new term. translarper. for anyone who identifies as larping anything [either in a poser way or live action role playing] in a trans way. use this how you see fit. this term has no DNI. go fucking wild.
I willnot be using my layout nor typing format for this one.
mentntions of abuse unde the cut.
for almost a year now, @/trispup and i have been dating, or i should say, we were dating for almost a year. And throughout that time he has emotionally abused me to the point where i was afraid to upset him, because anything that i would say would somehow end up setting him off.
During my hiatus, it was worse. he and i had two other partners (whom im still with), trispup never loved those two as much as i did. he only had eyes for me up until my hiatus. and even when i did try to talknto him i didn't get much of a response until much much later in the day. and whenever we did get to talk for a while he'd treat me like i was high and mighty, which made me uncomfortable, but i couldn't tell him that because it would set him off.
Trispup also blamed a lot of his actions on his bpd. I have bpd myself, I've learned how to get myself under control, I've never made my episodes someone elses problem. But that wasn't the case with Trispup. every time i said something in a slightly off tone, or used a period at the endnof my sentence, it sent him off like stepping on a land mine.
For months i had to put up with his emotional abuse because he owns the email to most of my accounts. and not once has he considered that maybe he should work on himself for a while instead of making his life revolve around one person. I understand being devoted to your partner, but it gets to a point where it is so obsessive that it makes your partner uncomfortable.
Another thing that Trispup would do is constantly ask for certain alters to front. it was exhausting for us, as we are incredibly unstable in terms of keeping front for long periods of time if a specific alter doesn't want to front. Adding onto his; he's made several of our headmates not want to front because of how draining he is to be around.
But I'm mostly upset about how one of his littles uprooted one of ours littles trauma and tried to play it off as "well its true isn't it" that sickens me. i do not care if a little persecutor got upset, that does not give that little the right to say things such as "i bet you were raped by your dad, fucked you stupid". That can be deeply hurtful. especially to a child.
the Statment above occurred after the two littles got into an argument over a digital blobfish by the way. Our little said that the blobfish looke the way it did because it was dead in a bit of a tone, and Trispup's little started arguing with her about it. Thats how that started.
And now Trispup has logged me out of the emails that he's given me, and i assume is trying to paint me as the villain now. even though i suffered through months of emotional abuse and fear of upsetting him. He has also called one of my partners a doormat for people to walk on, which is not true. The partner in question is a very kind soul, and Trispup had taken that for wakness.
I'm going to wrap this up by saying do not go and harass this individual, I made this as a way to get out what i couldn't while i was with him.
Please try to get a help. It is possible to be loved and cared outside the radqueer community, it is possible to find good professionals to help you with any problems you have. You're only hurting yourself and I promise you deserve so much better than this/gen
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