my favorite headcanon i have is that gojo, as loud and as arrogant as he might come across sometimes is actually super nervous and on the quiet side when it comes to talking to the person he's interested in.
yeah he might try to impress them but not on such a grand scale that comes across as "yeah im the strongestâą and youre gonna look at me" and more so just kind of observing that person and then finding what they like and going from there ... if that makes any sense.
and i headcanon geto to be the super "yeah im awesome and i know you agree" type who is suave and charming without really trying (at least when he wants to be. otherwise yes he's the reserved passive aggressive type). pokes fun when the other person gets flustered. something or other do ya get it do ya
summary: your boyfriend doesn't listen to you. good thing your friendly neighborhood spider-man does.
a/n: there's just something about him idk. andrew garfield spidey bc of course! look at him! this came from me playing the spider-man game after it went on sale and yearning for peter parker (will prob have to rewatch the movies bc of this) anyways hope you like it
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warning(s): reader's bf is shitty -- they argue for a while and he lowkey slut shames her. but this is basically all fluff otherwise bc childhood best friends to lovers babby!!! real yearning loverboy hours!!!
Peter just wants to go home.Â
Itâs been⊠a day. He got his ass kicked by an English test (he doesnât have time to do the readings when heâs fighting crime), got his ass kicked by Flash Thompson (itâs not like he can fight back with his super strength and pulverize his ribs), and has spent every second since his final class ended fighting petty crimes around the city.Â
Stopping ATM thefts and minor muggings feels good, sure, but on days like these, it doesnât really make up for failing intro literature classes and getting absolutely zero sleep. Heâs just thankful May is still letting him live with her while he studies at ESUâif he had to do all of this in addition to trying to make his rent? He doesnât really want to think about it.Â
So he swung his way to the roof of some random building, and heâs taking a break. Sue him, but Peter thinks he deserves it. Whatâs the point of living in a city like New York if you canât have a second to yourself every once in a while?Â
Heâll go home soon. Grab a bodega sandwich, maybe stop another crime, and then get home for some much needed rest. But for now, heâs just going to sit on this rooftop and relax for a second. Even Spider-man needs some peace andâÂ
âBabeââÂ
âWhy are you following me?â
Peter winces as the door slams open, an argument following close after as a girl storms out onto the roof followed by a guy speeding to keep up with her. His first instinct is to swing away as soon as possible, but for some reason, he stays.Â
âBecause I want to talk!â
âGod, do you even hear yourself?âÂ
âYou keep talking over me, so I reallyââÂ
âYou donât get to babe me right now!âÂ
As if his day hadnât been bad enough, now heâs accidentally made himself privy to some coupleâs dispute. Heâs about to web himself out of this third wheeling nightmare when the girl turns around with a groan, revealing her face, and Peter realizes who it is.Â
Itâs you.
This is your apartment complex. Peter came here without even realizing it, but can he really be surprised? Your name is synonymous with peace in his brain. Comes with the territory of being friends for so longâit still calms him, even when youâre being the opposite of peaceful.Â
âI donât get why youâre acting like this!â the guy exclaims, frustration clear in his voice.Â
Of course. Why wouldnât your shitty boyfriend be here too? The only reason you live here is because you scored this place together; said he didnât want you living on campus anymore. Ethan Frey might be the bane of Peterâs existence after two and a half years of him being your boyfriend.Â
âBecause you and your posse are acting like complete jags in front of all my friends!â you shout back.Â
He laughs in disbelief. âIâm just being myself, babe. Besides, youâre the one who said I could invite them!âÂ
âBecause you complained about it just being my friends,â you grind out. âYou werenât even supposed to be here, Ethan! You just canât handle the thought of me being around guys that arenât you!âÂ
âWell, what the hell am I supposed to think, huh?â He gestures wildly. âYou spend every second with that geek and Iâm supposed to believe youâre not into him?âÂ
And now heâs eavesdropping on a conversation between you and your boyfriend about him. How could this get worse?Â
