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Escapism || Another way to die
Number One Omega Tournament Round 3
Han Yoojin (S-Classes That I Raised) vs Leon Kennedy (Resident Evil)
Han Yoojin
Leon Kennedy
Propaganda under cut:
Han Yoojin didn’t give birth three times to lose to man who merely adopted children. When someone tried to kidnap and atticwife Han Yoojin he blew up the house and took the kids. When his situationship started asking too many questions about their child together Han Yoojin said to his face the baby had nothing to do with him. When his kidnappers told him to shut his mouth Han Yoojin started meowing and barking (not a hyperbole) and they broke his leg for it.
As you can see, slutty hips and a maternal disposition does not an omega make. But even if it did Han Yoojin would still win.
Get mogged.
Mogged again.
Crying but triumphant omega.
Depressed omega.
This is what a real omega looks like. Inscribe it in your brain. Never waste my time with this nonsense again.
That Suo still has enough self restraint to not immediately free his arm from Sakura's grip, ignore him and keep going is proof enough that he respects Sakura already. Still, look at Sakura, that's not only confusion, I think he was actually concerned at Suo being like this.
I think this was Suo attempting his regular teasing surprise while he was obviously fuming with rage. And trying to figure out exactly why Sakura is attempting to stop him by bringing Sakura's own feelings to the forefront
What exactly Suo was surprised about is a mystery, personally I think it was the fact that Sakura was indeed mad at himself, that he was way over his head and it's why this happened. And also that "getting angry isn't going to help". I have plenty of thoughts on why this was a pivotal moment in their dynamic outside from Sakura seeing Suo loose his cool.
We don't get to see his expression here but I'm willing to bet it was shame and then he reigns himself in and does a 180, because Sakura doesn't need rage right now, he needs a helping hand and Suo will give it. It's his role after all.
So many thoughts on this, that this happened so early works well because Sakura wouldn't dive deeper, wouldn't try to understand what exactly pushed Suo over the brink. And I think Suo saw Sakura assuming the guilt and redirecting to focus on what was really important as maturity and immediately assumed he was being immature for being angry.
There is however a core difference in Sakura and Suo's anger that makes this a growth moment for Sakura and a repression moment for Suo. Sakura's rage is a shield, it is born of being an outcast, of being hated for who he is, of needing to defend himself and him assuming guilt is because he was told he "killed" his mother and interiorised it.
For Suo, anger is a thing to keep hidden, to control, a beast to tame because Suo can't afford to lose control if he wants to keep up appearances to not worry people. So when told by Sakura that anger won't fix things he feels ashamed of losing his careful control and puts a lid on. Suo assumes guilt because he fails at his role, at protecting, if rage is going to get him away from this role, then he has to discard it, hide it, shove it deep inside. He assumes that Sakura realising his anger doesn't help is somehow a step in maturity he is lacking but he fails to see that their types of anger are not comparable in that moment.
Sakura has trouble recognising his emotions even though he wears them on his sleeve and tries to hide them behind defensive anger. But he's honest and blunt.
Suo recognises his emotions, in fact he might be a bit too aware of them, and he puts a lid on because he has to be the one protecting and helping, never the other way around.
In the end, Sakura was right that he had been overconfident in his own rage at what they'd done to his friends, but he assumed too much guilt.
Suo was right to be angry at Keel, after all they had hurt the person he was supposed to protect, this was by all means their fault.
Sakura expresses his thoughts and gets support but Suo puts the lid on.
I have more but I'll bring it up on the next post and actually tell you how this works with Nirei as well.
Someone has probably done this but Suo nation…how we feeling?
Suo hesitating to drape his own jacket over Nirei (even though he’ll catch a cold if he doesn’t bundle up…) only to instead place a leaf on his head is. Haunting. Suo cannot afford to hand any more of himself to Nirei, even if Nirei could get sick. Yet when he does come across a something that can serve as a “memoir” (which mind you, came into contact with his own hair), he places it on Nirei. It’s pathetic how lackluster that gesture is compared to his initial decision—but it is also like placing flowers on a grave. It does not help that Nirei is backed against an arch-shaped structure. Suo and Nirei’s friendship, to Suo at least, is dead. Furin is dead to him. Nirei is dead to him. jfc
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I keep thinking about D3rlord3 saying Avery “showed him all the beauty of the universe” and going a little insane over it because what do you MEAN all the beauty of the universe. You have seen everything. You have brushed up against infinity. You have knowledge beyond human scale. And your conclusion is still this spectacularly lonely loser (I mean that with all the love in my heart), made your existence beautiful again.
