[reaxeons]

i am so stuck on thinking about this i cannot get the itch outta my brain Soulmates as horror, both body and mind. Society trapping you in a fairytale nightmare you can't wake up from. Dream a little dream a little dream of death is your only escape. Your body is Made for your Partner. They never let you forget this, as they put into you and your body moves and creaks and breaks, skin tears and muscles rip and organs shift and it Hurts, Love like this Hurts, but you are made to take them. Why does it never feel like they were made to give you what you want and need, but instead you were made to be taken from, inch by inch, measure by measure until you can't recognize the body you were born with because it's morphed to be the body they use. The body made for them.

[transfemme-shelterdog]

As a trans woman, I really, really, don't appreciate people acting like they know what it was like for me growing up. Like yeah, I realize that your childhood was like that and I'm sorry that you were treated that way. But don't act like that's how it is for everyone.

I was very much seen as one of the guys growing up. I went to "boys nights" with the guys, which typically consisted of very masculine activities, I had gay cis dudes hit on me, I never once was seen as anything other than a dude.

Guys never once mistreated me, or saw me as anything other than a man. Even through University, I was seen as a man to the point where my University friends were shocked when I came out to them as a trans woman.

I was even treated as "one of the safe ones" all through high school by the girls I hung out with. I had an all female friend group that I hung out with and gossiped with, and was allowed to hang out with them in and out of school, because friendship with me never came with the possibility that I was gonna make things weird and try to fuck them. I showed no interest in dating them and treated them like any other person.

They literally called me a "Girl's guy".

So, your experience isn't universal, and I really wish people would stop acting like their trauma is standard. Because it's not.

[transfemme-shelterdog]

And then there's my husband, who hated being a girl, hated femininity, was bullied by girls growing up, never had any friends aside from a few guys in high school, and was never accepted as a girl by girls.

Trans experiences aren't universal.

[gh0st-note]

They truly aren’t, because I for one actually grieve the boy I used to be, even though that isn’t who I am anymore. I mourn what could have been and yet I’m excited for what is going to be. I felt fine being a boy, and was very much seen as one of the “bros” once I finally found a friend group (even if they still treat me as one of the bros but that’s a separate matter) I personally had very little trauma surrounding my identity growing up as a young lad, even if I constantly felt out of place. Just like being trans is a spectrum, so is trauma. No one’s trauma is the same and you CANNOT presume what other people have gone through.

[vaspider]

I have such complicated feelings about my body and gender and growing up, like... I wouldn't be who I am if I hadn't been an Oldest Daughter and an Oldest Of Three Sisters in a very conservative rural home*. I loved being successfully pregnant! I hated everything else about having a uterus. Once we were done working together, I wanted it gone.

There is not one true way to be Trans any more than there is one true way to be a man, a woman, or non-binary.

*my brother and I had a loooong conversation about that once we both came out, bc like... having been that thing was important to both of us, but so was no longer being that thing. And it felt shitty to me to deny our sister's life experience too by saying "sorry, that didn't actually happen. We were never sisters."

[hachama]

I said "when I was a little girl" to TH recently, and bless him, he tried to correct me.

"NO, Imi. You aren't a girl."

Sweetheart, back then I thought i was.

"NO"

Which is to say, gender can't be flattened without losing something. It's a social construct. It's a set of traits linked to secondary sex characteristics. It's a spectrum. It's a Potato Head of expression and performance and identity. It's all of those things and none of them and I'm going to shake it shake it shake it shake it until all the weird stereotypes fall out and then I'm going to EAT IT with GLITTER and KETCHUP.

And if there's one universal way to experience any of that^, I'll eat that too.

[reaxeons]

Growing up I was always called a tomboy. And I'd like to say that as a kid and teen that was actually just what my gender was. I was a Tomboy as a child, and then one I got to Highschool and was able to learn more terms I latched onto Nonbinary immediately. I've always been outside of the dicatomy of Boy or Girl, I was a Tomboy, and then I went through puberty and was Nonbinary, and now I'm on T and had top surgery and I'm still Nonbinary- being Trans is such a specific subjective experience of Life itself and there is no One Correct Way to be Trans in any of the directions, trans fem or trans neutral or trans masc, it's all about taking reign of your own life, and of course every single trans person is different. Because every single PERSON Cis, Trans, Intersex, Perisex; every SINGLE person is different and experiences gender and sex differently. Not even touching on how race then intersects and beyond that class and every other thing that makes all of us the most Randomly Generated Person every single time. The fact that there are identical twins that are a cis and trans pair just goes to show that its even deeper than nature and nurture- it's so deeply rooted in the self that only you can speak for yourself, and I find that beautiful, but we have to stop trying to take each other down by trying to legitimize our own experiences by trying to force others to follow our same story. We all have massively different views on the same thing, let the beauty of variety be what bolsters you instead of assuming everyone HAS to be exactly like you. Yanno?

