in the violent heart

Hadley | 30 | they/she/he | genderfluid + bi | audhd & bpd. | multifandom.

[peonymage]

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it's about high time I made one of these.

hi! my name is Hadley, or Hads if you're feeling whimsical. my pronouns are they/she/he. I'm 30, strongly neurodivergent in multiple ways, raised-catholic-turned-agnostic, and a very proudly bisexual and genderfluid queer. I'm currently in the US in a long distance relationship, but am looking to eventually get over to where my significant other is ♡

this blog is multi-fandom, and on here you'll find a mishmash of things I like and/or end up fixating on. you'll also find non fandom reblogs, on top of personal posts as well as occasional left-leaning politics.

on a note relating to the latter:

conservatives, maga, pro-lifers, MAPs/pedophiles, terfs, zionists, ableists, transphobes, homophobes, etc., fuck all the way off and stay away. this will NOT be a space in which you are welcome.

that all being said, my hobbies include, but are not limited to:

writing fic and roleplaying (and hoarding aus); drawing; listening to music; watching tv and movies; occasionally playing video games; and crafting. I am also getting into cosplaying and junk journaling/scrapbooking, and slowly getting back into reading. I collect enamel pins, buttons, stickers, and keychains/charms.

my favorite animals are cats, foxes, and pigeons; my favorite flowers are peonies and daisies; and I'm polyjamorous but I listen to too much music to be able to pinpoint exact song and artist favorites — and the same applies for movies. I will, however, share one of the few songs I most strongly relate to:

(personal sidenote: I use tidal for music streaming because I don't approve of spotify's pro ice stance, but the latter was the only source from which tumblr would let me have the song visible in this post.)

some personal links if you want to support me and my shenanigans:

⭒ ao3

⭒ art insta

⭒ art sideblog

⭒ ko-fi

⭒ patreon

if we're mutuals, feel free to ask for my discord handle as well! ♡

[theleshiytwo]

Ineffable musical bastards wip

[clumsypuppy]

this has been plaguing my mind for days

[danielkahndyke]

sorry it’s actually so fucking crazy thinking abt how certain places have banned burqinis like literally making a woman take her clothes off in public like that shit is so fascist

[danielkahndyke]

genuinely horrific like that’s law mandated sexual assault & we just let it happen. hello. can anyone hear me.

[oddarette]

“Do Dead Malls Go To Heaven?”

Experimented a bit with a new way of detailing the tiles. Kinda like it? This particular piece took a hell of a lot of work. I’d love if you shared the vibes it’s giving off, for research purposes 💖

[pkmndaisuki]

hi i drew fanart because the vibes were off the charts

"Come on, Ken! We've got to solve what happened to this totally rad shopping mall!"

[curlicuecal]

I was gonna say the first image had very off label backrooms vibes so now I am obsessed with the idea of Backrooms Barbie

[pillowspace]

Why is everyone solving Deltarune. Can I solve Deltarune too

[the-haiku-bot]

Why is everyone

solving Deltarune. Can I

solve Deltarune too

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[pillowspace]

Everyone stop theorizing ‼️ it’s haiku bot’s turn

[houndmother]

deriding things as performative is anti third space

[houndmother]

im sitting on a patio at my favorite cafe rn and im hand stitching them hem of a dress im working on. and i can see why someone would say im being performative by working on something like this in a public space. but frankly theres no element of that. i just want to work somewhere that isnt my apartment. i want to be in public, i wanna chat with strangers, i wanna see the world. it’s nice to hang out somewhere that isnt my home!

[houndmother]

what i mean is when you say people are being performative you discourage them from doing shit they love in public. and thats no way to foster the world we want to see.

[notahorseindisguise]

everytime i wear an outfit like this i think about this tweet

[png-archive-chaos]

Some silly green guys!

[cozyjorts]

ANDREW TATE ARRESTED ON SEX CRIMES CHARGES

[depsidase]

[bundleofrhetoric]

[iforgiveyouprime]

One thing I noticed on my latest rewatch about Aziraphale during the end credits.