I'M DISTRAUGHT. The tragedy isn’t even that they met. It's that d3rlord3 had the capacity to understand infinity, but only learned how to value something finite right before he died. And of course it had to be another loser. Of course it had to be someone equally out of place and equally lonely and not built for any of this. The worst part about their dynamic is that if they had met earlier, it might have saved him. And if they had met later, it might have destroyed Avery too, but they met at the exact point where d3rlord was already too far gone—the ONLY possible moment where love could not save them.
(I need everyone to be sicker about them immediately.)
I kind of suck at tagging, so I made this infographic to help make it easier.
[ID: An infographic, “Tags are Tricky… A quick and dirty guide,” breaking tags down into Canon (How does it relate to canon?), Format (Is it something other than a story?), Tone (How does it make you feel?), Relationship (Describe the relationship), and Theme (What’s the theme?). Each category is numbered and shown in a box a darker shade of pink than the last.
1.examples of Canon tags: Alternative universe, Canon compliant, Canon divergence, Crossover, Fix-it Fic, Future Fic, Missing Scenes & Codas, Pre-canon/Backstory.
2. examples of Format tags: 5+1 Things, Art, Dialogue-Only, Epistolary, Online & Social Media, Podfic Poetry, Songfic, Texting.-examples of Tone tags: Angst, Crack, Fluff, Humor, Hurt/Comfort, Pining, Smut and PWP, Whump.
3. examples of relationship tags, in subcategories: Platonic (Coming Out, Families, Friendship, Siblings); Getting Together (Amnesia, Body Swap, Childhood Friends, Different First Meeting, Drunken Confessions, Enemies to Lovers, Huddling For Warmth, Meet-Cute, Miscommunication, Road Trips, Roommates, Sharing a Bed, Slow Burn, Soulmates, Strangers to Lovers, Trapped in an Elevator); PG-13 (Cuddling, First Kiss, Kissing and Making Out); Sexy Times (ABO, Dirty Talk, First Time, Kink, Roleplay, Sex Pollen, Sexting and Phone Sex, Voyeurism); Commitment (Arranged Marriage, Established Relationship, Honeymoons, Infidelity, jealousy, Kid Fic, Long Distance Relationship, Pregnancy, Weddings & Proposals).
4. examples of Theme tags, in subcategories: Activities and Interests (Baking and Cooking, Camping, Celebrations, Crafts and Hobbies, Drinking or Getting High, Fashion, Holidays, Pets, Piercings and Tattoos, Religion, Sports, Theatre and Dance, Yoga); Adaptations (Fairy Tales, Historical, Reality Show, TV/Movie/Book Adaptations); Character Drive (Anxiety and Mental Health, Introspection, Queer Themes); Jobs (Artists, Celebrities, Crime and Suspense, Firefighters, Lifeguards, Media and Journalism, Medical, Military, Musicians, Pilots, Politics, Retail, Royalty, Teachers); Other worldly (Apocalypse, Fairies, Ghosts, Magic and Fantasy, Parallel Universe, Sci-fi, Shapeshifters, Superheroes, Supernatural, Tentacles, Time Travel, Vampires, Witches, Zombies); Places (Bookstores & Libraries, Coffee Shops & Restaurants, College, Flower Shops, High School, Summer Camp, Wineries).
Note: These are examples, not a definitive list, but I hope the categories are useful. /End ID.]
I think Suo chose not to say goodbye to Sakura directly because he knew that Sakura could actually fight him back (on more equal grounds) and would get answers out of him. Suo has seen time and again that a fight with Sakura is a conversation that always reveals the truth behind whatever facade/wall his opponent put up. A fight with him always results in a change in behavior…one that results in his opponents becoming more honest with themselves.
Suo is afraid of that. He doesn’t like his fear/weakness to be seen. He doesn’t like to show the true depth of his emotions. He doesn’t want to risk saying goodbye to Sakura because the ugly truth behind Suo’s reason for leaving would undoubtedly be revealed if they were to fight — and he knows it would, because Sakura is stubborn and always confronts people head-on. Suo doesn’t want to risk that sort of vulnerability.
After all, he knows he’s no match for Sakura.
are u kidding me
Underused Microexpressions for Attraction
We’ve done lip biting to death... Let’s evolve.
