pollyanna

ramblings of a random earthbound fan

[pollyanna-666]

Charred Remains - song i wrote

TW: smoking, implied self-harm, dysphoria, suicidal thoughts

PROCEED WITH CAUTION - DO NOT STEAL THIS, THIS IS THE PROPERTY OF POLLYANNA-666 AKA ELIAS

sorry that it's blurry, it's a screenshot of my google docs

[pollyanna-666]

cramps are the fucking worst

[aliensatemysocks]

uhh if this post gets a million notes by december 1st (my mom's birthday) i'll ask my parents for a binder

edit: i actually am gonna tag people cuz i fvcking want a binder, man why am i so terrified ughhh

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sorry if some of yall already did the note-ing

[sharksarewaycoolerthanhumans]

@umbral-paladin @cr4ft11 @absolutesilly3 @stxrfiish @imnotactallycool

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[pollyanna-666]

hello!

if anyone wants to talk i'm bored af

[pollyanna-666]

pls dont judge me...

so yeah i identify as a therian now. i prefer it/its pronouns over he/they though those are still fine. i've always like it/its pronouns because they're so nonconforming to humanity but i never figured out what i identified with until i went to an animal sanctuary nearby on sunday. below is the little critter whom i love so much <3

[pollyanna-666]

MY BINDER CAME

AFJD:LAKSDJA:LKSDJA:KLSJA:SKLDJA:LSKDJAS:LKDJAS:KLDJ:AKSLJDA:LKSDJA:LKSDJ:ALKSDJL:AKSJDL:KASDJ IM SO HAPPY IVE NEVER BEEN THIS HAPPY IM CRYING RIGHT NOW

[bleeding-palmz]

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lets lay low for now. these cameras scare the hell out of me

long ago my sister told me hold onto these nights. when you feel alright cause it'll pass you by so easily

and i know where i want to be, swimming through your bloodstream screaming out will you just hold me

well make it out of the trees, light appears in the leafs i can only see you and me

[pollyanna-666]

i had a dream that i met molly and that was the best dream i ever had. i really wish it was real. the feeling of happiness i had for a split second when i woke up faded instantly as i realized, no, i didn't meet it. this song came into my head a second later and i cried like i always do, wishing that the day was over even though it had barely begun.

i hope one day i can go to philadelphia and see one of her shows, it's the last thing i wanna do before i die

[pollyanna-666]

when the autism zoomies kick in

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE---

[nevermatchandscpsradadventures]

Hi, SCP! I saw that you weren't feeling well yesterday so I'm gonna ask you an EarthBound-related question. Out of all the towns in all the games, which has to be your absolute favorite and why?

Hope you feel better today :)

🥺 You’re so sweet. And I am feeling better now thank you ❤️

Anyway, ooh, it’s hard to say. I’m gonna try to narrow it down for you tho

For Earthbound: Beginnings, I think it’s probably Snowman. It’s just so pretty and cute 🥰 Podunk and Youngtown are close seconds though

For Earthbound, does Dalaam count? Bc I love Dalaam, I love the music and aesthetic and I’ve done unprofessional and not super in-depth culture and language building for it. I also like the Surface Tenda Village bc it’s cute and so are the Tenda (Tendas?)

And for MOTHER 3? Hmm, well, there’s only like, three actual settlements? Tazmily, Saturn Valley, and New Pork City. I’ll answer with my favorite location/s, though, which I’d have to say is either the area around Phrygia’s house or pre-timeskip Tazmily. Not for any lore reasons, just vibes

Out of all three games? Yeah it’s probably Dalaam, considering the not-conlang and the flair of culture thoughts I’ve done lol

[pollyanna-666]

Glad that you're feeling better 🙂 Also, amazing town choices! Mine for each of the games are probably Youngtown (because I grind levels there a lot), Twoson (because of the fire music), and Tazmily Village before Chapter 4 (since it's nice and peaceful and stuff). Twoson's probably my decision out of all the games, but honestly there's not a single town I hate; they're all designed really well. (and I agree, the Tenda(s) are super cute!)

[pollyanna-666]

Unfinished thing I'm writing

cw: bullying, dissociation, fear

don't know how Amira does it.

Not be afraid of them, I mean.

She tells us just to pretend that they don't exist and that everything is totally and completely fine.

But when He stands in front of me, knuckles cracking and cronies laughing, it's impossible to do anything but cower.

And I can't hear anyone right now, which terrifies me even more. I'm all alone facing the people I fear most in the world, and I have no way to escape, nobody to get me out of this situation. I want to get out. I need to get out.

I can't, though. I can't do anything. Except feel.

Feel my terror, feel my heart pounding, feel my hands shaking, in this horrible moment.

He takes a step forward now and yanks me towards him by my right arm.

"I thought I told you to stay out of my way, Chloe," He says, and I flinch.

Chloe is not my name. It's none of our names. Even those of us who are feminine hate that name. Because it's not who we are, and it never has been.

Chloe is...

I can't even say it.

Why can't I say it anymore?

...

Right. They're not here right now. I'm by myself.

"—HEY! Are you listening to me?"

Stumbling backwards, I realize He just shoved me.

I'm on the ground now.

My elbow feels like it's scraped on the concrete, but I don't feel any pain.

I don't even understand anything that's going on around me anymore. It's all turning into darkness and I know that I'm retreating into The Darkness. Not again.

[lesbianhouseplant]

Ah yes, the 3 genders. Male, female, and “what the fuck are you, a cop?”

[pollyanna-666]

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AAUAUAUASDHGHGH i shaved my legs last night and now i feel like i'm actually in pain. not real pain but sensory pain. it hurts and i dont know how else to describe it. i hate this feeling. i want to cry and throw up. autism can suck sometimes :(

[pollyanna-666]

:(

I feel so bad for worrying my friends with all my venting and then all of a sudden acting like everything is okay.

[pollyanna-666]

Eli's FFVI Playthrough

I just obtained Palom and Porom (I think those are there names lol) and I renamed them "Mimme" and "Minnie" after Ninten's sisters in EarthBound Beginnings. The game's going great so far!

[pollyanna-666]

dysphoria sucks

dysphoria sucks >:(

[pollyanna-666]

I started playing FFIV!

I'm about to go back to that one town and heal Rosa.

I named my characters in order of getting them: Morris, George, Relm, Chip, and Baker.

I'm excited to see where this game will take me since I'm a big fan of FFVI, and I'll be updating my progress as I go.

[pollyanna-666]

yeah i'm weird

when you're dysphoric enough that you stuff a sock in your pants