#seekhelp

[brianalee3]

Healing isn’t linear 🏹 & Life is nvr perfect 💝 . . . but in each moment there is an opportunity for both. Not in the way society tells us it must be but in the way we can show up for ourselves; taking deep big belly breaths & reminding ourselves that we are perfect, always as is in any given moment ✨ Everything lined up in this way for us to be who we are rn 🪷 April was #SexualAssaultAwareness & #ChildAbusePrevention month & I wanted to address how this is more common than we as society like to admit. I’m not here to place blame or to make anyone uncomfortable but this is a real life issue that is prevalent in most of our lives in one way or another ❤️‍🩹 From child molestation, to rape, to unwanted advances, & the list can go on but we are familiar with it. I myself was abused as a very young girl for several years & I truly didn’t realize until my 30s that I’ve nvr actually dealt with it. I finally told someone at 12 when I had a mental brkdown, & then again at 16 when a lot was changing in my life, did therapy, even family therapy & I thought hey that’s it, it’s done. I’m okay. But am I? Was I? No I wasn’t bc there was a plethora of feelings deep within that even I wasn’t aware of at first. It took me until now to finally face that; to know that it was an experience that happened to me 💔 Sexual assault is nothing to be ashamed of , nothing to feel guilty over. It was something that was experienced. We didn’t ask for this , or do anything to warrant it. It’s what happened & it is our responsibility to ourselves to heal from it 💞 Whatever that means to you I truly hope you find it 💕 & it can be very different from one to the next. I personally saw an energy healer who took me on a journey within to face it & to feel free from it. I forgive my abuser, & all that were involved around those years. I now understand the trauma that we all deal with continues on if it’s nvr healed, nvr addressed. #youareneveralone #seekhelp #msgme #wecangetthroughthis #befree More in comments ⬇️ https://www.instagram.com/p/CdWQdb-uiNY/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[thecpdiary]

More on Narcissistic Behaviour

‘Narcissists try to destroy your life with lies because theirs can be destroyed with the truth.’ – Unknown

Lying and deceit is something that happens around narcissism. For those people who have narcissistic traits, they have ‘no regard for right and wrong.’ Lying if allowed to continue, interferes with an individual’s thinking pattern and their life.

Narcissism is a personality disorder that stems from mental health issues. Narcissists only see life from their own vantage point and think the world revolves around them. They have a disregard for other people’s feelings, they have an excessive need for admiration, have a sense of entitlement and can struggle to handle any criticism.

Narcissistic only see their truth, which often is distorted. They will continue to see what is in their best interest and make their life about them.

Unless someone with narcissistic behaviour traits is able to see for themselves that they are narcissistic, you cannot help them change their behaviour. It is something they will need to see for themselves.

If you’re around someone who presents with narcissism, discussions that may seem harmless can turn into heated arguments and frayed tempers. It is important to keep yourself safe and make sure that what you’re doing is in your own best interests.

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[thedailyquranicverses]

The best of duas to be asked for. ❤ We as humans are so faulty and sinful. We do a lot of errors and slip off and commit a lot of sins. Yet Allah shows His mercy and keeps forgiveness as long as a person realises his mistake and repents for it and abstains from it Indeed, Allah is the acceptance of repentance. Share the good. May this be a form of sadaqathul Jaariyah for all of us. . . . . . . #islam #dua #supplication #askingforhelp #help #pardon #pandemic #protection #learning #repentance #astagfirullah #istighfar #repent #repentingmuslim #islam #the_daily_quranic_verses #seekhelp #ramadan2021 #ramadan1442 #ramadhan https://www.instagram.com/p/COZJB3KhIVR/?igshid=qrxl7u5teeo1

[loversplayground]

It's never the victims fault. Share this post and help spread awareness!

[whyowhyme2]

You..Me..We..All Got This, Keep The Faith and Continue To Move Forward. 🧡

[msnaturaltee202]

I Told You, You Thought I Was Bullsh*tting!~ 🤷🏽‍♀️

[howkennafall]

ESCAPE

(Part 2)

That walk towards the parking lot felt like there’s a ticking time bomb in her head - until they finally reached the car.

“When is Aunt coming?” 00:15

“Oh, she sent me a text…” 00:12

“..she said that she’s still having trouble shopping.” 00:10

“She will just wait for me here..” 00:05

“..to return from my errand.” 00:03

RUN. LEAVE NOW. RUN. RUN. PLEASE! PLEASE!!!!

But she didn’t.

She trusted him up to that point. 00:01

Until she froze again like the heavy traffic outside the car. 00:00

She wanted to break loose from that seat belt and from his touches. She tried her best to lean and look away. She wanted to clearly show him that she doesn’t want what is happening.

For once, she wanted to fight back and run at the same time.

She wanted to open that car door with all her strength and being.

She wanted to escape the car and from his lustful eyes.

For once, she wanted to scream and shout for help. This time, not just in her mind.

She wanted to get out. She doesn’t care anymore if a car hits her.

She would rather die.

But she didn’t.

Until now, she didn’t know why. All she remembers were the questions in her mind. What can she possibly do now? Does she have any choice? It was all her fault, right?

The moment she got off that car, she made a decision never to trust him again; that what just happened won’t happen again. “Isaksak niya sa baga niya yung pasta at kotse niya!!!” That’s what’s screaming in her mind but why is she crying? Why are these tears falling?

No. She can’t cry now. No one should know about what happened.

And that was what she hoped.

A week after, she went home and was greeted by her mother’s furious face. What’s on her mom's hands almost gave her a heart attack.

They were two framed photos of her, eating pasta.

“What are these!? Why did your uncle sent these!? Did you meet him?”

“I told you to stay away from him!!”

“Are you really that foolish? Come on, you should be wise! You should not trust people easily! So what do you think happens now, huh? You really want to ruin my relationship with your aunt??”

“You are so stupid! Don’t dare tell anything about this to your dad.”

Then that’s when she ran and tried grabbing the frames from her mom’s hands. She's going hysterical. She wanted to smash them with her bare hands and use the broken glasses to slash herself but her mom’s grip was too tight. She felt she’s going crazy with so much anger inside her. She hates her uncle. She hates her mom. She hates herself. She hates everyone.

She slumped on the floor. Bawling. Screaming. Hitting the floor with her bare hands. Maybe somehow the pain can go away with every hit.

Would things be different if she didn’t go with her mom to do the laundry at her aunt’s house 10 years ago? …if she was not alone in that living room? …if people did not lose sight of her at her grandparents’ house? …if her 10-year old self realized that something wrong happened and asked for help? ...if she felt that someone cares for her? …if someone reached out and helped her realize that she was sexually abused and that she needed help? …if someone supported her and strongly advised her that going near the abuser again is dangerous? …if someone helped her realize that it’s more important to protect herself first rather than others?

Her tears falling but her eyes blankly staring on the floor.

Written: 30 May 2020

[quietbabe]

Recovery is not a race.

You don’t have to feel

guilty

if it takes longer than you thought it would.

26.04.20

Went for a long walk in the garden and thought about how the world is healing whilst we are staying at home.