Inazuma Eleven (OG) Headcanons: Gouenji!
In canon, Gouenji acts pretty calm, level-headed, and pretty non-violent.
I have this headcanon that before his mother's fateful, sad death and his drift and distance from his father, he was a bit more expressive and joyful. Not that present Gouenji is depressed or such, but that he's simply not as happy as he used to be. He was joyful and smiled more back then, but because of grief affecting his fatherāeven though Shuuya was also grievingāhis father grew bitter, distant, and avoidant of his son. Gone were the days when little Shuuya would go up to his father and just chatter with him, where now, they would usually only have small talk.
Shuuya still has an awkward, rocky relationship with his fatherādulled by grief, loss, and pain, that his father refused to express and show such vulnerability to the rest of the family. His father had to put his own feelings away for his children. It was to support his two children amidst his wife and their mother's death. But...while he attempted doing so, he got lost in his own pain and said pain inflicted more damage onto his son and daughter.
Shuuya feels somehow abandoned by his father at times, feeling that he wasn't the same anymore. His father was emotionally constipated. He couldn'tāno, he wouldn't talk to his own son honestly and transparently anymore.
And that tore a hole in Shuuya's heart that he never realized was there.
He knew that deep, deep, down, his father still loved him. But his heart kept telling him otherwise that his relationship with his father would never be reconciledāthat they would forever be alike to fire and gasoline. Fire and gasoline just blows up in your face, just like his past attempts to address his father's suppressed grief and painātrying to be the adult, trying to be the therapist to his father. He just kept trying and failing to get his father to be honest, vulnerable, and aware of everyone else's grief. But to no avail, he let himself be shut in.
And Shuuya felt even more distant from his father. The pain that set in his heart. He couldn't bear to unload on anyone. But what could he do? He was practically hopeless.