I also feel like I've been incredibly unfair to someone I really wanted to be friends with (this is a lot of people but this is about one person in particular). I really really liked this person but I was afraid to be friendly with them in case they didn't feel the same way. Instead I was incredibly mean to them and would for some reason stupidly wonder why they were so mean towards me. This went on for a while before I just completely walked away from everything I was trying to create between us because it became incredibly toxic. I blamed THEM for me acting the way I did towards them. I even posted countless posts on tumblr about the way they made me feel even though I was the one who would was getting butthurt over the feelings they felt about me which were very valid feelings. Idk why I wanted to be the victim even though I really really wasn't and just wanted them to like me without giving them a reason too. I wish I would have just treated them the way I treated anyone else instead of all this manipulative bull crap trying to get them to be nice and like me. If I had not gotten so but hurt every time they said or did something I didn't remotely like maybe we could have still continued the friendship in a healthy way where we weren't drained from butting heads all the time. I would want to so badly apologize and start over but I've realized this all too late and I'm wondering why they still even bother keeping me on social media. Honestly thinking about just taking them off my self but I feel like if I dont at least try to even apologize I'd be running away from the problem. I know I sure as heck dont deserve their friendship but they deserve that apology. Here's to the future and making things right and better.













