i have walked in its shadow joyfully

amanda, she/her, oriented aroace and v queer, chronically online fan who couldn't help but get back into tumblr bc of the fantasy high dweebs.

[ourmutualignorance]

about me

hi! i'm amanda, she/her, thirties, moiraes on ao3. i'm a longtime fandom consumer and creator in general (been doing it since the early noughts ffn days babyyy), newer-ish to d20. very slowly making my way through the seasons as writing has taken up a lot of my valuable watching time. most of the things i'm writing for this fandom so far have been pretty centered around aromanticism and amatonormativity and all the grey areas in those. whoops. sorry slash you're welcome as is relevant lol.

i compulsively tag everything for my own purposes, but as a bonus, it means if you end up following me it should be super easy to block/filter posts as necessary. (and if i'm not tagging something you'd like me to, please just let me know!) i utilize the queue almost exclusively. asks and messages are literally always welcome: i love to yap and would always love more people to do so with.

on that vein, i help mod a d20 discord server that's based around discussion and fanworks with a very positive, small-community vibe: if you would like an invite, please reach out!

my d20 fic

the place you call home, 156k words, 19 chapters finished 1/16/26 fantasy high. late twenties domestic post-canon, friends-to-qpr fabriz with firmly comfortable aroace riz, mildly plotty. my tag (timestamps one, two, and three, and bonus art!)

Discovering your best friend of over a decade is in love with you might bring some confusion, some complications, and plenty of recontextualizing, but it might also bring so much happiness.

hold fire, currently ~49k words, 7/10 chapters last updated 6/5/26 fantasy high. early twenties post-canon college, idiots-to-qpr fabriz with aroace riz and arospec fabian, fake dating, more themes regarding identity exploration and self-discovery. tropey with some subversion. my tag

Riz thinks he might be aromantic, but he wants to be sure. Fabian has what he's sure is a genius idea, no matter what everyone else thinks about it.

for wind or water's roar, 3k words, oneshot fantasy high. post-canon cathilda and fabian conversation with potentially one-sided fabriz. d20 valentine's day exchange gift. in the fresh light of day, 8.2k words, oneshot cloudward ho. immediately post-canon platonic soulmates torsewell with aroace maxwell. d20 exchange gift.

the dawning hours of our team, 1.2k words, oneshot cloudward ho. ambiguously post-episode 16 romantic torsewell ramblings.

[florensicz]

lesbian things are happening whilst adaine side eyes the camera. she's so done

a quick little sketch for pride month! :) (idea courtesy of @saintofwhimsy) i wanna try and do more of these for various d20 characters/ships, so if anyone has any requests feel free to send asks! i'm gonna try and get through as many as i can over the course of pride month :)

[ourmutualignorance]

He’s been taking his sweet time, hoping that his brain has just been on some kind of obnoxious delay, and that one day Fabian would reach out for his hand or curl up around him or beam at him across a café table or whatever the fuck else, and Riz would magically have an answer. It’s clearly not happening. He– it– he needs to stop. He needs to just– He needs to be stop being such a fucking coward, is what it mostly comes down to.

Chapter seven of my 'let's fake date to help you figure out if you're aro' fic is now live, featuring more bad decisions, more spiraling, and less and less time to figure things out.

[copp3rpheasant]

Day three!!

posted a little later than I wanted to, my excuse is I fell asleep

Coloring is done a bit diff than b4, but I think I like how it looks?

[florensicz]

shhhh... they're sleeping!

inspo pic below the cut :)

[most-adoptable-grown-man-contest]

Most Adoptable Grown Man Contest - Round 2, Poll 48

Which grown man is more adoptable?

Zac Oyama - Comedian (Dropout.TV)

Jesus Christ - The Bible/Christianity

Remaining time: 7 hours 43 minutes

If anyone makes any real people aware of the polls they're in: make it this one. This one is funny enough that I don't care.

And this is once again a pair of images that I love so much and must see be made into a fanfiction.

