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i made a playlist inspired by the Heartstopper soundtrack🍂🍂

i had a lot of fun designing the cover and choosing songs and am really proud of the final product, so I thought 'why not share it with the rest of the world, in the hope that it will make someone else as happy as me'

here it is:

#music #heartstopper #heartstopper soundtrack #playlist #autumn #nick nelson #the ultimate comfort character <3 #and the reason i started this #Spotify

so I experienced an emotion (yuck) a while ago and wrote this to get rid of it (be warned that this is pure kitsch)

It started, as things of this nature often tend to do, with a smile and a simple “Hi!”. I didn’t think much of it. Except perhaps, “Hey, maybe I could make a new friend.”. And I did. And it was wonderful, for some time at least.

I met Henri on the first day of school two years ago. She was sitting on a garishly green sofa in the great hall, looking up at another student who I had seen around but whose name I didn’t know. He was standing in front of her as the two talked. She was laughing.

A few minutes later (her friend had left to find his classroom) she looked around, still smiling, and started a conversation with me. Me. To this day I still can’t imagine what made her speak to me of all people. “Hi!,” she said, accompanied by the ever-present gleaming smile. “Are you nervous as well? About the new school year, meeting new people and all that, I mean.”

And that was the first time I ever talked to Henri. It turned out it wouldn’t be the last time either because we ended up in the same classes. Soon, we were in the same friend group, the same carpool, hell, even the same book club.

Henri became my friend, just as I’d hoped she would. But then Henri became so much more. It was only that I, ever the fool, hardly noticed that until it was much too late.

I was driving home from school that day. The sun shining low through the trees that lined the sides of the street, so low that I was thinking about pulling down the visor. But even that couldn’t have protected my eyes from the blinding smile that was directed at me from the passenger seat. Henri’s, of course.

We were goofing around as usual. Making jokes about dropping out of school to live a peaceful life in the woods and I can’t remember exactly what I said but all of a sudden her smile changed. It wasn’t as bright anymore. It didn’t shine on the whole world, for everybody to see. No, suddenly her smile was like that tiny ray of sunshine that peeks through your blinds early in the morning to let you know it’s going to be a beautiful summer day. And Henri’s smile that day, it shone directly at me, for me.

“I really like you, you know?”

And that’s when I realised I really liked her too, even though it probably had been obvious from the start.

I didn’t tell her. And maybe that’s where it all went downhill, I don’t know. Maybe things would be different now, if I hadn’t just grinned back at her that day and pulled down the visor to block out all that overwhelming light.

Many months later and I feel like the people up at the north pole must feel, where not a single ray of sunshine touches the bland and frozen ground for the better half of the year. Sure, I know the sun exists and I know somewhere it shines on somebody, just not on me. I only get to watch as the sun rises seemingly a million miles away from me and its glimmers fall on a person who I know deserves to feel their warmth, but still I’m sad because it’s not me.

Because it could have been me.

#sorry for this #but i'm trying my hand at writing #again #does this count as #short story #kitsch #love #regrets #oh also #gay #but can be read as anything i guess

but what if Stede (being the fine gentleman pirate that he is) likes waxing his legs but he's always doing it away from the others in his bathroom because he doesn't want anyone, especially Ed, thinking he's 'too soft' or 'too feminine' or whatever and one day Ed hears him yelp from in there because this shit hurts and he gets really concerned because what if Stede fell and hurt himself or something happened so he wants to rush in there and when he sees Stede is okay and has smooth legs??? it makes him fall for Stede even more because have you felt his legs? I bet Ed would secretly want to try it too because he's a sucker for fine and gentle things but at the same time he's too scared and insecure to ask because he's supposed to be the tough one but of course Stede sees right through him and helps him with applying the wax and in the end Ed's admiring their smooth legs and Stede just has the fondest expression on his face as he watches Ed who still can't believe he can feel this soft...please someone help, this headcanon is killing meee

#ofmd #our flag means death #stede bonnet #blackbeard #edward teach #blackbonnet #this show will be the death of me

"The secret to confidence is knowing that no one cares about you, at all. And if they do, then they probably like you and they don't care how confident you are. Life is just a big parade of embarrassments, so just keep on moving."

- Shane Madej, Here's What You Do (Flirting and Recognizing Signals, 4 May 20)

#shane madej #quote #watcher entertainment #hwyd

inspiring poem by an unknown student

rewatching of one of my favorite watcher shows at the moment so I created some desktop wallpapers that I'm lowkey proud of

#watcher #weird and/or wonderful world #shane madej #ryan bergara #wallpaper

the perfect way to start the new year: with my little ghoulboys and the watcher boys

🎆 Happy New Year 🎆

especially to the awesome people over at @wearewatcher

You guys made 2021 a much better year than I would have thought possible, thank you!

#watcher entertainment #happy new year #watcher

Intrusive thought of the day: imagining chewing on crunchy beetles and fat soft larvae every time I bite on a piece of corn or a kidney bean in my chili

#intrusive thoughts #yuck lol

We read Kafka's story 'Shamefaced Lanky and Impure in Heart' in German class today and after reading the first paragraph I couldn't not picture Lanky as Shane