Writer; usually a somewhat confused eldritch horror full of spite and caffeine. Devours souls for breakfast. ~Ā Remember to be kind and polite to each other, okay? And have a nice day if possible. ~
Hi! I'm Rae, my info page and faq can be found here.
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6. What character do you have the most fun writing?
Depends on my mood? All of them scratch a different itch, all of them are frustrating in their own ways and fun in others. ^^;
20. Tell us the meta about your writing that you really want to ramble to people about (symbolism youāve included, character or relationship development that you love, hidden references, callbacks or clues for future scenes?)
Iām really bad at picking out meta to share, even though I usually try and add a lot of little callbacks and references to things, so Iām grateful for both of your additional suggestions. Iāll go with Noveria for this one and the hospital fic for your other ask on this. Making notes on thoughts as I reread:
the coffee price thing - years ago, like pre-covid, we went to a fancy restaurant while on holidayāthe trip itself was free, so we wanted to splurge a bit and try something new, and the restaurant was inside the hotel, soā¦why not? Dinner wasā¦expensive, but not intolerable, taste was worth the price, and the portion sizes were actually pretty good! Then I saw that my after dinner coffee was over $10 (I think it was actually closer to $12?). Small for a coffee in the USāat most 8oz, nothing added to it but some cream and sugar that came alongside it. Over $10!! For a tiny coffee!! I went to the hotelās SB afterwards and spent less on a large with multiple flavourings added, but Iām not still annoyed about it, why do you ask? ą² _ą²
pretty red head staff member - partly a reference to default femShep, but also: Jack would know about Nellās preference for women; sheās not exactly kept it a secret. I figure he picked her on purpose because of that.
Evs is still insisting Jack should be watching Nell through the datapad. Heās not, but LOL. Interestingly: Jack had at least one operative keeping him updated on Nellās whereabouts during ME1 (trying to keep anyone from assassinating her), and that does bring up the question of if he knew she was going to be there and was kinda like ĀÆ_(ć)_/ĀÆ about it or if her arrival genuinely surprised him. š¤ I didnāt figure that into the fic, but I probably should have.
Kaidan and Liara - I actually didnāt know how to explain why she was loitering around at first and why she wasnāt just hanging out on the Normandy, at first. I thought about having her start on the Normandy and either leaving on her own terms or having someone get so annoyed with her impatience that she was told to just go. š In the end, it made more sense to have her start at the bar and explain that sheād refused to go back. I nearly had it be Ash that asked her, because I think a lost of people assume femSheps are close to Kaidan and I wanted to highlight that she eventually gets closer to Ash. But it made more sense for it to be Kaidan and Liara, given their personalities in ME1, and I couldnāt really see anyone else doing it.
Admiral Kahoku - this is actually one of the biggest breaks in Nellās canon. She doesnāt, canonically, do Kahokuās mission until right before Feros (she goes to Therum first, then Noveria, then Feros) and she doesnāt do all the follow up stuff with Cerberus until right before Virmire (specifically because Iām trying to deny her the opportunity to hyper-fixate on Cerberus instead of going after Saren). But it seemed so much more interesting to me to have them meet after that questline was done and to think about how it would affect Jackās responses. Especially because, in Nellās canon, Jack manipulates Toombsās release specifically in response to Nellās interference. It was just very tasty, thinking about how very awkward and ironic all of this was on Jackās side, which wouldāve been left out if Iād kept to her canon timeline.
Neon light from the loungeās signs beaded in his silvering hair like the halo of a comās holographic display, casting odd shadows over him. Trying to allude to ME2/ME3 interactions.
But, to her eyes, he was unremarkable. LOL. LMAO.
I spent so long arguing with myself about if Jack has a briefcase. He has the aesthetic of a briefcase guy and the vibe of a dude who refuses to take anything with him that canāt fit into his pockets without ruining the line of his suit (insult).
Their little power play about the chair is definitely calling on their ME2 relationship. āIāll do it, but not how you asked and you might not like how I do it.ā I think Jack needed the distance, as well. But I really wanted her beside him. Iād planned for their flirting to potentially involve some touches, which didnāt work out, and having to lean across a table for that isā¦yeah.
