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i'm cool i think

[razberryslush]

Bwah intro★

This is my intro not much fancy stuff (or stuff in general) cause I don't feel like itt It's rushed not everything about me is on there so it's still a gamble You probs shouldn't be here if you're in recovery

Hey chat call my razberry or raspberry or like literally anything just don't push it Any pronouns, they/them pref Pansexual - I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND ♡ .ᐟ.ᐟ ⪻────𖤓────⪼ Interests: Death Note, Persona 5 (royal), Home Sick (The webtoon), SAR, Splatoon 3 or 2, animal crossing new horizons, Ponytown, my boyfriend I will mainly post about: $H, random things that go through my head, stuff that goes on in my life DNI: P3D0, if you're a complete dick head, if you support/use ai at all, basically if you're a shit person and you know you're a shit person don't come near me. I'm open to moots I guess but yeahh

[razberryslush]

no like actually he's really scaring me rn like im about to throw up ppppppplease dont leave me just tell me wht i did aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

[razberryslush]

Why do you never give a shit about what's going on in my head. I always always always always talk to you or ask you what's wrong or just comfort you in some way whenever you feel down at all, which is like everyday, and I don't blame you for that duh you have a ton of shit going on you deserve to be comforted and loved and shit. But whenever I express I feel bad or anything you don't help me at all. You always either brush it off ignore it or say real and move on. Yeah you ask how my day went everyday but when I say it was mid or bad or terrible and say why you don't talk to me about it it's not fair why won't you love me the way I love you all I need is someone to talk to and I can't even have that. I try so hard and I'm rewarded with nothing. Nothing at all. All I think about all day is cutting myself and I just want someone to talk to about it it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair. I just gotta let that shit cook in my head if you get to vent all the fucking time I should too but no literally all I have is my FUCKING NOTES APP GOD DAMN IT I HAVE NO LIFE AND MY BOYFRIEND DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ME FUCCKKKKKKKK aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaasssssaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

[razberryslush]

i wanna cut myslefffa̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀aaaa̙̬a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀aaà̷̙̬a̷̙͗̀aa̬a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀aaaa̙̬a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀aaà̷̙̬a̷̙͗̀aa̬a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀aaaa̙̬a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀aaà̷̙̬a̷̙͗̀aa̬a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀aaaa̙̬a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀aaà̷̙̬a̷̙͗̀aa̬a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀aaaa̙̬a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀aaà̷̙̬a̷̙͗̀aa̬a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀aaaa̙̬a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀a̷̙̬͗̀aaà̷̙̬a̷̙͗̀aa̬

[razberryslush]

came home to 10 notifs all from different people ???????? that's new

[razberryslush]

whenever I use literally any of the muscles in my body for more than 3 minutes my body starts hurting My body is literally falling apart like ok go off i guess

[razberryslush]

what ever i got pretty far ill get further tomorrow good nighttt

[razberryslush]

holy shit i drifting the fucckkk offfff

[razberryslush]

from my notes app ( its 4 in the morning )

Seriously who am I I have no personality I look around my room and everything I see I don't even like it's all fake my entire life is a lie everyone else gets to have personalities and like stuff and have dreams and bullshit and I'm nothing no one even fucking likes me I'm always the one reaching out to my friends always the never fucking to talk to me I don't even think they think about me anymore I don't like my clothes I don't like my carpet I don't like my bed I don't like my walls I don't like my light I don't like my art I don't like any of the games I play it's all a performance all of it is fake it's all a lie I don't like eating I don't like seeing I don't like hearing I don't like breathing I don't like writing some one burn me someone bash my head in until I become normal someone kill me I worthless I wanna see my flesh again I wanna see my blood again I wonder if it stills smells like strawberries I wanna make pretty scars on my skin I WANT TO CUT MYSELF WHY IS IT SO BAD FIR ME TO WANT TO CUT MYSELF ITS NO DIFFERENT FROM SMOKING OR DRINKING OR BITUNG MY NAILS OR GRINDING MY TEETH SO WHY WHY IS IT SO BAD FOR ME ALL OF A SUDDEN WHY IS IT SO IMPORTANT THAT I STOP WHY IS SUCH A BIG DEAL WHY IS CUTTING MY SELF ONE OF THE 2 ONLY THINGS THAT BRINGS ME JOY IN LIFE WHY CANT I UUST BE NORMAL I WANT TO BE NIR AL MAKE ME NORMAL WHY WHY AM I LIKE THIS IT SMEELS LIME BLOOD IN MY ROOM WHY ALL I THINK ANOUT IS CUTTING MYSELF WHY I CANT TRUST MYSELF ARIH D ANYTHINGNSHARPP ITS BECAUSE CUTTING WAS MADE FOR ME I WAS MADE FOR CJTTING I DONT EVERR WANT TO STOP I DONT WANT TO I DON'T WANT TO DONT WANT TO IF I DONT WANT TO STOP THEN WHY ARE YOU FORCING ME TO I HATE THIS I HATE YOU OUT OF THE 8 BILLION OR WHATEVER PEOPLE ON EARTH I ONLY LOVE AND TRUST ONE PERSON WHY AM I BMADE LIKE THIS DOOMED TO FAIL DOOMED TO KILL MYSELF ON ACCIDENT OR ON PURPOSE OR DOOMED TO LIVE FOREVER WITH PEOPLE TELLING TO STOP TO PUT THE BLADE DOWN HOW ITS NOT THAT HARD BUT IT IS IT IS HARD IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN HARD IM SO GLAD I STARTED CUTTING MYSELF I WILL NEVER STOP NEVER

[razberryslush]

im running on 3 hours of sleep

and im not even sleepy??? OR frustrated??? ew

[razberryslush]

i miss the sore feeling on my armss

[razberryslush]

im going to bed at 4 in the morning I was trying to do an all nighter and I mean technically I did but in my mind it doesnt count until the sun is showing so

mission failedd

[clowngirrl]

[typiicalmami-deactivated2015121]

reblog if ur a princess

[razberryslush]

it's fine ill just tear the flesh off of myself with my teeth

[razberryslush]

ew ew ew ew ew ew ew i hate this i hate being clean why is he mad me what did i even do why cant he just talk to me for once I wanna cut myself i wanna see my blood There's literally NOTHING SHARP in my room Not even anything plastic for me to break

[razberryslush]

im going to live stream slowly skinning myself alive and stapling it back into my flesh with my own teeth and nail clippings if I see one more fucking picrew on pinterest for the love of god show me actual artttt