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

It's amazing just how few groceries $50 of groceries is

[butt-rice]

you can stretch $50

4lb jasmine rice ($5)

24 eggs ($4)

4cups butter ($4)

4lb dry beans ($5)

buncha bananas ($2)

4lb oats ($4)

2lb ground flaxseed ($4)

10lb potatoes ($5)

10 cans tuna ($10)

2lb carrots ($3)

jar of peanut butter ($2)

a lil treat for yourself idk ($2)

people gotta come to terms with the fact that we can't get all the luxuries all the time anymore. this is like two weeks of food. (some more some less)

[da-lil-muffin]

I kinda wanna do this, I mean buy this stuff and see how long. Can stretch it. But I live with roomies and I'm not sure how down with it they'd be.

Atomic shrimp on youtube dose some very strict budget challenges (going back a few years) and some losser ones lately. I've wanted to try something similar for a while.

[butt-rice]

i mean i'm doing it right now because of poverty reasons. it's really not bad, especially if you enjoy routone. just your meals will go from tasty crunchwrap supremes to kinda bland but easy.

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

Either groceries are WAY cheaper where you are or you live in the USA and are using a very different dollar that's worth way more than my dollar, but that's a great grocery basis either way. Obviously you need to vary the vegetables sometimes for nutrition reasons.

You can remove the blandness by splurging on a different bottled spice or sauce when you can afford it, and rotating through those with your meals.

[transcarcinization]

i live in the usa and i would kill for these prices. this person is in kansas or something

[yournewfriendshouse]

australians will make a post about the cost of living in australia under the duolopoly and someone will always reply with their weight in pounds and ounces

24 eggs for $4 seems insane even in us$ though. that price for jasmine rice has me wanting to cry

[laurenthemself]

I know Coles isn't the cheapest Australian supermarket (I believe that would be Aldi), but for the sake of making a quick comparison, this was me taking butt-rice's list and trying to make as close a match as I could. I selected the cheapest option for each item. I also did not allow myself $2 for a little treat, because... well, you'll see.

2kg Coles jasmine rice: $5.50

24 Coles Cage Free eggs: $12.80

1kg Coles Simply Unsalted butter: $14.00

2.2kg dry beans (McKenzies Five Bean mix, 375g x 6): $13.80

Bunch (3) bananas: $2.30

3.6kg Coles Rolled Oats (2x1.8kg value pack): $7.00

1kg flax seeds (Red Tractor): $9.40

4kg potatoes (Coles I'm Perfect imperfect 4kg bag): $8.90

10 x Coles Tuna Chunks 95g: $11.00

1kg Coles Carrots: $1.70

500g Coles Peanut Butter: $3.40

Total: $96.80 AUD, which is presently $69.18 USD.

Woolworths for comparison under the cut (their online interface is dogshit and I had to keep resetting the 'sort by' to low-to-high, just by the way):

2kg Sunrice Jasmine: $6.50 24 Lyndale Cage Eggs: $10.40 1kg Woolworths Essentials unsalted butter: $14.00 2.2kg dry beans (McKenzie's Black Beans, 375g x 6): $13.80 Bunch (3) bananas: $2.16 3kg Woolworths Rolled Oats: $6.00 1kg flax seeds (Macro Organic Brown Flaxseed Meal): $12.60 4kg potatoes (Woolworths Washed Potato bag) $12.50 10 x Woolworths Tuna 95g: $11.00 1kg Woolworths Carrots: $1.70 500g Woolworths Peanut Butter: $3.40

Total: $94.06 AUD, which is presently $67.22 USD.

No wiggle room for a little treat, my friends.