At first, his expression reminds me of the look on his face after Crowley pulled away, when Aziraphale was trying to hold back his tears.

Then his eyes suddenly widen, as if he's just seen something horrifying. I think it reads as fear, since his eyebrows are lowered and his lips are pressed tightly together.

(Similar expression here)

He's breathing heavily

Then, at around the 23–24 second mark, he starts trying to suppress a smile. You can see it for the rest of the sequence.

He looks at the Metatron a few seconds before giving that same mysterious smile. The one which true meaning we'll probably never know.

My point is, he didn't suddenly start smiling. He was suppressing that smile for about half of the time he's on screen in the elevator.

[iforgiveyouprime]

@masnadies true actually.

By the way, I'd also like to add something: I think that during the first part of this clip, he's trying to suppress his panic, pain, and fear. Then, just before the 23-second mark, when he starts trying to hold back a smile, it seems like some kind of idea, realization, or plan suddenly comes to him.

(All screenshots are arranged in chronological order.)

(The moment where he's starting trying to supress the smile)

Then he slightly narrows his eyes, as if he is trying to process or think through whatever has just occurred to him.

After that, it seems like he decides that whatever idea has just come to him might actually work.

And then...

He gives himself a nod before that smile.

He absolutely had a plan. HE HAD A FUCKING PLAN.

[mxjackparker]

Don't leave your friends and even acquaintances to go to the hospital alone. If they don't have someone already going with them and don't explicitly tell you they don't want you there, go to advocate for them. Outcomes for sick people change dramatically when they have someone else there to observe doctors (making them know they can't get away with negligence) and note symptoms from an outside perspective.

Going to the hospital is scary and even someone totally unprepared to be a medical advocate or physical support will be better than nothing, purely from their presence. You can grab food, be there with your phone to search if theirs dies, go in search of a doctor, distract them from pain or discomfort... go with them.

[vivi-theakuneko]

I don't believe in: the system is broken, so demolishing and resetting the whole universe is the only way out.

I believe in: the system is broken, but the next generation has a chance to fix it.

Adam and Joshua becoming the new leader of Heaven and Hell after God/Satan are forced to leave, then they begin helping the two sides reconcile and merge Heaven/Hell into one system that work on neutrally managing human souls instead of actively fighting over the souls by messing with human life is the ideal ending for me.

Maybe it's my Buddhism speaking but I had so much faith in an ending about unity and settling differences to build a better future.

And maybe it's because of my job that I have so much faith in the children of the world. That one day, they would replace the nasty old men in the offices and fix or abolish the terrible laws they have been enforcing.

Go3 gave me the complete opposite. There were no H/H shaking hands and merging offices. Instead, everyone died, and the remaining characters decided to just let everything stay dead when they never lost the option to bring everyone back to make a chance.

I can't stress this enough: If the writers wanted, they could have done ANYTHING with the plot. There was never a "no other way out" scenario.

After the people involved promised a happy ending, I didn'tthink it would go this way. I am not upset just because I didn't see my idea realized. I am upset because it was a betrayal of my trust, too.

Anyway, I ramble off the topic. See ya.

Edit:

I thought of Good Omens again today and realises the message of Season 1 was exactly this.

The fact that CHILDREN chased away War, Famine and Pollution. TP was sending the message that the next generation can fix the problem of the world!

How did #goodomens3 get it so wrong???

[thickness-protection-program]

One of my dude coworkers was like "we should both quit and start an onlyfans." We??