Not much to say about most of the conversation, tbh. But something I really wanted to get across is that 1) Nell really did not want to be a Spectre and is extremely disillusioned by the Alliance already, and 2) while Jackās been keeping up with her and is proud of her accomplishments, he does, genuinely, understand her. His judgement of some of her responses isnāt disapproval of her so much as disapproval of her not giving herself enough credit or trying too hard to sanitise her responses. He wants her, not something fake.
If she wasnāt working, they absolutely wouldāve ended upā¦probably wherever heās staying. Though imagine her showing him around the Normandy. š Trying to get him into her quarters as everyoneās like š and Jackās like š about the ship. A mess.
Commentary on Jackās appearance was inspired by his artbook description and the devs saying they were inspired by catalogue models.
Itās funny, because I think they both play mindgames with each other (when sheās trying to figure out what he does), and that definitely carries into ME2/ME3ā¦but I also donāt think itās the sort of mindgames that involve a lot of lying (on Jackās side). Itās more like her attempting to find a detail and him denying herā¦which brings to mind a dance. š¤ So I guess really itās more like theyāre dancing with each other (orbiting each other??) instead of truly fighting each other. Every step provokes a response which moves that step away from its initial point, occasionally one of them ends up leading or misstepping, but usually theyāre right there together, in time, right where they want themselves/each other to be and no closer to what they wanted than before.
Do you think Jackās ever going to recover from being flirted with like this? Or did he just go stand in a snowbank to calm down after she left?
āYou look tired.ā āYou look lonely.ā And then neither of them did anything because theyāre idiots. (āÆą² _ą² ļ¼āÆ
I wanted Jack to call her Shepard just because of ME2/ME3, tbh. He has such a distinctive way of saying her name, it felt relevant.
I did not plan for it to end this way!!! Originally: one of the crew was going to call Nell back to start preparing to leave, Nell would have said goodbye, and started to leave. By the door, she wouldāve turned back to see Jack and Jana, whoād gone away before Jack sent the drink to take a call, and wouldāve wondered about it before leaving. It didnāt land right. (Though LOL Jana waiting off screen like ācan you stop flirting so I can sit down??) And I liked the openness of them sitting together instead. āWaiting for the storm to passā could apply to the Reapers, as well, soā¦.
Okay, I think thatās everything off the top of my head. :D
25. What part of writing is the most fun?
Environmental descriptions. Love having an excuse to describe a landscape, or the way nature interacts with nature. š„ŗā¤ļø Totally understand why old authors would spend a ridiculous amount of time describing random nonsense in the landscape that had nothing to do with the plot. I try to restrain myself, but the urge to keep wandering off to describe a landscape is always there.
tagged by @sanguinemoonglitch - thank! ^^ ā¤ļø
Tagging: @lozzlogan @heroofshield @spacevixen2024 @judithofcerberus and anyone else who wants to do it.
I...uh...was working on this as a break from beta reading. >_> It...needs to go under the cut.
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"Iā" He wet his lips, unable to find the correct words. A shiver thrilled through him as her pinky brushed slightly too low against his abdomen. Need drawing him deeper into its haze as he struggled to find Shepard's words. "I misinterpreted the situation, andā"
Her lips had found his neck again, sucking a slow kiss just below his jaw. Breath caught low in his throat as heat unfurled through his nerves, pulsing in a steady beat of want, want, want. It took every bit of willpower he possessed not to grind against her. Not to beg for any relief she might deign to give.
Breath caught in a sharply hissed note behind his teeth, he struggled to find his words as she dragged the kiss further down his neck. "Andā"
Her fingers teased just below the waistline of his trousers. Still far too light, and far too distant to satisfy.
"Andā" He had nothing. The words were gone, lost to heat and need and the haze of lust that had muddled his thoughts.
Her fingers stilled, less than an inch from the base of his cock, as she murmured, warningly, against his neck: "I can't hear you."
Tell us about your current project(s)Ā ā whatās it about, howās progress, what do you love most about it?
