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[pariahfox]

This is @clatterbane here. Somehow seem to have gotten locked out of my account a couple of days ago. Just sent another support request, after not hearing anything on the first one when I thought it might just be a server outage.

No idea why I haven't been able to access my account with login errors regardless of device/browser tried, but I did finally manage to set up another one. That didn't work either, the first few attempts. Still hoping to get back into my original account.

Reblogs would be appreciated, trying to locate more mutuals. More or less randomly tagging some people whose URLs I actually remember offhand.

@soilrockslove @katisconfused @adrawatcher @ailurinae @birdblogwhichisforbirds @kelpforestdwellers

[pariahfox]

OK, I am now having trouble figuring out how to even log this account out of the mobile app, short of a reset through uninstalling and reinstalling.

[herpsandbirds]

Himalayan Monal (Lophophorus impejanus), male, family Phasianidae, northern India

Photograph by Kamlesh Mirkale

[rosesonneptune]

What is the MAXIMUM information you want to know before you start reading a book?

the genre

the title and cover image

the tropes and representation

only the most basic plot info

the synopsis inside the book cover

more detailed character or plot info

a non-spoilery overview of the themes and topics covered

a highly detailed review or overview including spoilers

other or some combo of the above (explain in the notes)

see results

Voting ended onSep 16, 2023

Because I was legit shocked when someone told me they think the synopsis on the book jacket usually gives too much away.

[lilaccheese]

@straycatj のJさんはRainWorldでchilling with a sloppy styleです (RainWorldは素敵なゲームです～）

[straycatj]

Slugcat san is cuter!

[lilaccheese]

I think J-san looks just as cute as slugcat ❤️

[straycatj]

Oh!

[herpsandbirds]

Lanternfly (Pyrops candelaria), family Fulgoridae, Huay Xai, Bokeo, Laos

Photograph by Richard Ling

[pariahfox]

I'm trying not to worry too much, but that's been going about as well as you might expect.

Tomorrow I've got an intake appointment set up for endoscopy, because they apparently decided to pass me over to a different team. No communication or anything, I just didn't hear anything about the next regular appointment--and then I got this new patient appointment letter for a week after my usual appointment schedule has been running.

That was confusing as hell, but Mr. C called to see if there had been some kind of mixup. Nope, evidently somebody just decided to send me to another team there after around 2 years with absolutely no communication about it. And I am apparently supposed to do a full new intake, with forms and blood tests and all.

There was also a procedure set for the 19th, or two weeks longer than they have been leaving between procedures lately. Thankfully, I am still eating fine right now, and here's hoping that will hold out for another week. At least they are evidently not planning to immediately stop doing treatments entirely, since they did give me that appointment date already.

But yeah, I have no idea wtf is even happening here until hopefully finding out something tomorrow, and it's making me nervous. I am actually at the point where I pretty much trust the team I've been working with so far here, after horrible and generally traumatic experiences dealing with the NHS before. And this is kind of a life-threatening issue they've been treating.

I do of course worry that they're basically just trying to dump me as a patient, since it hasn't been completely solved after 2+ years of them treating it (largely thanks to the delays and assorted fuckups when the damaged esophagus was still more easily fixable). I am also concerned that whatever new people I end up with won't actually try to keep me able to swallow as non-traumatically as possible, and I'll basically end up back in an NHS-level mess. The team I've been dealing with did actually seem to gaf if I could eat--and tried to keep me out of severe pain while they were reaming my throat out on a schedule informed by it staying open or not!--but yeah who knows.

We'll have to see what they have to say tomorrow. And I'm glad I do have some kind of backup, going in to who the hell knows what.

[pariahfox]

Welp, I've been back home for a little while. And it could have gone much worse.

Apparently the whole deal is that they want to start intubating me before the procedures for whatever reason, and needed to do at least a pro forma medical review to clear me for that. Which consisted of finally telling me wtf was even going on, going through my medications list, listening to my lungs with a stethoscope, taking my blood pressure, and drawing some blood.

It will at least apparently be the same people doing the same procedure, they're just sending me in though a different department to get sedated and intubated before the gastroscopy, and schlepping me back over there to recover after. I really do not look forward to any of that, but at least they will presumably knock me the fuck out before they do anything else. I WILL be getting out of there if not. I don't care if they have taken my chair away somewhere by that point. I will bite some legs off if I have to.