[thickness-protection-program]

Update he is in fact bi. Happy pride everybody

[thickness-protection-program]

Update he and his 40 year old "roommate" like to bump coochies and didn't rule out the possibility of a third. Happy pride everybody

[thickness-protection-program]

Update he just offered to give me my first bottoming experience happy pride everybody

[thickness-protection-program]

Update me and him made out in the meat cooler on the clock happy pride everybody

[marithlizard]

(via bsky)

In case anyone hasn't heard, the cyclospora outbreak affecting tons of people in the US right now is coming from Taylor Farms produce. Best to stay away from bagged lettuce and prepared salads completely right now, but especially the ones mentioned in the screenshot:

Taylor Farms Earthbound Farms Little Salad Bar (Aldi) Marketside (Walmart) Kroger House Brand Target private label greens Costco salads and greens etc Trader Joe's chopped salad kits and fresh produce Fast food: McDonalds, Taco Bell, (Yum! Brands), Chipotle, Subway, Pizza Hut, KFC, Olive Garden, Top Golf, Red Lobster, Burger King, etc.

This is not the first time I've heard about a Taylor Farms foodborne illness outbreak. I stopped eating their salads after reading a description of the conditions in their facilities. Doesn't sound like they've improved anything.

We need a fully funded and staffed FDA, and regulations with teeth - and that's exactly what we don't have under Trump. To make things worse, the CDC is no longer tracking these outbreaks. We're on our own.

[lesbianshepard]

if an archaeologist says an artifact was probably for “ritual purposes” it means “i have no fuckin clue”

but if they say it was for “fertility rituals” they mean “i know exactly what it was for but i dont want to say ‘ancient dildo’”

[thecringeandwincefactory-deacti]

Back in the day I worked at a certain very famous and very high caste art museum in the US as a junior curator. Part of my job was to catalog the objects in the museum database. This includes details like provenance, measurements, and a visual description of what the object looked like.

Like I said, the museum was a pretty snotty institution. It’s got a LOT of objects it’s way famous for possessing, but nobody knew about the absolutely massive collection of Moche erotic pottery it had because the curators were totally embarrassed by this stuff.

Some examples:

Pretty hot shit, right? They never, ever put any of this stuff on public view or published it in any catalogues but - we legit had like several hundred pieces of Moche ceramics in the “dirty pots” category. Anyway, I was left alone to just do my job with regard to the database for several years, ok? And I figured, well, these’re accessioned objects in the museum’s collection - better get down to bidness. 

I catalogued every goddamn bestiality, necrophiliac, cocksucking, buttfucking, detached penis, and giant vulva drinking cup in that collection. I’d be like, 

A drinking vessel in form of a standing man wearing a tunic and cap. He holds an oversized erection in his hands and stares into the distance (note I did not say “like he’s hella-constipated”). The vessel has a hole at both the tip of the penis as well as around the rim of the figure’s head, thus forcing the drinker to drink only from the penis or risk spilling wine all over themselves from the top of the vessel. Red and orange slip covers the surface of the piece.

Pretty straightforward, right? Apparently the deep seated fear of these objects that the curators exhibited was meant to spread to me as well, but - no one ever gave me that memo, because I guess Midwesterners reproduce asexually. When the curators understood that I had catalogued all of these objects in addition to the other, non-sexy pieces in the collection, they were apparently livid, but knew they had no legs to stand on in terms of getting pissed at me for it. 

I visited the museum’s online public access database a few years back and - every single description I wrote of these pieces has been totally neutered to say something like Male figural vase. 

Long story short? Just call a dildo a fucking dildo. It’s all gonna be ok, I swear.

[workfornow]

This is absolutely the MOST unusual reblog I have ever tagged with what is probably my second-favorite tag, “talk to me about your work.”

Plus it’s hilarious.

[cloudfreed]

I love ancient art history !!!!!

[clockshunddachshund]

@lowercasetrashwriter

[scrimblobimblobadimbo-deactivat]

Museums should have sections dedicated to artifacts like these with a warning that says “There’s a lot of private parts in here but we’re dedicated to displaying history so we won’t censor these. Enter at your own risk” or something. It’s prudish to deliberately hide history because of some ding dongs.

[dovewithscales]

Fucking Puritanism.

Unpopular opinion: Sex exists. Making body parts taboo is both psychologically bad for us and kinda stupid.