Tell us about what youāre most looking forward to writing ā in your current project, or a future project
What is that one scene that youāve always wanted to write but canāt be arsed to write all of the set-up and context it would need? (consider this permission to write it and/or share it anyway)
Share a sentence or paragraph from your writing that youāre really proud of (explain why, if you like)
What character that youāre writing do you most identify with?
What character do you have the most fun writing?
What do you think are the characteristics of your personal writing style? Would others agree?
Is what you like to write the same as what you like to read?
Are you more of a drabble or a longfic kind of writer? Pantser or plotter? Do you wish you were the other?
How would you describe your writing process?
What do you envy in other writers?
Do you want your writing to be famous?
Do you share your writing online? (Drop a link!) Do you have projects youāve kept just for yourself?
At what point in writing do you come up with a title?
Which is harder: titles or summaries (or tags)?
Tried anything new with your writing lately? (style, POV, genre, fandom?)
Do you think readers perceive your work - or you - differently to you? What do you think would surprise your readers about your writing or your motivations?
Do any of your stories have alternative versions? (plotlines that you abandoned, AUs of your own work, different characterisations?) Tell us about them.
Is there something you always find yourself repeating in your writing? (favourite verb, something you describe ātoo oftenā, trope you canāt get enough of?)
Tell us the meta about your writing that you really want to ramble to people about (symbolism youāve included, character or relationship development that you love, hidden references, callbacks or clues for future scenes?)
What other medium do you think your story would work well as? (film, webcomic, animated series?)
Do you reread your old works? How do you feel about them?
Whatās the story idea youāve had in your head for the longest?
"You've seen the vision from the beacons, Shepard. You, of all people, should understand what the Reapers are capable of. They cannot be stopped... Is submission not preferable to extinction?"
Jack saw a vision of the Reapers and said that the answer to that question was a resounding, "No."
If you make goth clothing, decor, accessories, etc
please
please please please
please stop putting crosses on literally everything.
I know that they're a staple of goth fashion. I know. But not everyone is Christian. Not everyone wants to wear or surround themselves with Christian symbols. There are a lot of goths who would die happy if we they never had to see a cross again. Please.
Hi though while I'm thinking about this post, someone in the tags said that it wasn't my intention but it made them think about goths with Stars of David and I want to be clear: that is absolutely 100% my intention.
We need way way way more completely secular goth fashion that doesn't include ANY religious symbols, but we also need to create inclusive spaces where goth fashion can incorporate non-Christian religious symbols without appropriation or judgement. I think it would be cool as hell for there to be a ton of goth Jews wearing Magen Davids and hamsas and for other religious goths to be able to easily incorporate their own religious imagery in their outfits while knowing that those symbols were included out of respect for people of other religions instead of appropriation.
The Benefactor. An obvious set up for the next games in the planned trilogy that Andromeda was meant to be. A thread never to be stitched into place. Who is the Benefactor in canon? We may never know. But in FfC, Iāve decided who it is. Read this and take a guess. Maybe Iāll tell you if youāre correct or not.
The tiny stealth ship sits waiting, watching. They are due to leave soon. They must be gone soon. Plans have gone awry already, this must not. It is but a blink of the eye for the million eyed being before the arks start gearing up to leave. This strange development needs to be allowed to fruit, but not here. They can go far away, outside of the sanctuary to pursue this first step towards the final goal. It is a shame the rest of them did not see the value, but time is a cycle it must oversee.
The ships are filled with souls, one hundred thousand strong. They only cared for a few going on this journey. Their experiments born of one organics dreaming, but they need support and an experiment needs the ability to grow onwards down the generations. The drives spin up and start pushing them towards the relay. A few jumps then they would start the slumbering journey across dark space. It will never know the results of this experiment, but that is okay. It has other things to focus on. Other burdens to bare, other eyes to watch through.
Flashes in the distance betray their leaving. The one known to the Initative as ātheir Benefactorā guides the tiny stealth ship into the remains of their build site. Contingencies were in place upon the arks, but the last piece must be done by hand
