comparing william afton's fear of death to his love of performing or something
For those first wonderful years, performing as Bonnie gave William everything he could want. Not only was he loved and cheered for, superior, even if only to children - but he got to do it with Henry, too. For a short while, he got to rule the world with Henry, even if the world was only their small-town diner.
But things went wrong. He put his life in Henryโs hands, and he was saved. But it cost him the dream heโd been living. After the springlock failure, he began to see Bonnie differently. There had always been that feeling when he got off stage, when cheers died out and voices grew muffled as he went backstage. That crash that always had to happen when he took off the mask and became William again.
No, it was all wrong. Recovery took an excruciatingly long time, and the whole time, he could not wait to return to being Bonnie. Being away from that character, that part of him, was killing them both.
When he returned to life, the place had shut down, the characters had been retired, and Henry no longer wanted to perform. William recalled the feelings: the highs of a show, the low of ending it, of everyone leaving. Everyone was leaving, and he couldnโt let this happen. He was not going to let the show end.
He was Bonnieโs blood, muscle, and mind. He was their soul, and they were his flesh, his body. And if these kids did not want to watch his show anymore, he would simply have to make them. He was only the man who owned the place to them. William did not have any power over the kids. But Bonnie, Bonnie did. The kids loved them, trusted them. Bonnie had power over anyone dumb enough to believe it was a real entity, and not a man in a costume.
The place closed that day, and the other kids left. The performance would have ended on any other day. On any other day, he would have died, and waited for the next day to redon his skin and come to life again. But not today. From today on, the performance would never, ever end. If he ensured that his audience could never leave, he would never die.
If he could ensure the suit never came off, the performance would never end, and he would live forever.