The main practical difference is having a doubly sore throat for days afterward (judging by all admittedly limited past experience with having a tube shoved down there), and probably having to stay there longer since they had better not bring me out of the propofol while I am still in the endoscopy room with a tube down my damn throat.

Nobody ever explained why they are suddenly changing this, other than mentioning that it's supposed to be safer. I guess there is not even a remote risk of aspiration as you're rooting around in there when somebody's got a tube down their windpipe. That's the best I can come up with. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Can't say I'm happy about much of how this has gone down, but at least they are not currently just trying to get rid of me one way or another because I do still need the rather expensive ongoing roto-rooter* sessions to keep me able to swallow anything.

______

* OK, they're actually using this funky inflating balloon thing mounted on an endoscope to stretch out the scarred areas. But, that doesn't sound nearly as catchy. If I could get my own mini roto-rooter to use on myself at home, I would totally prefer going that route.

[lesbian-archives]

Garden Variety Dykes: Lesbian Traditions in Gardening, 1994

[elodieunderglass]

Beautiful couple

[faeriedreams]

ok I just wanna say if you see a kink on tumblr or wherever that really turns u on and then you try it irl and it doesn’t make u feel the way you hoped it would THATS OK!! You can let that kink live in fantasy!! There are a lot of things that turn my brain on that I don’t enjoy during actual sex!! Isn’t human sexuality interesting!!

[lierdumoa]

This is a universal human thing not specific to sex/porn. We all enjoy things in a fantasy setting that we don't enjoy in real life. We all enjoy things in real life that we don't find interesting in a fantasy context. For the same reason that I can enjoy zombie horror movies without actually wanting to live through a zombie apocalypse, I can enjoy reading about or watching sex acts I don't want to perform in real life and vice versa.

[rainbow-femme]

The three kinds of bird species name

1. God’s Specialist Little Boy

2. Hot Breasted Milf

3. Grey Bird With Brown Head

4. Walter’s Fingernail

[rainbow-femme]

[kedreeva]

As a reminder, I report and block default-icon accounts as bots because I cannot tell the difference at a glance, and I will not waste my time investigating.

[shadowstarkanada]

I have a question. Is there actual benefit to blocking the bots vs letting them accumulate? I decided to be lazy and not block them this time, and… it hasn't changed anything that I can see.

[kedreeva]

To understand why you should block bots, you have to understand why there ARE bots. There's a good more precise explanation here. The TL;DR is that bots are following you in order to use you to make their porn sites, con sites, malware-ridden sites etc seem legitimate to search engines so they can hurt other people. We block so we don't help them do that.

[batmanego]

undergoing a process of embiggening

[batmanego]

good lord

[lynati]

How much water did you ADD?!?

[ephemeralhorror]

honestly open source will be the only thing anyone can ever trust in the end i guess

[ephemeralhorror]

see the thing about the fundamental foundational flaw of "the line must always go up" is that the consequences will come for everything you get attached to if they exist within that system, no matter what

[rlyehtaxidermist]

"but no one would ever-"

they always will. literally "no one would ever charge for a runtime" was the foundational defense of using proprietary libraries like unity.

maybe the current developers mean it when they say they won't. but there's no way to say if their next owners will be as free with the leash. and there is always a leash - the very nature of proprietary software is the leash. any control you relinquish will be used against you.

if you can't build it yourself, they can always bar the door.

[demonprincex]

its fast fashion to YOU. im wearing a forever21 sweater i got during the bush administration.

[borderlands-disorder]

[softwaring]

[adhdpie]

7 most adhd moods

–the Only Mood everyone else knows about: i  wanna do THIS and THIS and THIS and THIS and THIS and–SQUIRREL

–galaxy brain: i was listening to the lecture but the prof said something that reminded me of something else and now i’m not sure how much time i was lost in thought

–the tutorial only comes in video format: i’m sorry, but you’ve thrown off the emperor’s groove *hurls product & its tutorial video into the sun*

–damn you hyperfocus: i went to bed intending to wake up and write but this morning i was possessed by a cleanliness spirit and spent the next 14 hours organizing the apartment

–i dont think u tried at all.jpg: did i seriously spend an entire free day refreshing twitter b/c i didn’t want to spend 10 minutes finishing my hw but wouldn’t let myself do anything else until i finished it???? (yes)

–patrick star: *unlocks phone* time to check the weather. *opens twitter* the weather. *opens messenger* the weather. *opens mobage game* the weather. *opens facebook* the weather. *opens twitter again* THE WEA–

–smells like depression: literally everything is too boring. i’m going back to sleep