[reaxeons]

Just putting all of these things into walmart which is the cheapest option near us other than growing it ourselves (which we are in the process of doing) 5 lbs of Jasmine rice (only size): 6.22 24 eggs: 2.17 (on rollback normally 2.47) 16 oz butter: 3.06 4 lbs dry beans: 6.74 13 bananas: 2.60 84oz oats: 8.36 2 lbs flax seed: 8.48 10 lbs potatos: 4.74 10 cans tuna: 9.60 5 lbs carrots: 4.77 16 oz peanut butter: 1.98 Total: 58.72 USD in Rural East Coast And beyond that, Im trying to feed 3 people, and a partner of mine is allegic to the following: All Nuts Strawberries No berries (raspberry usually okay for some reason) No soy No dairy No seafood No corn Cant eat veggies unless thoroughly cooked Limited bread (cannot live gluten free because of the corn) Extra beyond that another partner of mine is Diabetic, so no. 50 dollars does NOT stretch nearly enough to feed per person in my household.

[reaxeons]

[reaxeons]

Item: Your First Video Game Rarity: ⏶ Common

What was your first video game?

Feed your dashboard by answering my question, blogger.

Very First Video game I ever Played? I want to say Pong, I'll be honest. My grandfather liked to sit me at his old old computer and let me mash keys and would load it up occasionally. If you mean the first video game that was Mine and I played and had like, comprehension of and invested time and effort into, then pokemon Crystal Version for the Gameboy Color. I loved that game and it was certainly a gateway to a whole hyperfixation that has only recently waned because of my inability to afford fucking 60 dollars every few years for a game I can beat in a week.

[reaxeons]

Item: Your ID Rarity: ⏶ Common

Do you have a username you always use in games?

Feed your dashboard by answering my question, blogger.

Yeah- it's the same username I use across basically all platforms unless there is a specific reason I cannot, which is Reaxeons. I made that user name up back in highschool and have never felt the need to change it, certainly not now at this point. I think I think of it more as my name than I do my actual name sometimes.

[reaxeons]

Item: A Soft Pillow Rarity: ⏶ Common

What's your comfort game?

Feed your dashboard by answering my question, blogger.

At the moment, Vintage Story. I would say my comfort games are a rotation of the Big Name Voxel Games, so Minecraft, Vintage Story, Hytale. Something about building and exploring and getting into the nitty gritty of mod mechanics just really is enjoyable and time consuming in a way that makes me feel accomplished, and I can focus on the game while listening to music or podcasts without feeling distracted from either things too much.

[reaxeons]

Item: The Screen Rarity: ⏶ Common

Console or PC?

Feed your dashboard by answering my question, blogger.

PC most of the time if only because I am addicted to the ability to mod things to my comfort. I do like handhelds for when I have to travel however, considering I have a desk top and can't lug that with me everywhere. Does a phone count as a console? Or is just a mini pc? Because I play a LOT of mobile games when not at home or laying in bed as well.

[bff0f7]

so can we start hunting down white liberals now or what

[adamtheredbeard]

The full picture is even more heart breaking after you open the uncropped version. Just a heads-up, it's rough

“The Roman Catholic Parish in Saskatoon, Saskatchewan was just grafitted.”

[afronerdism]

Nah let’s post it. Let’s feel it. Don’t look away.

[doobiebenson]

[butch-bakugo]

I notice alot of my followers on here skipping these posts just to mess with my lgbt ones, suspiciously the white popular ones.

Heres a not so friendly reminder, as an lgbt metis person, i dont give a single fuck what your blog is themed or if this is too painful for you to look at. Reblog this post. Reblog this post with the sources of the 751 children who were found.

Your compliance and silence as well as the compliance and silence of your ancestors is what allowed these schools to open and kill first nations children. The children of MY people.

Dont follow me if you cant reblog this post or the one with sources to your political blog or your most popular blog. Add trigger warnings if you must but if your political blog is only focused on the harms you personally face like being lgbt then you need to see some bigger pictures and stop being afraid of angering your racist mutural or actually saying some shit about racism. If you can reblog some antifa graphics or add blm to your bio to be a surface level ally, you can reblog some sources on the genocide first nations people faced and still face today.

They were CHILDREN.

They were murdered in cold blood.

[churchoftheconfusedchicken]

I’d like to add this photo I took last night in Victoria of the statue of Captain Cook. Though I myself am not indigenous, I 100% agree that these murderers, kidnappers and rapists shouldn’t have huge statues and plaques that decorate them and say how “great” they were.

