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[ptvemitil]

la-fm'itil'mana'Ecl

I'm a knitter, poet, bellydancer, bookbinder, and Nintendo-lover. I'm a follower of Ahnleh that shares some political ideals with Thelemism and non-theistic Satanism (I am not a Thelemite or a Satanist, I am Nesera). This is a personal blog, so you may see random things on here. I'll try my best to stay consistent with posting my knitted projects and bookbindings as I finish them. If you comment on my posts or DM me, please be kind. Open communication and debates are always welcomed and encouraged, but any sort of bullying or evangelism will not be tolerated.

🔞 I am an adult that posts adult content. This blog is intended for adults. DNI if you are under 18, I will block you.

❕️Please Note: While I am open to communications, do not tag me under posts. If you need/want something from me, message me directly.

[ceruleanheaven]

brought nothing to the gun fight. whatever man

[pennylessthoughts]

there's light behind my eyes again

there's bags under them too

to be loved and love to the point of exhaustion

to create space and time from sheer desire

and still feel so full and alive

is a weary bliss

how lucky I am to be this tired

how lucky I am to feel this light

blessings in the form of blurry eyes,

body being held heavy in the arms of respite

how lucky I am to have light behind my eyes again

and the bags under them too

[vexheart]

[ptvemitil]

Due to an unexpected medical emergency, all projects and operations are temporarily on hold!

My wallet is dying almost as fast as I am.

[thoughtkick]

“To make the right choices in life you have to get in touch with your soul. To do this, you need to experience solitude - which most people are afraid of because in the silence you hear the truth and know the solutions.”

— Deepak Chopra

[ptvemitil]

The Starless Sea Bookbinding Project 🐝🗝🗡🫀👑🪶

I'm going to buy a paperback version of the Starless Sea and take it apart.

Book covers for Sweet Sorrows and Fortunes and Fables will be handmade.

My Sweet Sorrows will be a "newer" edition, meaning I won't try to make it look worn like it is described in the Starless Sea. I'm going to use burgundy book cloth and cardboard, and make gilded title lettering, but leave the pages regular.

For Fortunes and Fables, I'm going to do a cardboard and leather, more traditionally hardcover style cover and add gilding to the pages.

For my edition of the Ballad of Simon and Eleanor, I'm going to take a PDF of it and edit it to a handwritten-looking font, then print accordingly. I'll do a floppy cover from dark blue leather, gild the pages, and hand-write a title page in cursive to give it a more "real" handwritten feel.

For the "written in the stars" pieces, I'll make precice tears from my paperback Starless Sea and fold them into little stars.

This is going to take a while, as I just moved and have to re-set up my art office, but I'll post pictures here as I finish each one!

[ptvemitil]

UPDATE 1: 2-14-26

Okay! So! Sorry, no pictures this time. Just got the desk all configurated, and I can finally start working on bookbinding projects.

Here is the current plan:

For "Sweet Sorrows" and "Fortunes and Fables" I may have to re-bind the signatures, based on how I cut them out of my paperback "Starless Sea". If I do, I'll be using a simple French Link and Kettle stitch method. Backings will be Mull fabric, and endbands will be hand-sewn old school. I'm doing burgundy and white for "Sweet Sorrows" and as close a colour match to my pleather for the "Fortunes and Fables" cover. Endpapers will be long-grain 120 cardstock, burgundy and brown respectively.

For guilding, I'll be using a Couture Creations heat foil pen, gold foil from KellyFoils off Etsy, and borrowing a heat stamp-press (idk the brand) from my uncle.

I hope to start working on my typeset for "the Ballad of Simon and Eleanor" soon, but it's gonna take time because I kind of have a life. For the textblock and cover binding, I'll be doing a long stitch binding with link stitch variation. This book won't have endpapers.

