Dreaming Night, Starlight Song

Filipina-American cosplayer, that drinks way too much Red Bull, makes too many cosplays, loves kitties and watches old anime.

[mrfreezebug]

based off if a tweet

[xostargirlox]

[freebroccoli]

Me, accumulating worldly possessions: this is awesome!

Me, moving worldly possessions: this blows!

[ixtaek]

[fuzzandfeathers]

Was thinking about Octavia and Stolas and got sad about it 😭

Feelings and junk under the cut~

This one's been sitting awhile and in that time I've gone from feeling relatively certain about what I'm trying to express, to no longer having any idea what I'm expressing, to once again feeling kinda sure about it! It was meant as hopeful but I can't fully say it ended up that way; the little perspective shift at the end was originally intended as optimistic, because without it things felt to 'final', but in retrospect I might've just made it worse 😂 I had all kinds of feelings going into this, thinking about all the little private ways we try to measure our worth in other people's lives and how badly that can miss the mark, but more than anything I think I was trying to ask myself something from Octavia's perspective. When someone goes through something life-alteringly traumatic, eventually they always find a new normal. No matter how devastating something is in the moment, given time, things will always settle. So what does that feel like when you are the thing someone you love is 'settling' from? It's not fair to assume that someone's life is better without you in it just because they're still out there living. But what does it feel like, to see first-hand that they have either somewhat healed or hidden a wound that you carved in them yourself. Because you don't want them to hurt (well, you kinda do a little) but you also don't really want them to forget (even though you told them they should) and then it all becomes a jumbled mess in your head. Thankfully, I don't think Via and Stolas are going to be estranged long enough for this to become the kind of obstacle I'm portraying here. Pretty sure I accidentally stumbled into some of my own old teenage angst there - always a fun time 😂 I handled this a little clumsily, I think, and I have a few nitpicks with the formatting (beefing with past me's approach is a time-honored tradition for these things 😌) but it's sincere and I'm still happy with it~

[boybeetles]

Someone in Glasgow please go see this for me pls. I will be there in spirit 🙏

[tinyglowingsharks]

Brief report from the flute accompaniment:

It went well! At least 100 people attended, families dogs a solid portion of Glasgow's trans community. There was a really lovely atmosphere, nice weather and a very cheerful celebratory vibe.

After short speeches from the ballhaver and the large dyke (my wife), the ballhaver was given a chupa chup and blindfolded (execution style). The balls were then duly kicked; it made a surprisingly loud dull thumping sound. She fell to the ground to loud cheers and there was a moment of silence while Taps played on the flute. The large dyke wore solovair urban hikers.

[polar-bear-butch]

Account from the Large Dyke.

Arrived early to find the crowd already gathering, so the kick got off to a prompt start. Following some introductions from everybody and some cheery folk music from our flautist (my wife!) we got on with the kick.

I think we got good contact, the top of my boot making a good solid noise on impact. Very good atmosphere all round, people stayed to chat for a while. Were it not January it would have been an excellent opportunity for a picnic.

10/10 queer event, would happily kick anybody in the balls in the name of community.

[noisepuppy]

Account from the ball haver

7am: the pressure is getting to me; I wake up and drink half a bottle of diet iron bru from my bedside table; roll out of bed, and psych myself up in the mirror - "you can do this my little pogchamp" I say to myself over and over until I decend into a stupor.

8am: I play an hour of Okami on steam to replenish my chi levels

9am: I look at my balls for a while

10am: I spend 20 or so minutes trying to decide what to wear before realising it's the subartic in midwinter and I'm going to have to dress for -2C° regardless of what I choose and opt of my trusty black Schott thermal padded winter flight jacket and a pair of loose, warm Uniqlo trousers to give my testicles room to breathe.

11am: crashing out, texting my friends to arange a substitute kickee, an understudy, anybody so I can just become one with the crowd and not go through with it

12am: the homies have arrived, I'm drinking redbush tea in a small cafe by the park; god is in his heaven and all is right with the world

12.15: "you must be here to watch me get kicked in the balls?"

12.40: a circle emerges, from within the circle a palpable energy focuses like a lens down unto me and I feel like I'm gonna pee my pants a little

12.50: cheers begin, several complete families with dogs arrive - more friends appear and assort themselves into a gathering of 'real heads' ready to watch my groin be dessicated by the firm lace of a women for woman woman with a foot loosed through the gates of war as Augustus saw fit the dispatch and return of his troops from far corners through the blessings of Janus.

12.55: I think I left the stove on

1pm: Short introductions are made, grace is shown, beautiful flute music accompanies the gathering

1.03pm: what is left of my dignity disappears up my inguinal canal; I fall to the ground and languish a moment. I can feel it more in my lower chest than I can in my groin but the humour and adrenaline lift me and I'm laughing on my feet again soon. I kneel for the last post.

[thydungeongal]

There should be harsh legal consequences for the little inconveniences I experience in my daily life

[thydungeongal]

Whenever an "Open in App" link on a website sends me to the Google Play Store instead of opening the link in the app I already have installed on my phone I get to execute a programmer

[matusz383]

[secretgarden]

pussy wetter than the lost city of atlanta

[fabledanarchy2]

Atlantis. The wet and lost city you’re looking for is Atlantis

[crescere-ex-nihilo]

[cosplayhelpwithdecember]

Paint on Fabric Walk Through

[dishrack-holygrail]

“Yeah, you eat or you get eaten and you’re feasting on their hearts!”

[titsay]

christmas tree 🎄

[lelouch]

[loveridden1999]

i don't support all women's rights & wrongs some of you are terfs

[eyezehuhh]

WOE, dancing Akanes be upon ye!

[samipekoe]

when you realize

[shirohzbn]

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