• Eyes flicking to someone’s mouth mid-sentence • Forgetting what they were about to say • Leaning in unconsciously • Mirroring posture without realizing • Smiling at something that wasn’t that funny • Adjusting hair or clothes when the other person enters • Noticing and remembering details no one else bothers to • A pause before pulling their hand away • Shoulders softening • Looking away first and then back again • Swallowing before speaking • Voice lowering slightly • Turning their body fully toward the other person • A delayed reaction to a touch
I really enjoy DAWTDE's theme of individuality and personhood. It drove me crazy that, after reminding Avery that he is a real person, after Avery telling Derlord that he was a person as well, he subjects himself to becoming a means to an end despite being someone who deserves to live, too. On the other hand, it is because of Derlord's realized personhood that he is able to contradict the King and ensure things ended the way he wanted.
chapter 209 spoilers
sakura appears pissed off throughout the whole chapter, but can you imagine just how hurt he feels?
suo is one of the people he trusts the most, on subconscious level. despite them both not being great at relying on others + having different and self-sufficient fighting styles, fighting back to back came easy to them.
there were more obvious times — like when sakura asked suo to come up with the plan against noroshi — and less obvious ones, but sakura counts on suo a lot. the boy's been learning to trust others in makochi, and he did start so... without thinking it could be taken away from him.
sakura treats the town like he's there to stay and like he also expects everyone to stay. i don't think it even occured to him that suo might not come to school one day. everyone in makochi, including suo, has been so reliable and good to him so far.
and you can't even blame him, because this is the suo that readers and sakura know:
supportive. standing in front of the group. never revealing anything about himself, but always acting like a connector, like a bridge between sakura and furin. it was suo who taught sakura to fight with the group. it was suo who volunteered sakura into the position of grade captain. it was suo who helped the class to treat the newcomer like a hero on his very first school day (because it was suo who told them about the fight from the first chapter, before nirei even knew about the incident).
so before sakura knew it, he came to rely on suo — treating it as a given. despite all suo's efforst to stay disconnected/out of the picture, for sakura suo is an irreplaceable part of his life.
after keel, kaji taught him: "rely on what you see in people. they are what you see".
this is the suo sakura believes in:
and suo's actions later proved time and time again that he is the guy sakura saw in him back that day.
it's only natural that now, seeing that that guy didn't even tell his address? and lying on papers means suo had never intended to... well, be real with them? of course it makes sakura pissed as hell.
the suo x sakura fight has been foreshadowed long time ago, and i expect it to be about sakura beating into the guy he believed in. i bet, suo himself disagrees, but i also bet that sakura's ground is: suo was real with them. suo's past doesn't matter. suo's past actions don't matter. suo is genuinely kind and caring towards his friends, and loves the town, and values the role of a protector. so just like with togame, i expect sakura to remind this to suo: "become the cool guy i want to fight".
but before that? before that, he'll need to get through this pain.
pain of betrayal. and questioning if suo ever was sincere. because if suo wasn't, who knows whose lie might get revealed next?
had suo planned this or not, suo did become one of sakura's closest friends. and a closest friend turning out someone different from what you thought of them is a testament to the whole worldview, and sakura's new worldview still has cracks: it's just still a bit fragile, it's just still new; healing from traumas takes years, not the several months he's lived there, no matter how intense they were.
i believe in sakura. he'll get through this. and i also believe he'll beat some self esteem into suo's sad soul help suo to also finally choose himself (no matter what suo has in mind rn) — and finally, finally accept himself as a part of bofurin.
I am genuinely so into the fact that Suo was relying on complete ‘facts’ for he and Nirei’s encounter. He ‘takes accountability’ by apologizing for things that ‘would be’ correct to apologize for. For not communicating, for scaring them, for lying to Nirei about leaving behind a legacy. He even does so again when saying “we weren’t anything”. Because technically, yeah, they hadn’t really known each other that long. But, he’s protecting himself more than anyone else.
Whatever Suo’s situation was, those few months with Furin probably saved him in a way, and he has to pretend it doesn’t absolutely gut him by being the same, objective, non committal person ‘he’ always was ‘supposed to be’.
Go forth my minimizing compartmentalizing mentally challenged king
i love when tragedies are like “the love was there. it didnt change anything. it didnt save anyone. there were just too many forces against it. but it still matters that the love was there”
i think it's interesting how SCTIR doesn't let you forget the power that the media and fan culture has. This is especially true with the negative effect it can, and often does have on innocent bystanders. I've noticed that rarely does the negative media effect the powerful hunters, those with large backings and near hero status, but frequently harms those who are vulnerable, especially pre-regression Han Yoojin. The media is a force for positive and negative change, and after having it turned as a weapon against him pre-regression, Yoojin becomes intimately familiar with how it works, and turns it to his advantage in his new life, weaponising it against ACTUALLY corrupt people, and using it to uplift those close to him. But the trauma doesn't just go away. It seems like a relatively small detail in the grander scheme of things, but it's interesting and shows how much care the author put into the story, and some of the deeper themes of society the novel explores.
if there's another comment on the warmth of human connection during Suo's arc I'll cry btw. doubly so if instead someone is described as cold.