My Life

The good, the bad, the fun and sad. The sweet and sour. Whatever the case, it's my life, so I'll post it here. (but, fair warning, I tend to rant)

[ytphobia-deactivated20210908]

some of you don’t need fandom you need prozac

[hapticjolt-deactivated20210322]

[ranting-24-7]

That would explain why i havent been on tumblr or ao3 in so long... I like not being so depressed and anxious anymore (which is saying something bc im always depressed and anxious. Just... less so now)

But i hate having lost my passion... like I still fucking love everything but my passions have simmered to more like a professor’s passion rather than a full on fangirl, which sucks bc now i cant write, I cant fully engage, and i can barely do meta. Fangirling was such a defining character trait for me that now I feel like I dont know who i am anymore....

[ranting-24-7]

it’s been 5 years… my chill pills help with day to day but damn do I miss who I used to be too…

[deathtokillian]

What fucking year is it!??!? Why are people having the white and gold dress debate on TikTok!?!??? I can’t do this again.

[ranting-24-7]

do you understand HOW TRIGGERED I got when my coworker was in a call and I suddenly heard “how do you see white and gold????”

that shit traumatized me back in the day… that shit traumatized me back in the day…

Immediately was almost close to tears again because the last time this “debate“ happened, I had my entire family telling me there was something wrong with me!

[omegastar]

Look I don't care what reality says, the dress is white and gold and I can't even begin to fathom how one can see it as black and blue.

[thememedaddy]

[k-eke]

The evolution of our vision of werewolves.

[ranting-24-7]

8-17-22

I was looking through my notes and I just came across the one about the picture of the renfaire troupe leader. A most recent instance of a similar thing was when we were redoing my room. It’s still in progress, but this was last Wednesday if I remember correctly. Yeah, that was my papa’s birthday and I was trying REALLY hard not to piss her off so papa could have a good birthday. Anyhow, she got pissed off at me bc she was saying [paraphrasing here bc it’s been a while but apparently] I never want to try any of her ideas when I’m so miserable with how I have my set up and yadi yadi yada. Long story short, she was saying I needed to change my room bc it upsets me so much. And I responded that it didn’t though. She kept insisting what I wanted didn’t work fit me and that I just needed to try how she wanted it. And I did say I was open to it, but just bc it didn’t work for her didn’t mean it didn’t work for me. I was trying to clarify that I wasn’t changing my room bc it didn’t work for me but bc I got new furniture and I had to move it to make it fit. She didn’t see it that was. I even asked for her input the weeks prior and even got a floor plan from her that she wanted me to do. But when I did her layouts, she ended up getting mad at me that it was stupid ideas and that I needed to stop being so stubborn and shit. Anyhow, she got frustrated with me not agreeing with her during the above mentioned attempt at clarification, and so she reportedly punched as best she could. Luckily I was on my bed reaching towards my fan to turn it on and she was on the floor by my feet. So she just punched my left calf repeatedly. She has really bad carpal tunnel though so it didn’t hurt hurt. It did sting bc she hit a nerve at one point but that was it. Oh, she was also calling me a “fucking asshole” and other curses while she did it. But this was just the most recent example of how I was told something, then when her idea/belief was proven to not be the best idea, she lashed out at me instead of being calm about it. Anyways.. that’s it.

[ytphobia-deactivated20210908]

some of you don’t need fandom you need prozac

[hapticjolt-deactivated20210322]

[ranting-24-7]

That would explain why i havent been on tumblr or ao3 in so long... I like not being so depressed and anxious anymore (which is saying something bc im always depressed and anxious. Just... less so now)

But i hate having lost my passion... like I still fucking love everything but my passions have simmered to more like a professor’s passion rather than a full on fangirl, which sucks bc now i cant write, I cant fully engage, and i can barely do meta. Fangirling was such a defining character trait for me that now I feel like I dont know who i am anymore....

[miyavmiyimneyim-deactivated2023]

problemlerimin kendi kendine çözülmesini bekliyorum

[pudgykitties]

[brattylikestoeat]

[angelsonthesideline-deactivated]

This looks more like a how-to by @5triderofthenorth or @instructor144

[5triderofthenorth]

One of the easiest and most gratifying restorations a person can do! About half my cast iron is salvaged, the rest was new.

[bethrogers]

A great YouTube channel for cast iron cookware, restoring, collecting, cleaning & cooking, is Cast Iron Cookware.   The guy is incredible.  

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCO7aRkmQGejiKrXhAniOVnw

[ordinaryredtail]

I’ve already mentioned this before but cast iron is the best cookware! Safe for you, safe for any birds or reptiles you have, cooks great food and nonstick if done right!

[iusedtobecharming-deactivated20]

Thinking about the countless times art and music and cinema and literature have saved and comforted me during difficult times i really owe my happiness to everyone dedicated to their craft

[sawasawako-archived]

[text ID: a tweet by @rhododaktulos that reads, ““my child is completely fine” your child’s favourite trope is found family”]

[ndiecity-deactivated20241101]

Quarantine feels like that episode of the twilight zone where the last man alive finally has all the time in the world to read but breaks his glasses but instead of glasses it's just my whole brain

[nevver]

It’s a small world, Mozu

[witchesversuspatriarchy]

Suddenly feline familiars make perfect sense

[anxietyproblem]

[sunnysimone]

[goatrodeo72-deactivated20221113]

#goals. I too want to be strong like bitch who fights bears in the forest!

[headspace-hotel]

she has her priorities straight

[anxietyproblem]