Here’s another photo of the legislative assembly from yesterday. Later on there were more items, candles and signs at the memorial, as well as a big poster with 1505 painted on it but I didn’t get a picture

People need to see this. Not just quickly glance at the photos and keep on scrolling. They need to see this.

Reblog this or just stop following me

[ifiknewiwouldtellyou]

I had seen the first picture of the church, but not the second.

I went to a “Cancel Canada Day” event and burst into tears - not because I was surprised to learn of the unmarked graves (survivors told us they were there. Our government pushed it aside, and we let them), but because seeing all the people gathered in mourning drove it home: They. Were. Children.

This is my country’s legacy - and it’s not history. The last schools closed during my lifetime. My Father went to school with students who lived at the local residential school, after it was changed to a boarding house (read: holding centre) for indigenous youth who went to local schools.

They were all children, injured, abused, and killed in my country’s attempt to erase them. I want the world to see this and hold the state accountable to *active* reconciliation> I mean we could at least truly adopt UNDRIP in action instead of words for god’s sake.

[gayvampyr]

here you can read an article about a survivor of the church and some of the things he experienced to help put into perspective how awful and just how recent it was

[nothingweirdhere]

this is the memorial at the vancouver art gallery. 215+ pairs of children’s shoes (as well as stuffed toys and flowers) cover the steps…

[tiktoks-for-dead-pope]

[jadedresearcher]

I love this post so much I have done everything in my power to make sure I will never forget it via reblogging it every October 5th, in memory of discovering it for the first time

[tbposting]

See this, this is what I like about TikTok. Little moments like this

[shittycryptids]

Deer, except they’re predators

[whatthesnickerdoodle]

[zarohk]

@shittycryptids That’s a terrible one, especially because they’re real.

[da-boy-o-kultur]

Switchblade Deer

[onceuponatmi]

WHAT

[swaglexander-the-great]

it looks so fake i love it

[malewifenat]

What does the arab in your carrd mean? Is it like afab and amab?

.. i’m palestinian

[captainlordauditor]

same energy

[princesskuragina]

[unscharf-an-den-raendern]

[definitely-not-lordenglish]

[catradoraism]

[thousandfoottallowl]

there’s more

[snenby-with-two-daggers]

[0palite]

[hulking-godless-child-beast]

[augustdementhe]

SIGH

[i-restuff]

[sangononya-kokomeow]

here’s another one

[daeva-agas]

IT GETS WORSE WITH EVERY ADDITION

[elamikaaa]

how does this get even worse

[moontideempress]

I think about once in a while...

[chamomiletea-baggins]

We have another one...

[notemily]

[zenon-karr]

This is the internet now tho 😭💀

[sigridlaufeyson]

@lifeistooshorttowasteyourtime @marril96 @latent-thoughts @suometar

😂😂😂

[latent-thoughts]

Omg so many additions since I last saw this post! 😂😂😂

[rosalysaoirse]

It's funny but incredibly telling how entitled/ignorant/insensitive some of these people are... idk if it's an education gap or purposeful ignorance.

[mastreworld]

The really bewildering thing to me is that I remember when you needed to get up and pull a dictionary off the shelf, or visit a library to look up the facts you needed. Now people have all kinds of information literally at their fingertips and they can’t be bothered to use it.

[wolfpawn]

[malicemismanager]

Oh dear gods, it's gotten worse

[fierceawakening]

When you know politics but no facts

[anarchistmemedistro]

don’t take people too seriously on the internet

[captaindibbzy]

This hits different when combined with that "Americans don't learn other countries exist till they're in 5th Grade" post from the other day.

[dzamie]

Demily recently got another one lads

Also, I love that, in the sign language one, it seems like the last image might've been a gif of "fuck you," screenshot at the perfect time to let you know they were about to sign "fuck you"

[wizardsexmachine]

[sarcasticmudkip]

*blushes*

[ragefilledmunchkin]

[lagowings]

But what if it was all a dream

[7ft-tall-shadow-creature]

This is more unsettling. I know it's there. I know it should be there. I know this pristine landscape is hiding its horrors like teeth.

[lemondoddle]

[I.D. an edited version of the "children's hospital" meme photo where the splattering red pattern on the hall floor has been removed. End I.D.]

[platypik]

Well duh. It’s just color theory

[meatswitch-deactivated20231107]

Wizards (1977)

[everythingfox]

When does his album drop

[somethingusefulfromflorida]

David's secret chord...