[lovwren]

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[samreich]

sometimes you dont know what youre signing yourself up for

[professionalmomentruiner]

Project Hail Mary score enjoyers, have you all seen this interview with the composer, Daniel Pemberton? Highlights of it (for me) include:

hearing the original sample of the squeaky tap (did NOT disappoint, never in my life have I heard a noise like that)

he talks about why he thought this story needed this intense creative soundscape

the choral lines are intended to represent Earth cheering Grace on!!

he talks about doubling instruments in order to make it hard to tell what you're hearing

but also the importance of organic sounds and how many of them were made with body percussion (by kids! because Grace is a teacher!)

he also thinks of the two-part theme in The Message and Learning to Communicate as a call and response and he wrote it that way to emphasize the importance of Grace and Rocky's connection!

also I love the way he talks about an orchestra- that it's one huge, complex, expensive instrument, that it brings expectations to the listener that he didn't think were appropriate for this story (I agree)

he talks about how most movie music is in a minor key, and how hard it is to write something hopeful without it becoming treacly (and as a listener I notice some of the amazing major chords in this score the most, so good job walking that tightrope)

every note in the score was synchronized to the action on screen and I can completely hear it, I can hear the Mary running away from the Blip-A, the canister turning in space, the focus and terror and hope of Time Go Fishing, the moment Grace realizes he's in space

Other things I appreciate about the score that didn't come up in the interview:

The burial music for Ilyukhina and Yáo is somber but not a dirge. It honors their deaths but also their intentions- to make their deaths meaningful

When the research facility blows up (and kills DuBois and Shapiro), the ambient sounds around Grace and Stratt go away and the score has only high notes on strings (probably doubled with something else), like your/their ears are ringing

I think the Centrifuge scene/music marks a turning point in the film: it's Grace starting to find his emotional and cognitive footing. He's not panicking anymore, he knows where he is (Tau Ceti) and why (astrophage) and he's just recovered a memory of himself in a moment of competence (even if his fun fact about centrifuge butter goes over like a lead balloon). I hear his confidence and curiosity growing in the music.

In Time Go Fishing, I hear the focus of urgent work, when you're locked in, completely present, following the plan and checking your actions as you go. But ALSO I love that you can hear the strain on the Mary, the creaking, the banging, and the sounds of the alarms.

I love love love that the call and response theme from The Message and Learning to Communicate shows up again in Wake Up Buddy! You hear the "call" section over and over, unanswered, and then finally near the end of the track it's answered overwhelmingly with a gorgeous huge chord. It's the sound of "Only us", the music of "Grace Rocky save stars". 💖

What amazing work, what an amazing piece of art.

[drarry]

Imagine being the gays at a pride event in 2004 living their lives when someone grabs the microphone and announces to the room that Ronald Reagan was pronounced dead. Can you even imagine the hype, the celebration, the pure elation

[drarry]

This is the Pride Month that It will happen. I feel it in my gay bones

[broken-horn-of-equius]

[tuherrus]

you don't even have a dog

[ecopunkhoneybee]

the scene in episode one of sophomore year when Kristen notices Riz wearing half of a bff necklace and he says "it's not Christmas yet!" and she's like "it's April!" is even funnier now thst we know Fabian's birthday is literally in May. Riz you don't have to wait that long.

[uncreativeblob]

Representation of how I feel after socialising too long

[ourmutualignorance]

god that's two episodes in a row i've nearly laughed myself into an asthma attack this season of game changer is going to kill me before the finale

[ourmutualignorance]

Had fun making The Bad Kids in Paralives! This was about as good as I could do with the limited clothing and pattern options (and no eyepatch for Fabian or white streak for Gorgug, rip) but man I'm enjoying the customization options.

Some closeups under the cut for funsies.

(I'm using a few mods: Fabian's scar, Gorgug's tusks, ear point slider for Gorgug and Riz, Gorgug's hair, a couple tattoos.)

[magnhild]

it's midnight on the 1st of june aest

[dropoutvocalstims]

posting this again cause now its actually true

[bootlegsquidink]

happy pride month