They will always get to sit exactly where they need to sit to thrive. I'm living around them at this point and I really don't mind it.
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I've been racking my brain for ways to install shelves for a fancy vibe and the perfectly curated collection of plants perfectly potted and organized. No Tiktok recommendations could give me that perfect 'ooh, this is what I want'. Nothing really fueled me with the genuine drive to actually go through with it.
I'm lying here, having a lazy Monday, silently panicking for my monstrous assignments with deadlines quickly approaching like the next Monday when you've just left work on a Friday.
And it clicked.
I was trying to get an aesthetic shot to see whether or not I've actually learnt anything from the life advisors of Tiktok that I spend milennials watching. I tried different angles, different distances and the entire time, I was following the recommended focus point on the screen and every shot felt good, I guess, but it didn't give me that 'that's the one' excitement until I decided to ignore the distracting blur, angled my camera and the image just aligned so perfectly I could have never Tiktoked formula it to this precision. I actually gasped because I felt it in my chest as clear as day, 'this is the one'.
This is not to argue for or against the utilization of artificial intelligence and social media, or their positive and negative effects in our lives because it's quite clear that it distracts but it also inspires.
This is not about any of that.
This is about me silencing the noise, pushing the distraction into a blind spot even when it's directly in front of my face. When the shot aligned and I felt that gasp, the words for an image I never even planned to share came swiftly and it came sincerely.
They will always get to sit exactly where they need to sit to thrive. I'm living around them at this point and I really don't mind it.
Because while trying to find the perfect shelf and lighting system, I lost track of my initial goals for my plant journey.
Not to curate.
Not to edit into twisted bonzais.
But to feel connected to nature, to feel like I'm keeping a part of Earth with me at all times. A literal freaking jungle.
So when I took that shot, I realized I've been trying to tuck them out of the way when I claim to want to live amongst them. It was never that complicated. I just needed to put them where they needed to go, live with them, not conform them to me.
And would you lookie here. Because as soon as I rejected the noise and refocused on my initial goal based on my preferences, and who I am and am willing to give, the jungle just became a reality.
