Raineydayzzz

I say stuff here id never tell anyone IRL

[raineyday1]

I miss my gf I wish she were here rn

[raineyday1]

I dont think ill ever get better

[raineyday1]

Walked too much without my crutches today. Now suffering :(

[raineyday1]

I have this one friend. We've been friends for many years but mostly communicate online even though we've met in person. They complain a LOT about a lot of things. One of the recent things was about their disability. Ive never heard about it, so I asked what it was and they said autism. I know autism can be very disabling and im aware people can mask well. But each time I complain about my physical disability (mecfs) they will say something like "oh yeah I get that, my autism is so much worse tho". Its like the sick/chronic illness Olympics of who has it worse but i have a very physical disability that can affect my ability to walk and if im not careful can potentially kill me if I get too bad and they have autism. And they're the one saying they have it worse. It just feels odd to complain to someone and go as far as saying you have a worse disability than someone who cant tolerate being in a lit room and uses crutches to help them walk. Maybe km over reacting? It just feels weird especially bc I also have autism

[raineyday1]

Sometimes I feel like im being dramatic but then I remember ive been in pain for 5years now. Ive had fatigue and brain fog and pain in my legs among other things for 5 YEARS!!!

[sillystringedrat]

TW!! Eye straining color!!

Happy disability pride mouuaaaAAAGHAAAGHHHAAAARRGHHAAAAAHHGG

[raineyday1]

how my legs feel when i exist

[raineyday1]

Fuck I hate walking without my crutches. I got them recently and ive been using them all the time but today I went to Aldi and I didnt have a bag so I didnt bring my crutches. BAD IDEA. also I went and saw a movie after and it was a really big theater and my seat was up stairs so I had to walk even more without them. Anyway my legs hurt SO BAD and im actually gonna take so many pain killers

[transsexualfiend]

Cripplepunk, madpunk, and neuropunk aren't just "I'm disabled and also left-leaning". It's a specific realm of activism rooted in dismantling the systems that put disabled, mad, sick, etc folks at a disadvantage in society. This mean not only being against the very systems that harm us but also understanding their colonial origins and continued racist legacies. (Anti-ableism, anti-sanism, anti-psych, etc). This means not only just identifying and finding pride in your disability but also building and constantly evolving your understanding of disability and diversity and learning how you can change your worldview to accurately highlight the struggles of disabled people. (EVEN if it sometimes means you will be uncomfortable or unsure of unlearning some kinds of hate.)

[raineyday1]

They came a whole day early! Theyre pink and cute and they help a lot and I love them <3

[raineyday1]

I finally feel rested after laying in bed however it is now 9pm and I have to go to bed

[raineyday1]

Guess who's getting forearm crutches

[raineyday1]

Been thinking about getting forearm crutches bc both my legs hurt and walking is hell. Anyone have good advice or warnings before I do?

[my-fav-tiktoks]

[chronic-melon]

Reblog if you understand that disability is not a monolith and two people with the same disability do not have identical experiences ✨

[raineyday1]

I hate it when I have to explain multiple times IN A ROW like RIGHT AFTER each other why i might be sitting down or not doing something like everyone else. Sorry yall but I gotta sit down sometimes to do stuff or ill feel like im dying!!! I hate this fucking illness and I hate how ignorant people are. Then they have the audacity to say im lazy as if im not trying as hard as I can to do literally anything.

[raineyday1]

Fireworks by mitski but in the perspective of chronic illness. The hope and yearning that one day this will fossilize and ill forget what its like to be in this much pain. That ill be blissfully ignorant to what could be and one day ill get better. Ill watch the fireworks outside in summer and ill be able to be out there and think. I wont look back on it but ill know back in the crevices of my mind that it likely wont last forever and ill go back, listening to the memories of this. That the only way ill truly be free from this is when my body itself becomes a fossil in the way mitski knows her sadness one day will.

[giftedkidbyrnout]

Dabihawks (Toukei)

Added Text:

-Horny Level -

They're both touch starved (+ Keigo: Spring is 10 times hornier)

-Awkwardness Level -

Touya: Good at domesticity, bad at romance

Keigo: His Hawks charisma does not roll over.

-Jealousy Level -

Touya: Less jealous but more anxious/insecure

Keigo: Gets jealous from time to time