[lioncourtz]

Lestat in PRINCE LESTAT AND THE REALMS OF ATLANTIS

[ptvemitil]

This is the first scarf I ever knitted. It's a garter stitch all the way through, and some tassel knots for the fringe. I accidentally made it way too short, so it's child-sized. I used a black yarn with white tinsel, so it looks sparkly without getting glitter on you. I made it black and white as a compliment to the book "The Night Circus" by Erin Morgenstern.

Regardless of the size, I do think it's beautiful. If anybody wants it for their kid, or just someone small, feel free to DM me! I'll give it for free.

[ptvemitil]

First-Year Hufflepuff Scarf

I made this scarf for my younger cousin. It was my first 2-colour scarf, so it wasn't the best. I just did a repeating Knit, Purl, Knit, Purl pattern. I don't really like the bind-off, so I'll be using a different method for all my future scarves.

[ptvemitil]

How I got my Snakecharm

I wanted a Snakecharm "coin" necklace to represent my faith, however it's very hard to get a stamped coin necklace. I settled for getting a custom medal off Etsy. Because I'm extra, I did encapsulate the Ahnleh symbol with an Oroborous. As the cult of the Dasi was a thing around the time Egypt was founded, and the Oroborous comes from ancient Egypt, I found it fitting to encase "Fate" in "Eternity".

I used the Android Sketchbook app to mesh the two symbols together. (I did just pick a random Oroborous off Google that I thought looked especially cool, you can of course choose a different one or not include it at all.)

The medal seller was especially friendly and the shipping was quick. I am very happy to say I can now wear my Snakecharm with pride!

Here is the picture I used:

Link to Etsy Custom Medal approx. $15 with shipping.

https://www.etsy.com/listing/679190509/award-medals-custom-personalized-etched

[ptvemitil]

The Starless Sea Bookbinding Project 🐝🗝🗡🫀👑🪶

I'm going to buy a paperback version of the Starless Sea and take it apart.

Book covers for Sweet Sorrows and Fortunes and Fables will be handmade.

My Sweet Sorrows will be a "newer" edition, meaning I won't try to make it look worn like it is described in the Starless Sea. I'm going to use burgundy book cloth and cardboard, and make gilded title lettering, but leave the pages regular.

For Fortunes and Fables, I'm going to do a cardboard and leather, more traditionally hardcover style cover and add gilding to the pages.

For my edition of the Ballad of Simon and Eleanor, I'm going to take a PDF of it and edit it to a handwritten-looking font, then print accordingly. I'll do a floppy cover from dark blue leather, gild the pages, and hand-write a title page in cursive to give it a more "real" handwritten feel.

For the "written in the stars" pieces, I'll make precice tears from my paperback Starless Sea and fold them into little stars.

This is going to take a while, as I just moved and have to re-set up my art office, but I'll post pictures here as I finish each one!

[newmayhem]

Ha'Shmla Dictionary

Disclaimer: None of this is mine, everything was collected from Amelia Atwater-Rhodes’ old websites, the wiki, and the old message boards. Anything written in the first person is a direct quote from Amelia Atwater-Rhodes. For all the entries in the The Den of Shadows Reference series, check the tag or this page.

This dictionary in particular is courtesy of @sleepyspoonie​.

Keep reading

[ptvemitil]

I've taken this post, reread the books in total, and done some of my own translating. I will include a Google Drive link to my translations and studies of Ahnleh, so that others may join in the practice of Nesera. I am still working on the doc, so check back often for updates.

I noticed some of the religious symbols were mis-labeled, so I included a re-labeled diagram with some minor explanations in my Google Doc.

Ahnleh

ha’Shmla Dictionary Note to Self- ak, em, eh Interjections ak’varlheah - A common greeting between friends. Meaning something of the

updated 6/4/2026

[ptvemitil]

I'd really love to read a second volume of "Eat" by Nagabe. I like that it explores some of the complexities of trauma, kinks and how they're formed, consent, and how ones desires can seemingly control ones life. Very good adult furry comic.