Unspoken Truths

Writing things you'll never read. Talk to me if you wish.

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One Year

One year of my life you've taken to play with. One year of my life you've wasted away. False hope and mistreatment is all that you gave me. There was a time I cried over you for day. I worried for months about us not being friends and chances the chances I gave you were never to end. You've hurt me again, you don't even care. Run from your problems that's all you ever do. I'm done with you now, better I've found because to you I'm worthless and just a toy you kept around.

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It's really hard to talk to you about things when you make me feel worse about it all while talking to you.

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Flames

I watched myself burn

as I walked through the flames.

I turned to ash but rose again.

Forever I walked through the depth of Hell,

burning for eternity until the time you fell.

Now I'm trapped still burning slowly

because my love for you

has never gone away.

You watched from a distance

but now you're gone

and my soul you took

yet time still moves on.

Trapped in this place,

Of never ending pain.

I hope one day it may all fade away.

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Catch Up

You broke my heart.

I tried to die.

I miss watching fireflies with you at night.

You set me up to knock me down then threw a tantrum when I turned you down.

I wanted you back but lies I found. Now drama follows me all around.

You're dead and gone, my heart is still broken. My head is filled with words I left unspoken. I miss you more every day even though you never loved me anyway.

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Chapter 2.

Let's start over...

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Been Here Before

I look at my past and I see my mistakes. I fall into the same situations with just a few minor changes.

"He's different" I tell myself.

"You won't get hurt this time" I lie.

I know the truth, I know how badly this will end. So why do I keep bringing myself back here? Why do I walk down this path of self destruction?

It's too late to walk away...

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I Miss You

I miss your warmth next to me. I miss your smell on my clothes. I miss your arms wrapped around me as we drift off to sleep. Even in our dreams we can’t escape each other. I miss your smile that never fails to brighten my day paired with your ocean blue eyes that I get lost in, in every way. I miss you more every day.

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Unforgiving Story

I knew something like this would happen. I told myself not to trust you. You loved her yet you ended up with me, Why? Timing, fear and lifes unforgiving story. I’m probably just a rebound but I’ve fallen for you.

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Seems Too Good

I love the fact you’re mine and I’m yours. It still seems too good to be true. But I’m still scared.

Scared I’ll get hurt again. Scared of hurting you. Scared of losing you or that you’ll leave me again… But most of all I’m scared you’ll upgrade to someone better.

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Falling Apart

They called me an idiot when they found out about us, they warned me I’d get hurt. I laughed it off. I thought I knew better.

“I’m not over her”

Those 4 words hurt me more than anything else you could have said. It would be less painful if you had said “I don’t love you”. Nothing hurts more than knowing I’m still nothing compared to her. I hate knowing at any moment you could drop me for her.

I hate that I let myself believe in us. I hate that I let myself believe your words. I hate that I don’t know what to do and that I can’t stop crying. I can’t feel a single thing yet I know everything is falling apart.

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Emotions

Emotions are a strange thing. One moment I will sit here thinking about you, about your smile, your seductive laugh, that infamous grin that just drives me crazy… Then reality strikes and my eyes fill with tears which will never be shed.

It’s a strange thing that your image in my mind gives me a moment of bliss and lifetime of anguish.

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Damage

I am not sure what breaks my heart more; the fact I know I’ll never be able to compete with her or the fact I’m the only one to witness the damage she has caused you.

You still love her even though she broke your heart. You always will. I try my best to piece you back together but I’ll never compare to her.

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do you ever just want to shout like… it’s because i’m sad! like yes i didn’t do my homework, yes i didn’t text you back, yes i’ve been hiding in my room! i’m sorry! but i haven’t killed myself so honestly where is my badge!

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He Doesn't Deserve This

I wish you could see how badly you broke his heart. I wish you were here to witness the trail of tears and anger you have caused him. If only he could see you're not that great. Just look at the pain you've caused... he doesn't deserve this. I know it's not all your fault either but he doesn't need this. He deserves to be happy. I hate that I blame you when I know it wasn't all your fault. Why can't he be happy? Is it too much for me to want him to be happy for once? I want you to see the aftermath of your situation for what it really is and not the fake mask he hides behind so he doesn't upset you.

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You Care About My Body

Isn't it funny that you promise we'd be friends after we ended this little fling of ours? I mean you promised. I told you I wouldn't and couldn't believe you and you begged me to. So, I believed you. How stupid I was. We haven't ended things yet but any time I don't feel like playing with you I won't hear from you. You don't care about me. You care about my body. I hate how much that breaks me. I hate how much I care. I hate how much I want us to be a real thing, I don't want us to just be a fling. I am so jealous of the other girls you flirt and have flings with. I hate that you tell me about them. I hate that I have feelings for you.

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Ripped My Heart Out

I let myself believe that you cared about me even though every bone in my body told me not to. I had wished I could believe you and then I let my wish become a reality. Now I'm here. Broken. It feels like you have ripped my heart out from my chest and you're enjoying every moment of watching me fight for survival.

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Fuckboy

Falling for a fuckboy is the absolute worst. Knowing that he will never take things with you seriously and that there’s always someone else when you’re not looking. The feeling of knowing that at any moment you could be dropped for someone better.