âGod, it isnât like that at all!â you exclaim with a mirthless laugh. âPeter is my friendâ my best friend since elementary school. You knew when we got together that wasnât going to change.âÂ
âYeah,â he says, nodding lazily, âbut that was before I knew how obvious his hard-on for you was.âÂ
Peter feels his face heat beneath the mask, wants to wipe the sweat off his palms. Thatâs how it could get worse.Â
Your nostrils flare as you turn away, your hands flexing while you shake your head. âGet out of here, Ethan.âÂ
âOh, of course thatâs where you draw the line,â Ethan mocks. âWhen I bring up fuckinâ Peter Parker.â He pauses then chuckles. âYouâd love that, wouldnât you?âÂ
Peter nearly intervenes right then and there, wanting to stop this mess before Ethan does anything to hurt you. But revealing himself sounds like the worst possible thing to do, so for once he listens to the rational part of his brain over the emotional.Â
âHeâs not even here!â you retort. âI live with you, not him. Iâm dating you, not him. Why are you bringing him up?âÂ
âBecause Iâm not blind.â Ethan crosses his arms. âYâknow, I thought youâd get over this little thing after you let me take you out, but for some reason, itâs exactly the same. I swear you spend more time with him than me.â
Your hands clench into fists. âGet out of here.âÂ
He scoffs. âYou want me to leave you up here?âÂ
âYes,â you nod.Â
âGod, youâve been acting crazy this whole night!â he complains. âYouâll freeze up here. Just get over itâweâll go back down, Iâll get you a beerââÂ
âI hate beer.âÂ
âThen Iâll get you a fucking apple juice,â he spits. âJust stop being so dramatic.âÂ
âYouâre not listening to me!â you shout. âI want you to leave me alone!âÂ
This time he says your name, and you shake your head.Â
âGo back to the apartment,â you interrupt. âBecause if I have to spend another second with you, our relationship might not make it through the night.â
For once, Ethan is silent as he stares at you. You stare back with no sign of giving up. Eventually, he just huffs and shakes his head.Â
âWhatever.â He starts walking towards the door. âYou better cool off up here, because Iâm not dealing with this shit when you come back down.âÂ
You stare at the door for a good twenty seconds once he closes the doorâslams it, ratherâbefore you angrily kick a stray soda can. Your childhood days of rec soccer must still be in you, because you get an arc on it. Just before it can go over the side of the building, Peter shoots a web to catch it wholly on instinct.Â
Your eyes widen as you dart around, and Peter is finally spotted from his place on top of the roof door building thing. What is that even called? He doesnât really have time to think about it. The aluminum can crunches as it flies into his hand, and you stare at him in complete shock.Â
âUh,â his mouth suddenly feels very dry, but he has to make some excuse for why heâs up here, âlittering is bad.âÂ
Good one, Parker.Â
âYouâre Spider-man,â you say, eyes still wide.Â
âThe one and only,â he nods.Â
âOh my god,â you mumble, finally seeming to break out of your shock as you cover your mouth and turn away. âOh my god, Spider-man just heard my relationship falling apart.âÂ
âI didnât hear anything!â Peter exclaims. âIââ
You shoot him the withering look he loves so much, that was able to get his bullies to shrink on the spot in high schoolâit feels weird being on the receiving end of it.Â
âIâm not stupid,â you say.Â
âI knââ He has to stop himself from saying I know, because realistically Spider-man has no idea who you are. âIâm sorry.âÂ
You huff and cross your arms. âDo your superhero duties include eavesdropping on failing couples?âÂ
âIt was an accident,â Peter says. âI was up here before you were. So technically, you were eavesdropping on my actual superhero duties.âÂ
You laugh, and he smiles just at the sound of it. One benefit to wearing the mask, because it would expose him right on the spot. âOh yeah? And what are those?âÂ
âPatrolling the streets,â he says. âIâve got a very good vantage point from up here.âÂ
You hum, your mood turning a bit more morose as you glance away. âWell, Iâm sorry you had to hear all that during your patrol.âÂ
âIâm sorry you had to go through it,â he says. âYour boyfriend sounds like an asshole.âÂ
You roll your eyes. âHeâs fine, most of the time. Just had a little bit too much to drink.âÂ
Peter will never understand why you defend Ethan so much. Youâve been together since freshman year and heâs only gotten worse since thenâmaybe he hides how he is around you, because he hasnât really shied away from showing Peter how much he hates him this past year.
