole time (since it's contracted to you) and, over the years, has come to feel something akin to love for you. Verbatim, it tells you that "you're a very easy person to love".
Rather than letting you die in Hell, it decided to give you its heart and turn you into a Devil-human hybrid. (This is why you are now resistant to Makima's brainwashing)
You wake up while the Gun Fiend is wreaking havoc on the neighbourhood and lock the fuck in. You use the Heart Devil's powers to lead it away from everyone else, then you have sex with it. This has the effect of making the Gun Fiend fall in love with you to the point of listening to your orders.
You beg it to give Aki back to you, which it does. Aki has now become the Gun Fiend, having a system that sort of parallels Asa's circumstances with Yoru, except you have control over the Gun Fiend
It becomes a strange full circle moment where the Gun Devil, although destroying your life, has also brought you together with Aki
With all this, Aki is allowed to live, and you find a way to help Power as well. And the Hayakawa family are reunited!!!!!
Truly so sorry for this plot.
