Humbled
Trying to become better is hard. I have recently undergone a pretty life changing surgery, a liver transplant. Since then I feel as though I have a second chance at life. I don’t want to continue making the same mistakes I made before. I have always had tendencies to be the biggest personality in the room. I’ve struggled with narcissism, becoming arrogant, and taking feedback from anyone. I was always defensive.
Now I just want to make sure those around me feel loved and happy. I’m trying to remember that I don’t have to be a millionaire to be happy. I don’t have to be the strongest, fastest, or smartest. Sitting in that hospital bed, all I did was wonder if anyone would care if I was gone. I have been lucky enough in my life to make a few incredible friends. They were the ones checking on me everyday. Even going as far as to visit me in the hospital, spending the night, just so I wouldn’t be alone. Those are the people who are important to me. I had hundreds of prayers going out for me, but did I pray for any of them.....no....
It’s a harsh truth to realize, you can do better, you can be better. I’ve always heard that self awareness is key to a happy, successful, fulfilling life. I’m just trying to figure that out. I think the first thing I have to give up is my damn ego.