âHe looked pretty sober to me,â Peter says. âAnd trust me, I have plenty of experience fighting guys that have had too much to drink.âÂ
You huff. âWhat are you, a spider-therapist?âÂ
âIâm good at a lot of things,â he says. âAnd Iâm always good for bending an ear.â
âSurely you have better things to do than listen to me complain.âÂ
Peter shakes his head. âMy scheduleâs pretty clear right now, actually.â
âReally?â you marvel. âThereâs no crime in New York City at,â you check your watch, â11:37 pm?â
âAbsolutely none,â he says. âI solved it all. At least for now.â
You laugh again at that and gesture with your head as you walk over to the edge of the roof. âThen I guess Iâll take you up on that offer.â
Peter jumps down and follows you over. You hoist yourself on top of the wall, legs dangling over the edge, and he feels himself frown as he leans his back against the wall and looks up at you.Â
âIsnât that a little dangerous?âÂ
âYouâll catch me if I fall,â you say.Â
âObviously,â Peter says. âIâm supposed to encourage safe behavior in New Yorkers, though.âÂ
You laugh and tilt your head up towards the night sky. The moonlight reflects in your eyes and Peter knows he could get lost in them forever. âJust this once, then.âÂ
âI think I can let it slide.âÂ
âGood.âÂ
A comfortable beat of silence passes between the two of you, and Peter finds himself smiling. No wonder he ended up at your place out of instinct. Thereâs nothing else like your company.Â
âI always think itâll be different,â you murmur. Peter glances up at you, your expression shifted to something more melancholic. âWeâll have a good day, whichâll turn into a good week and a good month, but he always does something to mess it up. Itâs like itâs in his DNA.âÂ
He stays silent as you think. Most of the time when you rant to Peter, you just want to be heard, not given advice. At this point, heâs an expert at listening to you. Itâs not like he minds.Â
âI want things to work out. Iâ I still love him. I mean, I think I do. But everything is a fucking struggle with him. If I donât do things the exact way he wants, if I try to do something for me instead of him, if I canât read his fucking mind, then he loses it and we argue. And Iâm so fucking tired of arguing!âÂ
Your voice has risen by now, and you bite down hard on your cheek. Peter doesnât realize heâs started reaching towards you to comfort you until you look back down at him, and he runs his hand over his head in an effort to cover it up.Â
âIâm sorry,â you sigh. âI promise, Iâm a much nicer person than this. You just caught me at the worst time.â
âDonât worry,â he says. âI know.â
Your brows rise. âSpider-man knows Iâm a nice person?â
âI can just tell,â he rushes, trying to save himself. Heâs doing a real good job at not revealing his identity. âIâm good at reading people.â
You chuckle and shake your head, then adjust your position so your back is towards the open air. It makes Peter nervous, he canât lie, but itâs not like heâs not a superhero.Â
âSo, spider-therapist,â you say. âAny advice?âÂ
So this is one of the rare times you do want answers. Peter wonders if youâll leave your boyfriend if Spider-man tells you to.Â
âHe doesnât sound great,â Peter says, inclining his head. âHow many times have you argued this week?âÂ
âFour,â you say. âFive, if you include tonight.âÂ
He whistles. âAnd itâs only Wednesday.â
You tip your shoulder. âWeâre efficient.âÂ
âAnd unhappy, it sounds like.âÂ
âWeâre not unhappy,â you defend. âWeâre justâŠâÂ
âYouâre up here talking to me instead of down there with him,â Peter says wryly. âThat doesnât exactly scream âhappy coupleâ.âÂ
You shake your head with another sigh. âItâs because he canât get over Peter.âÂ
He tries to act as nonchalant as possible when you bring him up. Is this an invasion of privacy? Letting you talk to him about all this when you have no idea who Spider-man actually is?Â
Instead of floundering over moral qualms, he just clears his throat. âAnd whoâs he?âÂ
âMy best friend,â you say. âThe one person whoâs been by my side since the second I moved to New York. He means everything to me.â
Peter feels his heart skip a beat. âYeah?âÂ
âHeâs likeâ like the opposite of Ethan, and itâs wonderful. I guess thatâs why Pete irks him so much. Yâknow,â you pull out your phone and start typing in your password, âmaybe I should call him. He always knows what to say.âÂ
âNo!â Peter exclaims with a bit too much force, causing you to give him a look. âNoâ I mean, itâs late. Heâs probably asleep. Andâ and itâs a school night?âÂ
You tilt your head, and Peter exhales when it seems to work. âTrue. Heâs probably studying for that biochem test.â You grimace. âI should be doing that too.âÂ
He watches you type out a few texts and send them, and Peterâs never been more thankful to have his phone on silent. What a way that would be to blow his cover.Â
You shove your phone back in your pocket with another sigh. âI just hate that my boyfriend and my best friend donât get along. I love them bothâwhy canât they like each other?âÂ
âI meanâŠâ Peter trails off when you look at him, and he gestures with his head. âIt seems pretty obvious why they donât get along.âÂ
âYeah,â you say dryly. âBecause Ethan thinks Peter likes me, and he probably thinks I have some secret crush on him too. I swear, heâs always looking for a reason to fight.âÂ
God, could the universe be calling him out any more? Itâs honestly ridiculous how this is going.Â
âDo you?â Peter asks, because he canât help himself. âLike him, I mean.âÂ
âI donât know,â you murmur. âI love Pete, I do. Itâs always been the two of us no matter what. But IâŠâ
He holds his breath as he tries not to look at you, tries not to make it too obvious that he might have stumbled his way into his simultaneous dream and nightmare scenario.Â
Heâs had a crush on you for what feels like forever. Since you stood up for him against his bullies in elementary school, honestly, and itâs only grown over the years as the two of you have grown. From recesses spent together and bike rides through the city; spending the night in Peterâs apartment because it was easier for your sister to let it happen than try and drag you back home; endless nights with heads bent over textbooks trying to study for tests, over college applications trying to get into the same place, and now studying and researching near every damn weekend together because youâre both unfortunate enough to try for ESU STEM degrees.Â
You were there when Ben died. Heâs there on every anniversary of your parentsâ accident. Without knowing it, you were there when he got bit and his whole life turned upside down.Â
You and Peter have been there every step of the way for each other, and itâs why heâs content with just friendshipâPeter wants you in his life no matter what. But he canât lie and say he doesnât hope.Â
No, actually. He yearns. Heâs doomed to be a yearner for the rest of his life because heâll never stop loving you. How could he?Â
âIâm not sure,â you finally say with a sigh. âAll I know is that Iâd rather be with Pete tonight than Ethan.â
Peter wonders if your chest compressions are still as good as they were in high school, because he feels like heâs about to have a heart attack.Â
Youâd rather be spending tonight with him than your boyfriend of two years and seven months, and Peter isnât even supposed to know.Â
You mistake his silent freakout for nonchalance, and you clear your throat as you jump back onto solid ground.Â
âWell, Iâve spilled my soul to you,â you say wryly, crossing your arms. âAnything a superhero can spill in return?â
Peter thinks for a good, long second. His hands itch to take off his mask, to do what heâs wanted to do since he got bitten by that stupid spider and show you who he really is.Â
How many times has he been a total asshole, canceling plans on you because he had to go stop some supervillain from wreaking havoc in Times Square? How many times has he been late to something important to you because he was caught up stopping dime a dozen muggings? He still remembers the look on your face when he showed up just in time to miss the entirety of Les Misâs opening night with your first lead role.Â
You were a better best friend to Peter than he was to you because of this stupid mask. If he took it off, it wouldnât make every mistake fade away, but it would sure help explain some of it.Â
But Peter has been doing this since high school, and he has seen far too many times what happens to the loved ones of heroes. Theyâre used as leverage, used for ransom, sometimes just straight up killed.
Youâve been friends with Peter since you and your sister moved into the apartment next to Mayâs thirteen years ago. It doesnât matter if you never share Peterâs feelings. Youâre one of the only constants in his life, and heâs not going to lose you because heâs too selfish to keep a secret.Â
Losing you would be the last straw. He couldnât take it.Â
So Peter pushes all thoughts of secret identities revealed out of his mind and tries to chuckle convincingly.Â
âIâm allergic to peppermint, believe it or not.âÂ
You stare at him, deadpan. âThatâs nowhere close to all the shit I just gave you.âÂ
âItâs true!â he exclaims, holding up his hands. âHappened after I got bit by the spider. Theyâre repelled by peppermint oil, and I guess I am too.âÂ
You shake your head in disbelief. âI canât believe Spider-man is a coward.âÂ
âA superheroâs gotta have some secrets,â he says, and he taps the side of his head. âOtherwise this thing doesnât do much good.âÂ
âYeah, yeah,â you say. âWhatever.âÂ
A chill suddenly goes up Peterâs spine and he whips aroundâhe can hear a distant scream followed by a distant gunshot, and he mentally curses.Â
âDuty calls?â you ask, drawing his attention back to you.Â
âYeah,â he says. âIâm sorryââÂ
âDonât be.â You smile, and itâs genuine. A nice change from the state Ethan effortlessly puts you in. âYou went out of your way to cheer me up. Pretty super of you.âÂ
âI hope it makes up for the eavesdropping,â he says.Â
âMore than,â you nod. âNow get out of here. Your city needs you.âÂ
Peter nods too, and he backflips onto his original spot. âHave a good night. Youâre real special to somebody.âÂ
Heâs gone before you can say anything else, already zipping across the rooftops to get to the scene of the crime. Peter can only think of your face as he swings through the airâall the things heâs too scared to say to you.Â
The crime, which turns out to be yet another petty theft, is resolved easily enough with some punches, kicks, and a snappy one-liner. Once heâs retrieved the womanâs purse and alerted the police, heâs back in the sky.Â
Peter only stops once heâs swung a couple miles away, perching on the edge of some rooftop for some actual peace and quiet. He checks around once or twice to make sure heâs not somehow back at your place, and when heâs sure itâs all clear, he pulls his phone out. He swipes past all the notifications heâs racked up until he finds the one heâs looking for: the texts from you.Â
hey pete, I know youâre prob asleep rn but you were right. I really need to study for that test lol
wanna meet me at the library tomorrow after QM? Iâll buy the coffee this time i promise <3Â
as long as you use your roomieâs dining dollars to get me a croissant lolÂ
Peter canât help but smile, larger than anything tonight. This is why heâs okay with being nothing but your friend for the rest of his life.Â
Deal. Anything to get you an AÂ
lol
assholeÂ
NeverÂ
Try to get some sleep. No good studying on a tired brainÂ
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